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ELLA Tamara Bleszynski.
6 april 1993.
West Side.
Juying Secondary School.
O Level This Year.
A Dancer But Being An Actress Is My Biggest Dream.
NUTZCREW repp FunkyNutz.
Red & Adidas Freak !
Single But Unavailable.
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Saturday, February 28, 2009
Title; A Real Man Cry .
* cryin *
idk whr shld i start . idk how shld i start ............ umm , ...... :'(
i cant forget bout wad happened just now , really . & i must say tht , I LOVE NUTZCREW !! & I LOVE DIN !! i knew i was rude just now , or mayb SO rude to my vice capt . i am so f*cked up just now , really . & i cant control my anger & let it off to Muhd Safiudin Bin Rassoll (vice capt) . umm , i wont blog it here to let dhe whole world exactly noe wad had happened just now . i guess its between Nutzcrew fam .
To Din , im so terribly sorry ! i didnt meant to . i knew tht ev'1 make mistakes in our lyfe . aku tau tu .. aku tk sala kan ko din , aku pon tk sala kan nutzcrew . aku yg sala . i didnt giv u dhe opportunity to explain . i am so selfish ! i take things for granted . :'( * cryin * Din , thnks for dhe hugs u gav me just now , for me to cry on ur shoulder , & for u to cry on mine . i really treasure u lots Din !
To Abg Jamyl , Really u r dhe important man in us . Gave us advice , support us since i am sec 1 till now . & i guess , if u didnt stop me just now , i will even go further . Thnks Abg Jamyl . For dhe scoldings , dhe advices , dhe hugs . i will take it all tht in a positive way . & u'v make me realised my mistakes , my stupid mistakes ! u r dhe best Abg Jamyl , :'( .
To Nutz Crew , i am so sorry to all of u . & on behalf of Jason , Izza , Nadyr , Gico , Lyna & Riza , we r really sorry to cause this problem . & i hope tht u guys learnt from us , NOT to do it . Juniors , please dont follow this bad attitude from us . i want u guys to concentrate on your dancework which is on 21st march ayte . please please please .. atleast , masok final , top 3 for Nutzcrew ouhkay . i got faith in u guys & girls ! & Seniors , i noe its diff. to forget this . even i myself now still cryin bout this . its ouhkay if u wanna call me emo or what . cuz its pain for me to hold on to my tears inside . im just lettin it off all . lets put this aside first . & concentrate on our syf . omg dhe rehearsal is in 2 daes tyme . Lets do it once & do it a good one ayte . I love Nutzcrew ! its really a cryin dae for Nutzcrew today . & i wont forget tht . its a good thing to let out all ur hidden feelins . Thnks Abg Jamyl to hav tht session .
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Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Title; Happy Birthdae LUKE Vogue !
Well , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U DARL ! I'll pray may all ur wishes come true , && ALLAH BLESS YOU :) Taq care & whooow ! Sweet 20 *smile* Love u LUKEandro !!
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Title; Lessons Bored !
O.M.G !! Im so bored in class . Was so talkative & hyper with my frens , but after dhe teacher gave us last warnings , then i kept quiet all dhe way . Cuz i was concentrating drawing & colouring tht ' eLLa <3> :) Hehehee !!
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Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Title; Random topics from us
Hey hello !!! :) Just now assembly in sch was really best ! Elfaezah Ulhaq , one of dhe actress at suria channel , a Jeritan Sepi actress , came to my school for dhe assembly . with another 2 guys . dhe theme was about dhe influences of smoking , yeah . & i lyke her , as in her way of acting . As most of my frens knew tht my biggest dream is to become a actress :) & also i love Tamara Bleszynski , a indonesian actress . omg she's so perfectly good in acting ! && she's gorgeous !
