IT'S SO HARD TO PRETEND NOT TO LOVE A PERSON WHEN YOU REALLY DO.
Profile.
ELLA Tamara Bleszynski.
6 april 1993.
West Side.
Juying Secondary School.
O Level This Year.
A Dancer But Being An Actress Is My Biggest Dream.
NUTZCREW repp FunkyNutz.
Red & Adidas Freak !
Single But Unavailable.
todae was last day of school . so yeah we were all crazy !! all start to draw tattoo on hand & stuffs . its L.A.M.E ! hahhaa !! wth ! & so today we got CIP , which means we have to go to some blocks to collect newspaper , clothes & stuffs . but no electro things . we got 4 blocks to do so my class got 40 peoples . Mr Bryan Ee allow us to choose our own grp . & so i was alone a gurl in dhe grp . yeah yeah , i was with Dinie , Zaki , Huzaiyed , Falaah . Ayim was absent today :( hmmmph ! & i have to say , that block that we got was totally scared ! very haunted ! as its a new house . 990A . when i first step in , i feel strange-d ald . when we was at 6th floor , the stairs's door slammed by itself . with no wind & everything . i thought it was Zaki or Dinie as they really love to joke around . but it wasnt them . they were trying to knock on people's house on that tyme . i was scared & asked them to just leave that floor but they insisted . Zaki still can act lyke a ghost & he do anything to scare me . wtf ?! & with 10th storey of it , we only get a one plastic filled with old clothes . that was really wth ?!! then went back to school through bungalow . lots of dogs bark seeing Zaki & of course he make some stupid actions towards those dogs . because THE DOGS WAS TRAPPED IN HOUSE . if not , he will be the first person to run . HAHAHHA !
then after school , head to Izza's house to karaoke :)
& i regretted on doing that ..... hmmmmm ..... i am so , .
thought of giving surprise to Abg Jamyl ,Erlyna , Faizah & Nutzcrew by coming to dance room without them knowing , with akit . also to see the big big fan that has place-ted in the dance room itself . & so what ?! we went up to the danceroom & nutzcrew was shock-ed ! started the hugs & all . hehe !! :) i totally miss them , very miss-ed ! <3 but BUT , the sad thing was , Abg Jamyl was not there :( also Erlyna , Faizah , Jason , Reed , Ameer , Din , Gico & Hafiz :( as the sec 3's is optional for them . hmmphh !! surprise laa lagy ! aiyooooo ! surprise tak menjadi , hmmph !! & so we sitted there lyke half an hour & we went off , as akit called Faizah & she was at pioneer macd with Erlyna . then , when me & akit was in our way walking towards the school gate , we saw Abg Jamyl with his bike , just wanna enter the school gate . heheeh ! so me & akit shouted , ' NAIK MOTOR NAMPAK BANG ! ' . heheehheeeh ! i miss nutzcrew ! I MISS NUTZCREW BAD ! I MISS NUTZCREW BADLY ! VERY VERY BADLY !! but the happy news was , very soon the seniors gonna come back for performances . 2 performances ! syf item & they want original syf dancers . so , hehehhe !! :) thats what i heard from nutzcrew & Abg Jamyl . the only thing now is that , we need principal's agreement to let the graduating nutzcrew to dance , again . please please my dear principal , Mr Haris :)
yeay im back im back ! got no fever anymore , yeay !!! 37.0 celc is a normal temp , yupp !! i miss schooling ! im so gonna miss lots of good & bad news in terms of studies & gossips .
i just woke up like few mins ago & check-ed my temp . im so happy :D no need to take those medicines that kills me to sleep after taking it , hmmph ! but only now i got running nose , thats all :( nevermind .
