Rio Fernandez ( Fadh ) , ask-ed me to read his blog ...
& i cried .
& dont feel sleepy anymore .
& now , im thinking , thats all .
im so touch-ed by every words .

Rio Fernandez's blog written , .....
'fake!! i may be laughing and crapping, but inside, its rotting fast..
im sorry Unique Desire..
fadh cant perform with u guys anymore..
im going to miss u guys alot.. those laughter we had.. remember?
it brings me to the hard time we had and the fun time we had together.. we're so close like siblings.. now it ends here for me.. it ends as it was about to get happier..
i love u guys alot.. and it may takes time till i meet u guys again..
thanks for all those momment we had..
its so precious.. afez,alyv,siti,hakim,halim,kane,tamara,faizah,
fadh mintak maaf kalu fadh ader termarah atau pun termaki.. im sorry.. fadh mintak maaf sebab fadh tak boleh joget ngn korang.. fadh nak sangat joget ngn krng but then ......................... i just love u guys............. :'( :'('

Rio , Rio dont think too much kays .
Tamara daa try helping you but its just not suit for Rio ,
to work on full time .
Tamara tau Rio nye problem(s) .
& thanks for sharing dengan Tamara .
but takpe , Tamara will still continue trying to search for Rio ,
a part time punye .
Tamara tak suke tengok Rio mcm ny .
takpe , Unique Desire pon faham Rio .
Tamara will always pray for Rio .
Tamara wont forget to say your name in my prayers alright .
Rio dont think too much .
dont get overstress please .
Tamara wont forget our memories .
Conferencing from 10pm till 5plus in the morning .
GOSSHHHH !
changing of names .
abeyy sume pon nk tukarr , hahahaa !
Tamara wont forget everything !
& lastly ,
Tamara comfirm miss Rio !
<3

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sucha a boring school days !
today its very difficult for me to wake up for school .
maybe its bacause of im always wake up at arnd 1 plus in the
AFTERNOON during june hols .
& also , my handwriting really suck-ed !!
& this also because of a long period since i hold a pen .
june hols , i just go to underground & prac .
no books , no pens ...
but hopefully , my brain is not rusty !!
if this happens , im dead seriously !
& school was busy with temperature taking & etc .
brief about H1N1 , gossshhh !!!
hmmmm ..

7 july ,
is my english oral for N level :(
also its the day for Izzy to go NS :((
& also its my show 2nd last show with the Nutzcrew ,
i mean underschool laaa ........ at swiss hotel .
im gonna cry badly when it reaches 7 july ;'(

back home from school at 1.40pm .
went back home ,
put my bags , get chnge-d to sleeping clothes ,
& sleeeeeeppppppp !!!
& im just wake up .
so im fresh now :)
so blogg .. !
& as for people who wants last sat picx , please go to FB .

im craving for , satay at lau paa sat !! <3
& i miss each & every single UDC ,
FADH <3
AFEZ <3
HAKIM <3
ALYV <3
HALIM <3
KANE <3
FAIZAH <3
KAK SITI <3
& always by our side ,
WAWA <3
AMIRAH <3
YANIE <3
TOTOT <3
AMIRUL <3
ULFAH <3
AISYAH <3
& sorry if i miss-ed any names .
& my beloved beloved beloved !!!
ABG ISAAC <3 <3

specially for Afez ,
take good care of yourself , please !
i was really shock-ed when you told me that you're hospitalized .
hmmm , split can last season pee ..
aaaahhh , skg , kan daa sakit .
sape susah ??!
TAMARA jugakkk ..
UDC jugakk .
people around you jugakk ..
hmmmm , i was worried last sat when
the Voguelicious all go to stage and dance .
it was random but i love it !!! <3
& i was super worried seeing Afez .
if you guys see the video ,
omg !
see what he did .
goshhh !
take care alright .
& i miss you alot . :)
<3

