IT'S SO HARD TO PRETEND NOT TO LOVE A PERSON WHEN YOU REALLY DO.
Profile.
ELLA Tamara Bleszynski.
6 april 1993.
West Side.
Juying Secondary School.
O Level This Year.
A Dancer But Being An Actress Is My Biggest Dream.
NUTZCREW repp FunkyNutz.
Red & Adidas Freak !
Single But Unavailable.
im so tired , very !!! today is dhe briefing date for dhe competition smack tht beat . at first , all DB Star says they can go , only afez tht says he maybe going . then received a call from alyv saying tht he cant go as his mom wanted hym to follow to go whr , i dont know . V then called me to go with hym as he is alone , so meeting at jp int. as usual . also , ive msg-ed faizah to update her whr & wad tyme to meet if she wanna go . 1st-ly at yishun cuz tht plan is when alyv is going . then when alyv is not going , some more dhe red line is very long in tyme , so meet at outram park to chnge to purple line . but there's no replies from her . so i thought she's not going , furthermore she is going to west coast plaza for freekzy nutz & apparently i dont whr she is on tht tyme . so me & V just go straight to purple line . when we are at potong pasir , then she msg-ed me , saying to meet at dhoby ghaut . so i thought of asking her to go alone & just meet her at sengkang cuz its we are ald at potong pasir which is kinda far from dhoby ghaut but natasha wong said tht she chnged mind , she dont wanna go . then afez called me saying he cant go . im not tht mad laa to everyone for dhe last min. chnged of mind . & lucky got V as i think if im alone , shit i can get lost because of dhe LRT !! im so tired . just eat 3 nugget & 1 curry puff at old chang kee todae . im so no energy .. also no mood lyke hell !!!! hate it !! will post why laa eyh next tyme .
Title; my Honesty . NC , Vogues , Izzy . Read This For You Guys
Its tyme to be honest . i dont wanna hide anything from my love ones , Nutzcrew & Voguelicious . To my beloved Nutzcrew , yes i am joining a competition with other people . me & faizah will be joining them . . afez from Voguelicious . alyv from Voguelicious . meow meow & both me & faizah . We are called as DB Star* . & we are joining a competition called , 'Smack That' which is on 11 april . syf is still syf . we will still come down for every practices with u guys . thts our promise-d . & of course u guys are still my crew , my 1st crew !
To Voguelicious , actually , we wanna give it a pass to this comp , but Fadlie from Voguelicious really support us , really encourage us & give a positive impact which make us stronger & have dhe mentality of dont give up . So does Voguelicious , thts include Abg Isaac . then afez & alyv called me & sort things up . if its not because of Voguelicious & thts include Abg Isaac , i think , we will not joining this comp & thts it . really a big thnks to them ! yeah , if they are angry or mad at dhe 5 of us( DB Star* ) , to formed dhe grp without anything ( permission & etc ) , i wont taq all dhe scoldings in negative ways . infact , i will taq each words tht come out from their mouth in a positive way , seriously . & also at dhe same tyme i will learn not to repeat dhe same mistakes again . its lyke omg , i really love them & im their no.1 fan . how can a no.1 fan did this ?! i did regret . & dhe most thing tht nearly maq me cry , ( but im not cryin , NEARLY ) is tht , Fadlie chatted with me & really2 gave me support ! & i mean he really really really really gave me support . its difficult to put into words but all of his words are kept in my heart , forever ! i wont forget all tht & its a lesson to be learned actually . Last tyme , yes i am a crazy fan of u guys ! But now , u guys are really my STAR , my IDOL & my INSPIRATION ! Voguelicious are my S.I.I :D