& now Izzy is sick , according to his journal . hehe , get well soon boy ! your birthday's coming :)
ouh yes Faizah im so random . hehehehee ! CHEYY TAK LAA FAKE !!! :P everything got me ?? yeah im bored of gettng 2 days MC :( i cant go out & explore the world so i explore the internet . hehe , i visit-ed all bloggers of my friends , my cousins , my nutcrew , my voguelicious . even people i dont know , i just tagg-ed them . hahhaaa !! ouh about the middle of the night at 1.40am calls was , im bored at that moment . hahahhahaaa ! i disturb-ed akit at arnd 11pm , then we drag till 2+am . & at 1.40am , i told her i wanna disturb-ed you sleeping . So , i just try my luck . & then , u pick-ed up the phone . So i thought my luck was good & i've achieve-d my goal of disturbing you sleeping . & so , akit also wanna disturb you . hehee .. ader je sebok . hahhahaa ! no joking ! :)
&& , HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED BELOVED LIL BRO , GICO FLORDELIZA BABAGAY :) HAPPY 15th :D
im sick ! i felt this since yesterdae night , but i thought , im gonna be alright soon . but NO ! todae i felt lyke dying , seriously ! woke up at 11.45am & i felt lyke there's stone in my throat . both bros were sleepin , mom's away to jp & dad's working . no one can help me except myself . i take my own temperature , 38.1 celcius . called mom & she rushed home . let me get straight to dhe point , my highest temp. was 39.1 celc & my lowest was 37.6 celc . i took 6 temp.of myself todae . hmmmmph ! my lyfe todae was sucked ! what i did was lying on bed all the way lyke im dying ! didnt eat anything & only drink water when i take those medicines . hmmmmm , ..... i cant do much work , but no worries , now im quite ouhkay , & my temp. has decrease , slowly .. now is 38.1 celc . thnk God now i got abit of energy to do something & updating , atleast .
im updating just wanna let NC aware tht im not coming down for tmr's performance . All the best kays ! Do NC proud & hopefully we are one of those they wants . Insya-Allah .... Sorry Abg Jamyl & NC :( i cant turn up , im so super sick . but if tmr im feeling good , i'll text u guys ! <3
Title; tht ghost's face still picture-d in my mind
we're being naughty guys to tht teacher ! but she deserve-d all of our rudeness lyke seriously !!!!! Dinie , Zaki , Ayim & me .. i guess she's really mad at us . she called us devil so put our fingers on our head & shouted , RAWRRRR laaa , heheh ! yeah yeah she very pissed off with us . then listening compre .....
after tht went home get chnged & went to farhan's house to watch dvds with Huzaiyed , Ayim ,Zaki , Izza , Nadyra , Akit , me & ofcourse Farhan . we watch-ed 'Kereta Hantu Manggari ' . An indonesian horror movie . we're lyke screaming & screaming . hahahas ! blablabla .. im tired , bye !
todae is chemistry paper . & it end at 9.15am . went home , get chnged & meet Izza , Ayim , Luke , Huzaiyed , Farhan , Nadyra & Akit at arnd 11 plus . cuz we're bored at home . we went to gekpoh's macd first & had our lunch . then slack .......
at arnd 3pm , went to izza'house to watch dvds . SCARY , but at dhe same tyme laughs alot cuz of some un-censored part . dhe controller 'missing' , & izza's grandma walk-ed pass when dhe un-censored part being played . so no choice izza cover it with pillows , hahahas !! & her grandma knows why but didnt scold us cuz we want to watch dhe ghost not tht part . hehs , her grandma just smiled & we smiled back :) we watched Friday The 13th & The Unborn . ouhkay izza's small bro really irritating sometymes , but what to do ,he's just a small kid . he stunt at dhe window , he do backflips at pillows . & ouhh , got one part he shouted , ' 619 ! ' , & do his flips but then knocked his head on dhe floor . & he cried ! so we disturbed hym , 'woah , do again ar 619 . very nice ar ' . & so he pissed off with us . hehehehe ! he also act hymself lyke dhe kid in Unborn . hahahaa ! i got recorded it , & its so funny ! i love todae !
went home nearly 7pm & then without bathing & all , i slept all dhe way & wake up at 2.45am . & now im blogging :) . arghh ! listening compre paper at arnd 6 an a half hr more , aiyooo ! very lazy ! & shitt , i hav to come to sch at 8.15am to go thru malay paper !! shitt shitt shitt !! thought of waking up late , haizzz !! but its last paper & be back at home arnd 10am i guess :)
went to Voguelicious's performance yesterdae & as usual , they superb ! went with Huzaiyed , Ayim , Shukor , Faizah & Erlyna .