Dance prac gonna be everydae & also gonna eat up my sat & sun :( humpph ! Mom & dad really mad at me cuz of dhe shoe . dhe nike air force shoe . Not mad as in mad bt mad as in nag3 at me . As u guys noe , economy nowadays .. Bt the funniest thingy is tht , when i asked for dhe money , yes they DID mad , but dad's hand is flyin to dhe wallet & thn gave me :) Hahahahaa !! Thnks beloved mom & dad <3>
Ayte2 ! I was sittin & talkin with Alif , Iqah , Izza & Nadyr just now after prac . We were talkin shit . Random topics come out in each's mouth :) & suddenly come out this topic bout LOVE & RELATIONSHIPS . Well we shared evthing together just now . & yeah , dhe question tht Iqah asked me was somehow diff. to answer . dhe question was , who is my best guy i ever had . Act. all my guys , i mean ex , were best & great . But i cant deny this tht , dhe guy who showered all his love to me , dhe guy who sacrifices evthing for me , dhe guy who with full romance , dhe guy who cares for me & i mean FULLY cares , dhe guy who is always 'pujok' me when im 'mrajok' ( i love this part ) , & tht guy is AISY ! A mixed blood between Portugal & American . & Aisy is his malay name :) He joined Islam . eventho we lived far apart now , he still gave me dhe late night calls , but provided if he's free . & i love to be one of his frens now :) && ouhh , Alif cant answer tht question from me , hahahaa ! Come on Alif , u guys are lyke reachin 3 yrs & u cant answer it ? But i noe ur heart will right , so Iqah , dont sad , cuz i noe the answer from hym gonna be YOU :)
I MISS MCFLURRY !!! I MISS BUBBLE TEA - OREO CRUSH !!! :( But must endure , cuz now i wanna collect money . & i & my classmates always bring 'bekal' together to school for recess :P ooopss2 .. hahahaa ! Well , they also wanna collect money , hehee !
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Sunday, February 22, 2009
Title; Thought i couldnt make it for MDIS
I thought i couldnt make it for MDIS comp cuz its clash with my prac . But i make it !!! Thnks to one of dhe Voguelicious who updated me with dhe tyme & all this mornin :) Also thnks to Abg Jamyl who released us early just now at 11am :) As he knew tht i , Alif , Iqah , Nadyra & lots more laa , who wanna really come for dhe MDIS thingy . Thnk u Abg Jamyl !!!
Altho we released early , OMG ! , dhe prac was tiring !! Only 1 break we got . & then we do details all the way .. Details , as usual , i noe its gonna be tiring , plus i havent had my breakfast yet . But yeah , no excuses lyke duhhhh !!! Must sacrifice for my beloved Nutz crew :)
After Abg Jamyl released us , Iqah & Alif was argue-ing with me about dhe MDIS comp , the tyme tht dhe comp starts . I said its start at 1pm cuz i rmmbr tht Izzy told me tht THIS MORNING . Its lyke , .. 'hey my dearest Alif & Iqah , im not nyanyok yet ouhkay . He told me THIS MORNING !' Then Iqah said tht she go to dhe websyte & its stated thr tht dhe comp starts at 12 . Argue , argue & argue ( but in a good way & in a jokes manner ) . Well , each of us wanna win , altho we knew tht we wont get anythin . Hahahahaa ! Thts dhe childish behaviour of us , ALWAYS !! So , Alif asked me to call Izzy cuz he wanna ask hym , but Izzy didnt pick up . Mayb busy practising i guess .. So called Isaac & he did picked up . Alif was talkin to him & Isaac said tht , ' dhe comp starts at 1pm & its a open space ' . Iqah2 , listen to me & read my lips babe , its ONE PM :P Hahahaa ... !!
So rushed home & Vimal , one of dhe Voguelicious , called me & said tht he wanna go to MDIS with me . So , yeah i said ouhkay & meet hym at Jurong Point Int. , last cabin . Nadyra , Faizah , Lyna , Vimal & me :)
OUHKAYY VOGUELICIOUS WAS SOO CUTE CUTE CUTE !!! ALL LOOK LYKE SECONDARY STUDENTS OMG !!! & THEY REALLY BREAK THT BUILDING DOWN I TELL YOU ! SLUTTY KIDS .. ( thts wad Luke said ) :) But really they are so HAWT WARM SEXY VOGUE ! & when dhe part they lie down & shake their legs , OMG ! Eventho its a easy steps by just lying down & shake ur legs , but they really adding flavour to it . & im not surprise if they won cuz THEY R THEY . I mean they hav their own style & their own way . Their splits & all . Basically they r unique to me :) & i heard tht one of dhe judges said tht she really lyke them ! Wooohooo .. !! Congratz Voguelicious for clenched dhe 2nd runner up :) Ya'll r so Fantastic Marvellous Divas !!!