CONGRATULATIONS !! ,
to Fhunkie Stylers , Nutzcrew ( Funky Lil Nutz ) & FFDC ,
for clenching the top 3 :D
& for those who has supported UDC , thanks so much !
a great thanks ! <3
but we didnt manage to it .
but hey , im not sad that much as this is a great experience !
got to dance with a collaboration of 3 groups .
3OT , VOGUELICIOUS & NUTZCREW :D
& im happy for my beloved family , NUTZCREW <3
& abg Isaac's family too , FHUNKIE STYLERS <3
& i enjoy-ed myself tho .
cuz firstly , people ask-ed for my name ,
& i said , TAMARA .
some , ELLA .
hahahaaa !!
i love it !
& when i watch the video ,
I HEARD PEOPLE SHOUT-ED TAMARA , ELLA & NABILAH !!
gossshh !!
hahhaaa !!!
and the above 3 names is lyke the same person , hahahaa !
ouh yeah i LOVE izzy solo !
really loves it alot !!
to me , he still a winner in the solo cat. :D

headed to Burger King then .
alot of fun there , seriously !
& we are the last customer there .
abg Jamyl join-ed us too :)
with the UDC & Fhunkie Stylers & Dylimarcell :D
ouh yeah , also with 3 of Vogue's fan ,
AMIRUL , ULFAH & AISYAH :)
i love today !
its such a big memories to me .

abg Isaac ask-ed for abg Jamyl permission of wanting
to take me & Faizah in for the next comp , MDIS .
yeah , he gave the green light to both of us :)
only that its abit hard for Faizah as she's still sec 3 &
she's still dancing under school for Nutzcrew .
unlike me , im ald sec 4 & im not compulsory have to dance
under school with Nutzcrew as im ald stepping down in my CCA ,
as for N-level :(
as for now , im not sure if im joining the MDIS ,
cuz its on august .
my N-level is just less than 1 month of it .
i dont know how to make decision :(
but abg Isaac have gave me advise-d to it .
i dont know .
now we have 1 week break given to abg Isaac .
& i have to think it thoroughly , seriously .
i dont want to disappoint anyone , especially my parents , families .
abg Isaac's wishes too ..

after burger king , thought of riding with abg Jamyl .
i mean , he sent me home laa , hehehe !!
but he didnt bring extra helmet & also he's going to Woodlands .
so take 157 with abg Isaac , Fadh , Faizah & Hakim .
& i reach-ed home arnd 1 plus .
with my brother .
lucky he take me from pioneer mrt station .
cuz im scared as alot of banglas at the central .
& i mean DRUNK banglas ..
& special thanks to abg Isaac , Fadh & Faizah to sent me to my brother
at pioneer mrt station .
such a caring people around me .

ouh yeah !!!!
im touch-ed just now .
i love seeing them just now !
i love seeing abg Isaac smile .
i mean a REAL WIDELY WIDE SMILE of hym .
tamara soo happy seeing abg Isaac very happy !!
please dont be sad & dont think too much abg !
as what i said ,
i knew this thing will be settle right .
& now it settle-d rightttt ......
i just love the way you are .
such a patient guy you !
im just touch-ed & impress-ed by that .
Zulkarnain Hasan Isaac <3

tamara tak suke sakk grudges2 ny sume .
can we just lyke be PEACE ??!!
for goodness sake laa eyh .
tamara not siding anyone .
seriously !
tamara only want u guys to be lyke last tyme , just that .
its very difficult to communicate with u guys nowadays .
i mean lyke , ...
i dont know how to put into words .
& UDC , lets do what we have to do tmr .
i mean today .
dont think of anything ...
let me repeat , ANYTHINGG ..!
let what people wanna be ayte .
we just do our thingy .
smile to EVERYONE .
just be humble ayte , thats what we are :)
tamara syg krg ! <3
tamara syg abg Isaac !! <3

goodluck to NUTZCREW tmr !!
gosh !!!
tamara pon syg banget pat krg ! <3
krg dope sakk !!
hehehe !!
goodluck aytes !!
& btw , tamara tak pernah lupekan krg eyh .
always in my heart , mind & soul forever .
tamara wont forget where tamara come from :)

well i guess i wont be sleeping today .
i mean i know laa tmr comp ,
but , if i sleep now ,
i wont be waking up tmr , seriously !
then i wont be calling Afez for morning call .
pity hym if he's late .
well , pasir ris sakk !!
& also promise-d hym ald to call hym .