after tht , went to LJS & we plan whr to go next at thr . i was sad at tht moment so i thought of hyper-ing myself by going places lyke very2 WOW . hehehee ! so , at first we wanted to go geylang lorong . but dhe guys were scared due to some reasons . yeah , i know i know . understand understood ayte . so we went to lucky plaza :) we found dhe 'above 21' shop . we are searching for 'above 16' shop as Abg Jamyl said there is , there . search & search , dont have . so i called Abg Jamyl but no answer . Called Alif & he said he dont know . So we slack at macd there . & becuz we cant find tht shop , Ayim & Huzaiyed entertain-ed me by doing some stupid stuffs just to make me laughs :D they talked horny stuff as if we'r in tht shop . hahahhaas ! L.A.M.E !!! but its yuckkkss ! cuz u guys know dhe cover of dhe water ? , dhe place whr to put dhe straw insyde right . they , hahahahhaha !! u noe i noe la eyh . aiyoo aiyoo ! until dhe cover crack-ed into half , omg ! so hardcore ! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!! guys guys ...... hmmmph ! btw , thnks Ayim for dhe treat :) Ayim knew why im sad . so he thought of replacing to go lucky plaza to go shisha . im find with it , as long as it can make me happy or hyper or anything . & so we didnt go cuz all were laze around madc's corner & very lazy to get up . hahahahaa ! & we played ' DONT LAUGH ' ... !! i enjoyed myself with u guys ! thnks for all dhe advices . & i reached home nearly 11pm , & saw my grandma cuz she's sleeping over my house , yeayy !!!! can talk talk with her at night . thts wad i always do when i sleep with my grandma :) sometymes we talk till 3am plus . kay then , bye !
Plain and simple I would give my life to you Everything you needed Baby I would be it You're the only one I talk to Who really knows me Tells me shows me That it's enough sometimes just to be myself
I don't want nobody else They don't understand That I gave away my heart The moment that I shook your hand Take my breath away Buy me anything I ask Go anywhere I wanna go I traded everything just to know
Chorus
Let me know you love me
Let me know you care
Let me know you're thinking of me
When I can't be there
Let me know you miss me
Call me up sometimes
I don't wanna go but boy you gotta let me know
Stop and listen
It's my thoughts calling your name
Screaming out the way I feel
I wish you would do the same
I think you might be on the same border
Same line same page
I'm tired
Listening to your silence brings the water to my eyes
im so tired right now . examinations for mid year is just 2 days away . & i've been so restless . aiyoooo ... also now dhe colour for dhe swine flu isorange. next wil be red if its spread & when its turnred, there wil be no school :) but at dhe same tyme , it gonna be bored cuz cnnt go out . but i want mid year exams to finish first cuz according to Mr Yeo , he said tht IF let say it turns red & school wil be close , mid year will not done , yet postpone . so yeah , ........ aiyooo !
this thurs , 7/5 , wil be dhe 1st paper , english . followed by dhe rest of dhe subjects , malay , maths , social studies , geography , physics , d&t , chemistry & finally listenin compre . evthing wil be end on tues , 19/5 . HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZ .................................. but dhe good thing is tht , after dhe paper ended , we are dismissed ald . dhe earliest dismissal is 9:15am which is chemistry paper :) & dhe latest dismissal is 12.40pm which is eng paper :( hmpphh ! ouh yaa , not forgettin , Happy 20th Birthdae to my dearest brother , WAWAN :D all dhe best in evthing ! much loves <3
i dont know . it is very , .. disturbin me . how i wish i didnt know it . but its gonna be so very wasted ! im so stuck in here . but thanks to u who helped me thru . but im so sorry tht i rejected u. im truly sorry , ... i really cant accept u , because im in love with someone else , not u but YOU . mayb u r once loved by me , but now u r forever friend with me . :D smile always :) *eventho ur sad inside*
thnks to Alif , Abg Faliq , Azlan , Double Dee & Syorya for dhe video . it reminds me of hiphop pulse , suntec & everything tht we'v participated & achieved !! :D those sweet memorise :) thnks to all instructors tht hav teached us
ELLA Tamara Bleszynski.
6 april 1993.
West Side.
Juying Secondary School.
O Level This Year.
A Dancer But Being An Actress Is My Biggest Dream.
NUTZCREW repp FunkyNutz.
Red & Adidas Freak !
Single But Unavailable.