Isaac introduced me & Faizah to 3OT . But i didnt rmmbr one of dhe name :P Hahahahaa , but wad i noe is , they r superbly friendly . && , their dance , so nice ! See laa who choreo , kalau bukan Abg Isaac kyte ny .. Hhahahaa ! Will update picx with 3OT soon kays . But idk why i cant upload it .
Thought of goin Youth Park after tht with Freekzy as Abg Faliq singin thr & also dance . But im so sorry Abg Faliq . I cant cuz my mom msg me to go home :P As family outin with my relatives , last minute . You noe Sat night .
My spectacles tht with degree LOST !! AL-AZLAN SHAH BIN ABDUL RAHMAN !!!!! hahahhaa !! I was standin with hym on a chair at MDIS cuz i cant see & he too . So we stand together in one chair . Then one of dhe 5 ,6 ,7 ,8 crew , go & push tht chair cuz he wanna joke arnd with us i guess . & i was shocked & ' melata ' abit :P & lucky Abg Laa save me , if not i fall down , lyke Alan . Hahahahhaa ! & insyde my bag all come out . TSK ! Thn check2 , spec lost . Aiyooo , hav to buy a new one . sigh .. Thought of buyin contact lenses , but im SCARED ! Scared to use it . I've used it before , nadyra put on for me . But still , im scared , dont noe why eyh . Hahahaa ! Im lyke shakin when usin tht . :P
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Saturday, February 21, 2009
Title; SYF ! Its Not Done Yet !
Just now was my last paper , Malay . Kinda easy , well , M.A.L.A.Y dokk ! Hahahahaa ! & yeah im so happy ! Atlast , all done !
Dance prac was tiring just now , but fun as usual ! & today we hav to learn 2 choreo . MUST today ! As dhe rehearsal for SYF is next wk , sunday 1st march . For dhe mix , not sure its gonna be ready but i hope it wil soon . As ive send Abg Jamyl Abg Isaac's both choreo song . Only left Alif to mix it .
Btw , i love Nutz crew new song ! Abg Faliq , ur voice superb ! Alif rap dope as usual ! OOOWWWWW , I LYKE ........... :P
Sh*t ! Its seems lyke i cant go for Voguelicious's comp tmr ! Haizzz ! Due to practice . Lyke ive said , SYF SYF SYF ! Its not done yet , thts why kinda busy this week . But anyways , GoodLuck babes ! - Voguelicious & - 3OT
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Monday, February 16, 2009
Title; Omg ! Thts My 1st Tyme Seein It & Hope Wont See It Again
Well i just reached home , from Punggol . Go catch crabs & fish at Sengkang Riverside Park . Me & my bro go to my aunts's house first at Jurong East . After that at arnd 12am+ , both my uncles , both my aunts , my beloved grandma , one of my bro & me , drive to punggol to fish . Well thats my uncle's fav hobby . I followed them because im bored at home . I am total insomnia , cant sleep at night . & what i do is onlyne ,whereas all my fams sleepin . aiyooo !! Well , managed to get ONLY 1 fish , i forgot dhe name :P & 10-12 crabs i guess .
There's teenagers torning there also . & ask what we've got .. Hahahaa !
& oooooo !!! Not only me saw this , my aunt & uncle saw it too . My aunt shut her mouth bt my uncle dont . Well my uncle hear something strange , tht tyme arnd 4.30am . My aunt saw a white thingy . & me ? I saw under dhe big messy trees , there's a person wearin all white , crawling .. & dhe crawl was superb fast & then tht thing lost . I was so scared but kept quiet inside . Dont wanna say anything , cuz wad ive heard from 'MISTERI JAM 12' , a radio ria station , its says tht dont ever say anything tht u saw . Just kept quiet . But yeah , tht figure of tht thing still stuck in my head .