so tmr gonna meet UDC at boonlay dome ,
at 9am .
haizz !!
im tired !
& i miss abg Isaac :)
be strong abg :D
love you ! <3

& so tmr gonna get the ferrero for this future NS guy .
tamara mean today .
as tamara've promise-d hym , so yeah .
dont forget to bring red jacket ayte .
tamara syg izzy jugak ! <3

ouhyaa , long tyme i didnt post this ......
ELLA LOVE VOGUELICIOUS :D
always ......
undying .....
mwahh <3

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just be strong abg .
im sure you can handle this .
but if you dont , dont be afraid , dont be afraid .
UDC is here for you if you need someone to pour out
all your feelings .
i love you & im so impress-ed of you .
you are still SMILING WIDELY ,
eventho , tamara tau inside you is very hurt alot !
tamara nak tolong , but i dont know how to help you .
same goes to UDC .
we all cant see you hurt lyke this .
but we all have the confidence you can settle it , soon .
BE STRONG ZULKARNAIN HASAN ISAAC .

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problems !!
more problems coming !!
its always like this .
when you're too happy ,
you will end up sad and so .......... !
*speechless

im like trying to put all this aside first as tmr
im doing guest performance .
but its difficult :(
and im now conferencing with Afez , Alyv , Fadh , Faizah .
thanks cuz i just can forget my problems when im with them .
with ABG ISAAC , with UDC , really .
Hakim , Afez , Faizah , Kak Siti , Fadh , Alyv , Kane , Halim ,
abg Isaac ...
thank you .

i know you guys got problems , but can it not to be like this .
i guess all this because of them .
seriously !
i just got no mood to do anything !
i cant sleep either !!
really a big thanks to Fadh , Afez , Alyv , Faizah and abg Isaac .
cuz we pour out all our problems in the phone .
as most of us got problems .
we're not gonna sleep today .
gonna conference and webcaming after that with Afez .

i am just , ...........
DISAPPOINTED !
i hate them , im sorry but yes i do hate them !
a big ' W ' to u guys !

tmr gonna meet Afez at cityhall .
we're gonna come out from house at 9.30am .
and all UDC meeting at Novena at 11am .
for tmr who want to come down ,
its at Novena ( united square ) .
we're gonna perform at 6pm .
btw its a competition .
we're just the guest performance .
thank you :)

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No Alyv NO !!
hahahahaa !
i mean he's lyke too old for me .
and got a tattoo .
omg , really not in my list .
hehee !
also im not searching for any .
eventho there's no one in my heart now ,
but yeah , im not searching babe .
i have to focus on alot of stuffs .
so got no tyme with all this .

ouhkay , im gonna post about the expectations that i want from a guy .
1st - NOT A SMOKER
2nd - NOT A DRUNKER
3rd - NO TATTOOS ( at all )
4th - NO PIERCING
5th - PRAY TO ALLAH
6th - MUST TALLER THAN ME
7th - MUST BE OLDER THAN ME BY 3-5 YEARS . NOT MORE OR LESS THAN THAT .
8th - LOVABLE ( always says sweet words )
9th - CARING ( asking me questions when im sad/down )
10th - VERY FAITHFUL
11th - JOKER & NOISY ( but know when to be serious )
12th - OPEN-MINDED
13th - UNDERSTANDABLE
14th - SHARING ( share-d with me about feelings , thinks and etc )
15th - GOOD-LOOKING ( no girls dont want this , right .... ? :D )
16th - MUST BE 100% STRAIGHT GUY :)

that it is .
basically its just basic right .
hehe !
tell me which girl want a quiet2 guy , very close minded .
gosh , BORING .
hehehe :)

basically just got home from dance prac with UDC lyke how many mins ago .
gosh ! i love them ! <3
always make me cheer-ed up .
each and every one of them .
mwahhh !!
& abg isaac , im so touch-ed by your words .
every SINGLE WORD that come out from your mouth .
seriously .
i love you abg !!! <3 <3
MWAHH MWAHHH !!
*hugs
btw , congratz Afez .
cheyy3 .
splits is so last season ,
abeyy aku ny ape ???
hehehe !!
i'll post your pic doing that soon ayte ,
tapy tamara tk janji eyh . :)

p.s. im so disappointed with someone .
i dont know that he'll act that way .
just a big SHOCK-ED for me tho .