& to my beloved Izzy , i beg u not to be out from Voguelicious . really really really really really really seriously seriously seriously seriously seriously seriously . ur journal stated this , '' well, i had speak my mind to isaac jazz luke veron and fauzi that i may not join voguelicious anymore '' did u know how my expression lyke when reading it ?? i was in a big great shock-ed !!! i nvr ever thought tht u gonna type tht down . its maq me total sad after i read it . maybe u have some problems or issues with Voguelicious , i dont know . but here ur crazy fan begging u not to stop dancing with Voguelicious :( i mean its ouhkay to taq a break & i do know tht ur whole body are aching ! i know . bt atleast once in a while , go for a event with Voguelicious . bt wadeva it is , AS LONG AS YOU'RE HAPPY ! on what u r doing , then thts fine :D yess , thts ur line in capital letters at my tagboard :) & u even stated tht , ' and geetin a stable job, that i can make it as a career ' . frankly speaking , i never ever forget to say each & everyone of Voguelicious's name & pray for dhe goods & blessing from God in my prayers , ever since i knew u guys , really !! & yes , i hope tht u gonna have tht stable job soon kays .. lastly i wanna say is tht , I MISS U LYKE , ALOT ALOT ALOT ! i miss chatting with u . & now , dhe only way for me to know dhe updates of ur lyfe is through ur journal . thts why last week on dancewerk when i see ur face je , i shouted ur name & yeahh .. but i understand tht u r busy with ur Hougang sec , so nah its ouhkay . & ur Hougang sec , very Voguelicious ;) nice one Izzy . Taq care . love u ! <3
sorry for not updatin my blog cuz been busy . but hey , Alhamdulillah tht my grandma has ald discharge from hospital yesterdae & now she's in her house :) only tht she cant walk tht much , so my mom now will always go to her house which means my mom has to travel evrydae from boon lay to woodlands . then me , my brothers & dad will go to woodlands at arnd 8pm( after my dad come home ) , to visit grandma & fetch mom home . & to Abg Isaac , Alhamdulillah u r also discharge from dhe hospital ! im so happy to hear tht news . God has answered all my prayers :D but not all actually ;)
i love our syf's costume !! ish !!! lyke ..... missy elliot seyy !! ahahahhaa ! random sakk !! but i really love it !! so loving it ! <3
no rest at all for today . busy woman , really !! btw , THNKS KIKI , I WONT STRESS MYSELF AYTE :D school as per normal , end at 1.40pm . then went for dance prac for syf . dhe syf is really pretty soon . Malay dance & band's syf is on 6 april ( eyh2 , my bdae laa ) , hehehhee !! hip hop(nutz crew)'s syf is on 15 april . & contemporary's syf is on 21 april . everyone is busy ! just now prac end at about 7pm .
wanted to eat at home bt my mom was away to KKH since mornin to accompany grandma . she did cooked before she go . cooked nasi goreng ( white ) . i didnt eat dhe white nasi goreng . bt i eat dhe red one :) cuz i cant eat if dhe food is not spicy enough . so i went to kfc with akit , lyna & izza . ( bt then lyna went home . KENTAL ! hahah , jk ! )
reached home at arnd 7.45pm . get myself washed up & go to KKH , with dad to visit grandma again & fetched mom too .
- yeah ! we get our dance money ald !!! dhe breathe comp ( 2008 ) , whr we get 3rd . & hiphop pulse comp ( 2008 ) , whr we get 3rd , again :) aiyoo , 2008 seyy !! now 2009 , goin APRIL ald .. hahhahaa ! bt nehmind .. we ald get dhe money :)
planning to visit Abg Isaac tmr after sch with Nutzcrew gurls . bt he didnt reply my sms . so i dont knw wad ward & no.of bed he's in . bt hopefully he's feeling fine by now .
not in dhe mood todae . grandma was hospitalized since yesterdae night . just morning she had her operation . mom called me when im in sch at arnd 1+pm , sayin tht dhe operation is over . grandma now havin high fever aft dhe operation . haizz !! so sch end at 1.40pm . rushed to canteen to meet Din then rushed to staff room to meet Ms Nada , sayin tht im not comin for dance prac . Aft tht msg Abg Jamyl while run home . well , thnks for dhe understanding guys !
Reached home , bath & get chnged & rushed to KK hospital . tell u i sleep all dhe way in mrt . then chnged at raffles place & straight to novena . reached thr , grandma's face was totally sick ! can see tht ! haizz .. then she's feelin headache & asked me to massage her forehead . get well soon nek ! only God knws how much i love u & how much i care for u nek !! Received msg from Feeza sayin tht Abg Isaac at NUH .. cuz of lungs & asthma failure . :( haizz ... God , please dont hurt my loved ones .. dont worry abg , be strong . i'll come & visit u soon alryte ..
people , please taq good care of urself ayte . im so tired right now ! haizzz !!!