Well , reached home at 6.15am which is now . Tired !!!! & ouhh , i wont be bloggin this week . Will be busy for common test . Wish me luck :P Thnk u !
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Title; Happy Birthdae V !
Happy Birthday Deary Vimal Vogue :) May All Your Wishes Come True ! Take care V & enjoy babe :)
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Sunday, February 15, 2009
Title; Happy Valentine !
Happy Valentine's Day People !
*My Beloved Nutzcrew*
-->Freekzy Nutz <3 Alif a.K.a Aircho Artist <3 Al-Azlan Shah a.K.a Lanz <3 Fauzi Rashid a.K.a Slick <3 Adam a.K.a Spike <3 Iskandar a.K.a Brodha J
-->Lil Nutz <3 Athirah a.K.a TiaraVoc <3 Izzawati a.K.a BabyFlizo <3 Shahidah a.K.a Japonica <3 Syafiqah a.K.a Baby Aircho <3 Diana a.K.a Kechiq <3 Murniyati a.K.a Ladynette <3 Nadhirah a.K.a Nadyr <3 Rizayantie a.K.a Tienvientage
-->Funky Nutz <3 Ridhaufi a.K.a Reed Blaze <3 Ameer a.K.a Spark <3 Jason a.K.a Red Sky ( hahahaa ! ) <3 Safiudin a.K.a Blitz <3 Hafiz a.K.a Freeze <3 Faizah a.K.a Feeza <3 Aqilah a.K.a Akit <3 Erlina a.K.a Dancing Queen <3 Nabilah a.K.a eLLa ( im wishin myself valentine ? :P ) <3 Aisyah a.K.a I-sya <3 Nisa <3 Huda a.K.a Hudz <3 Fazliana a.K.a Fazz
-->Groovy Nutz <3 Gico a.K.a GroovyG DansBoy <3 Amri <3 Haziq a.K.a B Nick <3 Sharifah a.K.a Shasha <3 Amalia a.K.a B-gurl Badafly <3 Nadya <3 Fazeera a.K.a Eera <3 Soe <3 Sari <3 Nadhirah <3 Farhanah <3 Sarah <3 Qistina
-->Phat Nutz <3 Luqman <3 Hazwan <3 Daniel <3 Hairina <3 Natasha <3 Nadhirah <3 Erza <3 Rashidah <3 Liyana <3 Aiqah
My Beloved Babes , *VOGUELICIOUS* <3 Azizul a.K.a Izzy <3 Desmond a.K.a Tyra Banks <3 Veron a.K.a Rihanna <3 Isaac <3 Fadlie <3 Sri Alif <3 FauziRassull a.K.a Bitch <3 Jaz <3 Luke <3 Hafiz a.K.a Afez <3 Alif <3 Vimal <3 Ayul [ sorry if i miss anyone , cuz this is who i noe :) ]
*My Beloved SchoolMates*
<3 Muhammad Dinie Bin Ramli <3 Zaki a.K.a Jackie <3 Rahim a.K.a Ayim <3 Zaifuldin Shah a.K.a Apul <3 Alif a.K.a Apit <3 Firdaus :) <3 Aisy <3 Luqman a.K.a Luke <3 Huzaiyed a.K.a Ayed <3 Fadzli a.K.a Ayul <3 Zhen Yuan a.K.a Abang <3 Zylyna a.K.a Lynn <3 Jiliah a.K.a Jyl <3 Sue a.K.a Ezzie
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Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Title; We Love His Choreo :)
Abg Isaac's choreo was really a blast ! He choreo-ed for us 2 songs . -Kitty Box by Lil'Kim -Bamboo Banga by M.I.A Thnks to hym :) We really love it ! Abg Isaac also explain bout -What -How -When -Why Voguelicious is borned/all about . I totally agreed with all dhe words that he said . He also gave us advices tht not to be arrogant when we are at dhe top . Also dont backstab people . Just say it straight to dhe face if we hate tht particular person .