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why suddenly i feel this feeling of H.A.T.E ?
i dont know .

i just wake up lyke 15 mins ago .
aiyoooo ..
& abg Isaac ajak me and Faizah and the rest to go to his house
cuz its his sister birthday .
then after that go lepak .
but so sorry abg !
ella going geylang later with fam & cuzz .

today is Father's day .
and today is also my DAD'S BIRTHDAY :D
happy birthday dad !
eventho i didnt say ' I LOVE YOU ' to you everyday ,
but you'll always be LOVE-D by your only daddy's girl everyday .
hehehe :)
yupp2 , im the only one gurl and the youngest :)

ouhkay i better bath now and get ready to go geylang .
i so wanna eat the MEE KUAH !
favourite siaaaa .... :)

im still awake still .
dont feel lyke sleepy but now very sleepy ald .
so yeah after updating then im off to bed .
just now im lyke webcaming with Afez and video call with hym .
then after tht i webcam and video call with Iqah till now .
crazy siaa !
im lazy to describe .
hehehe !
cuz i wanna go bed fast , hahahaa !

prac with UDC just now .
Aryll come down meet his sis Kak Seri .
F.I.S was there .
LNT was there .
so yupp , crazy jokes .
and so just now Fadh and me very jiwang !
we listen-ed to jiwang songs & sing out loud .
then abg Isaac also join-ed us , when the part
Ziana Zain Putus Terpaksa .
hahahahaa ! funny siaa , cuz the pitch was lyke high .
hahahahaa !
talk and jokes arnd with Sri Aliff and Kiki and Irfan .
basically LNT laa .
tmr they got performance at West Coast .
then after prac just now ,
take mrt with the LNT .
as they headed to Irfan's house at Bukit Batok so ,
yupp .
send Sri Aliff's some of the Voguelicious's video .
cuz he ask-ed me to send the video when he and izzy freestyle
during dancework .
and from thr he check-ed all of my videos .
got zhenghua laa and etc .
so he send it to his phone .

I SAW HYRUL VOGUELICIOUS just now .
hehehehee !
omg thats my first tyme seeing hym so , yeahh ..
take pictures , thanks to abg Isaac & Sri Aliff :)

and I SAW FADLIE VOGUELICIOUS !!!
i mean WILLY WONKA .
hehehee :D
serious shit i miss hym .
his jokes & all .
the tyme when we prac together .
hahahahaa !
so yeah just now i turn-ed behind & i saw the Willy's hair .
shouted , FADLIE !!! WILLY !!! I MISS YOU !!! ..
hehehee !
run to hym ( during practising , abg Isaac infront somemore )
& hug-ed hym .
A BIG SORRY ABG ISAAC !!!
the Willy's hair very distracting till i have to go thr , hehehee !

i had fun !
lyke ive said , nowadays im so happy !
i enjoy-ed every moments :)
im loving my lyfe !

ouh yaa , btw
i got alot of pics to upload actually .
all thanks to HYRUL VOGUELICIOUS .
if not because of hym , i wont be pressing the camera's button .
& start taking pictures ..
hehe !!
but i very lazy to upload .
im so sleepy !!!
maybe next tyme yeah !
toodles !

btw abg Isaac , not that ella slalu nk gadoh ngan faizah .
NOT THAT ABG !
its hard to explain to you .
thats why when you said that , i just kept quiet and look other
direction and not you .
im so sorry abg .
i know that is so rude .
but , ...
hmm , i dont know what to say .
you wont understand me .
but fyi , ella now trying to understand faizah , more .
it takes tyme .
but btw , thanks for the advices .
really appreciate it .
maybe one day ella will tell you what act.happen ayte .
love you ! <3

random picture , yeah i know .
im so tired !
tired of laughing just now i guess .
hahahahaa !
i guess i better go now .
anytyme i can fall from this chair , hahaa !
& im gonna jump on my bed & rest & sleep now .
im so sleepy !
my eyes lyke very heavy ald .
hmmmm ..
goodnights then :)

sorry people im not a smoker .
i just hold the ciggarette .
i dont smoke .
& i hate smokers .
& Afez and Fadh really tak tau malu taking their picture ALONE
using my HANDPHONE .
hahahahaa !
i enjoy-ed really a big enjoy-ed with you guys today .
much love-d ,
eLLa aLBa
hahahhaha !! step Jessica Alba laa pulak !
take care people !