God , please answer all my prayers , please .......
Congratz to both Groovy nutz ( gurls ) & Phat nutz !!!! Nutzcrew really proud of u guys , & gurls ! Phat nutz : its ouhkay u guys didnt get to finals .. atleast u guys won dhe most energy award . i guess its a great achievement at start . furthermore , u guys are new & this is ur 1st comp ryte .. its a good experience :D Groovy Girls : 1stly , im so sorry if i scolded u girls in practice . & to Sharifah , sorry i raised my voice to u kay . but it paid off kann ... its really paid off .. nah no nid to thnk me actually .. its u gurls tht maq it happen . if u gurls didnt taq in all corrections tht dhe seniors gav it to u , then this wont happen ryte .. go thnk abg jason . he helped alot :) & of course abg jamyl our beloved instructor :D i really proud of u gurls !! go shake ur breast , ur ass & ur pussy in dhe finals alright !! GO GIRLS !!!! :D
Kays , All dhe best to my cuties junior tht i love most ! Groovy Nutz & Phat Nutz !! tmr dancewerk '09 , GO ROCK DHE STAGE ayte !! dhe whole Nutzcrew family gonna be there supporting u guys , & also krg nyer supporters ayte .. mwah2 , GOOD LUCK !!!
Dancewerk '09 : at vivo city , be there at 12-12.30pm .. :) do come & support ayte . Lets welcome Nutzcrew Junior :D
1st - ly , would lyke to wish Happy Birthdae to my beloved senior , ADAM :D hope u enjoy in ur RP lyfe ( of course ! ) & Happy 18th Birthdae ayte ! *happy belated*
2nd - ly , Nutzcrew 'camp' was so FUN lyke hell !!! LOVE IT ! ALOT ALOT !! umm , im lazy to post dhe vids & picx now .. hahahhahaa ! next tyme alryte :) Dhe lollipop of water bombs 's game was most fun ! i love it ! <3 Dhe captain's ball's game , really kill me ! ITS HAWT ! We are really under dhe sun ! But yeah , still enjoy it ! Altho there's blister on my leg .. argh ! THNKS GICO for putting dhe plaster at my blister . You are a caring guy i've ever met ! ahhahahaa ! im tired act. bye people !
i miss watchin Voguelicious's vids . hahaahaa ! yeah ! here ive post 2 . enjoy ! :) * BELOW * one at RP & another at Bukit Panjang ( if im not wrong ) . well im there at RP for their comp which is on 10 jan . for dhe bukit panjang(HipzHop) one , i dont hav cuz im not tht knowing them tht tyme ( wtf my english :P ) . i mean im aware of dhe grp named tht tyme , V.O.G.U.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S but only tht i've nvr ever meet them or see their dance . arggh ! only if i noe them earlier , i will definitely come for tht Hipzhop comp ! ( & also dhe rest ) cuz i love tht much ! i mean their routines & all for tht comp ! :( Until this comp at Zhenghua CC , which is on 6 dec 08 . thts my 1st tyme seeing them :D they really attract my attention ! REALLY !! the way they dressed , the way they walk , the way they sit & everything ! omg they are hawt hawty to dhe max of hawtness ! hahhahaa ! wth of me ?! * huh * - ouhkay i dont know todae my english rojak - well , I LOVE VOGUELICIOUS ! <3
ouh , GOOD LUCK VOGUELICIOUS ! for ur tmr's comp , ROMP . i cant come cuz im going sentosa for family outing . so , ALL DHE BEST BABES !! * 2 THUMBS UP * much loves & misses to each & ev1 of u ! <3 & GOOD LUCK to 30T too , for ur URBAN comp . no doubt u guys gonna rock dhe stage yeah ! ;)
I LOVE NUTZ CREW ! hahaahaa ! , JYEAH ! GROOVY & PHAT NUTZ , 6 MORE DAYS ALRYTE !!
ELLA Tamara Bleszynski.
6 april 1993.
West Side.
Juying Secondary School.
O Level This Year.
A Dancer But Being An Actress Is My Biggest Dream.
NUTZCREW repp FunkyNutz.
Red & Adidas Freak !
Single But Unavailable.
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