Well , i intro Abg Isaac & Nutzcrew dhe game tht i played with my classmates , 'DONT LAUGH' !! & we played together , making one circle . A 24 years old guy sittin on tht circle , on dhe floor , crowded with 15-17 years old girls . OMG ! Cute though :)
Its so not gonna end if i post it from start to end . Hahahahaa ! What i can say is , .. 'I/WE LOVE ABG ISAAC'S SESSION' & 'Abg Isaac lose for dhe 'Dont Laugh' game & get punished by dhe gurls :P , .... AAAAA-DDUUYYYYYYYY !!! .... '
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Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Title; We r just close people . Ive said this lots of tymes !
I REALLY LOVE TO PLAY THAT GAME , ' DONT LAUGH ' WITH MY GUYS CLASSMATE !!! Hahahaha !! Its help me to forget all my stress .. && , well ev'one knows im lyke 85% love sleepin in class , especially if the subject is totally bored ! But yeah , ive improved ! I am no longer sleepin in class after i play this game with them . Cuz its lyke most of the tymes we play . Hahahahhaa !
Well , again , i hav to maq this really2 clear that Diny is just my friend . & im sure he treat me the same too .. Not more so dont get confused ! We r just close but not more kay . Dont get misunderstanding . & well if u guys heard that he called me baby , which he did most of the tymes , that is just a joke ouhkay . & i treat that call of baby lyke a close fren , not as his baby . & yeah , i love hym cuz he is my partner in classrm & he is my cloze fren , thats all . Guess u guys should be more open in ur mind ayte !
See u tmr Abg Isaac :)
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Saturday, February 7, 2009
Title; Happiness :)
Heyy again ! Sorry for not updating as im kinda busy with lyfe nowadays . Projects , homeworks everywhr . & im also the committe for the design arts in my class now & also busy with my dance prac . Hahahaa ! Nowadays , i me & my guys classmate keep on playin a game called , 'DONT LAUGH' . So dhe funny ! The game is lyke this , ... 1st . We hav to maq 1 circle , maq sure evryone face can be seen . 2nd . When someone shouted , 'START' , no one can laugh anymore , all serious . 3rd . Anyone who hav jokes in their mind , just say it OUT LOUD ! & theperson that sayin his/her jokes , can laugh , but the rest , also can laugh but no teeth should be seen . 4th . If ur teeth is seen , U LOSE & U WILL BE PUNISHED !
HAhahahha !! Well , im dhe only girl insyde the game , so i dun get the punch lyke what the guys got . They just 'jentek' me .. umm i dunnoe wads in english , hahah !! But its pain though , as u noe , guys's hand .OUCHH ! Zaki jentek me at my ears ,ARGHH !! Pain ! Well , i love this game :) Been playin it since last week . My cheek is so pain & my face turn red ! Hahahah ! Not only me but everyone ! :) Till our teachers fed up & giv up with us . & also the relief teacher . HAHHAHA !! Notty .. !!!
Dance prac was so , .. i must say , Great but hahaha , idk :P We , girls , hav to learn how to backflip & the guys will hold us . Its so difficult but i kept tryin . Yes i did it ! But with Alif . But too bad he is not my partner , my partner is Ameer . So funny ! I guess if there's no mat , im goin to crashed my face & ev'thing . Cuz i keep falling & its so PAIN !!
& Isaac from Voguelicious/Fhunkie Stylers , will come & teach vogueing Nutz crew Syf's girls . OMG OMG OMG !!! Hahahah ! He'll be cuming on 10 feb{tues) . && Mazlan , will be Nutz crew permanent instructor too !! OMG OMG ! Hhahaha , its lyke wad ive wished for & prayed for , hav come true :) Thanks God ! & hope that another wished/prayed of mine , will come true too :) && Nasir , 1 of the best bboy , thats wad Abg Jamyl says , will be cuming too on 10 feb(tues) , to teach Nutz crew guys & Groovy nutz's girls to break . So yeah .. Wow ! got lotz of profesional coming down & teach us . Im so happy & thanks God for ev'thin !