i just got home from UDC prac .
not that tiring cuz we're just lyke marking steps .
only do 100% lyke 2 tymes with Kak Siti & Hakim .
As the rest all LATE ! VERY late !
& just now not full squad .
Faizah have to go to makcik's house .
Kane i dont know where .
Fadh , Afez & Alyv late .
they come arnd 5plus .
then at 6.30pm Kak Siti , Fadh and Hakim have to go to
some rehearsal for their performance at parliament house .
then they want me Afez and Alyv to follow .
actually im lazy but Afez wanna go and want me to go too ,
so just go laa .
furthermore its still early to go home .
when we reached there ,
there's a van that will bring us to a welfare home for
rehearsing there .
so yupp , in the van , one of the 'in-charge' ask-ed us alot of questions .
so we answer-ed her but all fake answer .
she asked me whats my name & i said , eLLa Alba . hahahha !!
& i said i lived at pasir ris , but actually at pioneer .
& i said im working at esplanade .
hahahhahaa !
& so Fadh & the rest all laughs .
Afez one the most funniest !
the way he talk-ed and all .
gosh i cant stop laughing , somemore i sat beside hym .
aiyoooo .!
reached thr , Hakim , Fadh & Kak Siti do their thing while
me , Afez & Alyv go to the stage & make noises lyke cheering for them
& make funny moves .
ouhkay i cant describe .
people there , were lyke looking at us .
hahahaa !
& we got free foods & drinks .
then after that waited for the van to fetch-ed us and send us
to Cityhall mrt station back .
and the van was so very late .
so , we took some pictures & videos .
the videos is all started from Afez questioning me ,
' eyh minah , dengar2 bdk jurong kacao bdk pasir ris ? '
very in a mat rep way .
from thr , then i also answer-ed in a very , idk what way ...
hahahha !!!
then hakim & all laughs .
then Afez said eyh take video laa ..
so yeahh ..
lots of videos eyh .
& they want me to post it at facebook ..
hahah ! dont want siaa ..
hahahaa !!
then we slacked at beside the Cityhall mrt station .
omg i meet alot of friends thr .
basically most of it is Alyv's friends .
they also lyke very open & easy going .
yeah fun to be with :)
there's gay , butch , straight .
hehehe !
fun fun ! very fun .
and at 11pm we all packed up & take mrt .
hear i am ,
blogging .. just got home people ..
& tmr is full-dress at underground at 3pm .
lalalalalalaaaaa .
& i wont be coming to my kakak sedare's engagement cuz
of this full dress . :(
sorry !! so yeah .
good luck then .
i'll post the pics just now soon .
for the vids , i dont promise .
but mayb Hakim gonna upload at his facebook .
seriously it was fcuk crazy !
everybody was lyke step mat rep & minah rep ,
but actually WE'RE NOT !!!!!
WE'RE NORMAL PEOPLE :)

thank you Mira Sherman , Selynn and Fadz , for the borrowing of jacket
but i have it ald .
i mean someone borrowing to me ald so yeah , thanks alot !!
really nice of u three :)

alright i dont know .
nowadays im so happy lyke to the max .
seriously !!!
i enjoy-ed myself in whatever i do .
im just feeling happy :)

btw , playing games with Izzy was a total great !
hehe ! yes he is a entertainer , hahahaa !
lyke what he said at the 94.2fm :)
thank you Izzy for making my boredness into unboredness .
hahaha wth !
& thank you so much for borrowing me ur red mango jacket .
hahaha ! i was shock-ed at that moment .
cuz its lyke im just a fan to Voguelicious .
hahhaa ! but whatever it is , thank you so much !
i dont know how to thank you seriously .
ur just so sweet of you !