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Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Title; im busy with lyfe now
Ouhkay well . Actually today some of the Nutz'crew , [me , feeza , nadyra , din , reed , haziq] , hav to maq/prepare for our Nutz'crew propz for both dancework & syf . But Mr Saz not ready/design for the things that we r doing & also , we havent bought the things yet . The wood cost $60 & we hav to ask the money from the teacher-in-charge . Hope this propz can finish asap . But i noe its gonna taq months as we nid to design it , draw it , paint it , cut it & etc .. everything hav to be done perfectly as its a big thingy to me & also to my crew mates . & we must pleased our instructor,Abg Jamyl & our teacher-in-charge . Ouh yaa , feeza & erlyna told me that Abg Jamyl said that we r goin to get a new instructor , so total , we r havin 2 instructor . Its either Ate Kate [miss her!] or Abg Mazlan .. Not comfirmed yet but i want both :) Hehee ! & ouhyaa , Abg Jamyl also said that pretty soon one of the b-boying guy gonna come & teach us about breakdancing . Cool. Its been a long tyme i didnt break , after im into Ate Kate's steps[girlish steps]. & i will definitely sure that im gonna slack in breakdancing , trust me Alif . But i'll keep in pace :)
Well , congratz to our soccer team for winning the tournament just now , with Assumption English Sec Sch . 6-3 really proud of u guys :) & im so sorry my boys for not watching u guys as im busy helping Gico for the Groovy'Nutz's Girls for danceworks . but atleast i got cheer for u guys for the first 15 mins ryte .. :)
Get baq my Maths test result just now . My teacher was quite pissed off with the whole class as its lyke half the class failed . I hav to accept all the lectures & nagging & etc from my teacher as i did not even touch my books for revising , eventhough i knew there was a test that day . But im so surprised that i passed that paper , eventhough its not flying colours . I get 13 out of 25 . Its a just pass but its still a pass ryte ? Hahaa ! & tmr , im gonna hav a Social Studies's test . OUH BORED ! i hate it ! & gonna hav Geography's test on this cuming thurs[5 feb] . Haizz .. ! Test eve'where . TSK ! I hav to study as i dont want to be lyke gong gong when sitting for the test .
Ouhkay i can see that my splits is lyke improving , i guess . But yaa , it is ! Thanks to all ppl who teaches me & givin me some tips of it . Really i used all tips u guys gived me . Hahahaa ! Really apreciate it truckloadz ! Its improving but not that well done . Its taq quite sometymes though .
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Monday, February 2, 2009
Title; Someone Special
There's someone special in my life Who doesn't know I care I wish I could let him know it But let it show , I wouldn't dare
I don't want to even risk it I don't want to even try For if he knew I felt this way I'd feel insecure and shy
I never thought I'd feel this way I never thought I'd care There's something in that smile of his That makes me stop and stare
How can I tell if he likes me ? Will he ever look my way ? I'll keep my feelings hidden for now And save them for another day.
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Sunday, February 1, 2009
Title; Chingay '09
i've lost my voice due to shouting , screaming & etc during chingay :) i really love it ar . & ouh , really a big thanks to Desmond for the tix . here's a big hug for u my BearBear ;) & ouh , we r damn really sorry for being late to meet u guys & taq the tix . sorry eyh . We hav to meet Voguelicious at 5pm at opposyte Funan . But we reached there at arnd 5.15 or 5.20pm . Due to , 1st - girls are really takin hours for dressed . 2nd - FUNAN ?? hahah ! i thought Punan :P Lucky i saw abg hafiz & saiful . OMG ! I SAW SAIFUL !! :) I TRUCKLOADZ MISS HYM ! & IM SO HAPPY GET TO SEE HYM ,HEES :) & so abg hafiz direct me the way to go to FUNAN . but abg hafiz very funny ! he said , 'PUNANG ?' hahah ! i laugh ! & yupp , meet Voguelicious there . Hugs & cheek kiss :) & pass the tix & talk2 for awhile then go straight to chingay . sitted & yaa , waiting for #12 float :) & now wad ? FAUZIRASSULL sit same row as us but not side by side . but its near though :) took picx wid hym & too sad to sae didnt taq picx with voguelicious wearing that cute bees's costume . they r cute !!! the fireworks so loud but nice ! i shout & shout & shout & ive lost my voice .. also shout so loud when #12 float comes :) & Veron & Des wave their hands towards me & feeza . how sweet :) love them ! TRUCKLOADZ !
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