tmr gonna have prac with UDC .
either at RP or underground .
take care people of the world :)

heyhey !
anyone have red jacket ??
any kind of red jacket ,
as long as its red , hehe !
permission to borrow from anyone of y.o.u ...
cuz for the NC show for AYG ,
all NC MUST wear anykind of shirt as long as its not to reveal .
then it must have 4 colours , which is ..
RED , YELLOW , BLACK , WHITE .
minimum must have 3 colours .
so im picking red , yellow & black .
and shoe gonna be white .
yupp that is it .
so anyone who have red jacket ,
can i have the permission to lend it from you ?????
im wearing it on the 11 july , saturday .
as i got no tagboard ,
so just gimme offline msg or text me will do .
much appreciated .....
thank you :)

prac was tiring just now .
positioning plus details .
azlan take charge for the people who is dancing for
BOOM BOOM POW .
gosh gosh gosh !
no break until all details & positioning finish ,
& must be perfect & sharpness .
tiring i swear !
as for people who is doing locking ,
its under Alif & Fauzi .
Shazran , Shahiran & Aryll is joining us for AYG .
heheee :)
but we got a slight problem as they are from different schools .
so we're scared if their school's teachers saw them on tv
dancing with the NC under Juying Secondary School ..
yeah ..
but then the problem have settled :)

after prac headed to jurong point with Gico , Riza , Izza ,
MiraSherman , Natasha , Nadyra , Akit , Jason .
all eating at banquet except me , Nadyra & Akit as we've eaten at Wak Din .
so we walkwalk at JP .............

just now was great !
eventho i've 'wasted' 12 bucks .
& im left with only 2 bucks in my wallet now .
GOSH !!!
but i did enjoyed myself .
me , Jason , Akit & Erlyna went to kfc ,
then headed to Arena to play bowling .
it was Jason's idea so , yeah .
ALL MISSES BOWLING !!
so we agreed to go :)
3 games in all .
i won for the 1st two games .
but the last game , im 2nd .
Jason is 1st .
Hmmph !
hehehehehehe !!
& Erlyna didnt play .
1st game ......
- Jason : 39
- Akit : 38
- eLLa : 103
2nd game ......
- Jason : 38
- Akit : 63
- eLLa : 92
3rd game ......
- Jason : 84
- Akit : 59
- eLLa : 71

alright im not sleepy yet actually .
so thought of blogging .
im so in love with adidas brand <3
but i lost my adidas watch the black & gold , fcuk !
dont wanna talk about it !! hmmph !
and ouh , all my curiousness all finish-ed .
just ended :)
no curious curious anymore .
i always lyke , nak tau ar nak tau ar .
hehee !
skali aahhh kauu !
ambeq aku !!
hahahaa !
but really a great 'interview-ed' :)
thanks alot for sharing .
alot alot thanks :D
next tyme just ask me if you wanna ask anything ayte .
thank you !
*you know who you are .
*smile

by the way ,
thank God , thanks friends , thanks everyone ,
who want me to forget about someone i love ,
someone i had a crush into since 6 dec 08 till just now evening .
hehehe !
but i guess ur wishes have come true then .
happy for all of you guys :D
cuz i've just throw-ed away that feelings ,
not because im listening to your fcuking advices .
but just that , thats the best to me .
thats what you guys been wanting for right ? fcuk !
what you guys said was all talking crap , wtf ?!!
ive just asking hym alot of questions .
so dont talk rubbish here alright .
you guys are not hym so , dont anyhow assume .
but whatever it is , you guys happy right to know about this ?
I KNEW IT !
dont worry , i got no one in heart now :)
i and hym , we're just lyke brother & sister :D
but dont think i'll accept ur recommendation .
its so wth ?!

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i'll be joining with some 30T and some Voguelicious
for some events .
firstly we only gotta do a show at novena on 24 june .
but then fadh told me that we got another show at
chinatown on 20 june .
then , abg Isaac told us that we're joining a
competition by LNT on 27 june .
im a bit stress-ed as prac will always clash-ed with
my Nutzcrew prac .
imagine wake up in the morning at 9am then went to
Nutzcrew prac at 10am till 3plus pm .
then have to rush-ed to RP or underground for
Unique prac .(UDC)
very very rushing !
very very tired !
very very no break !
but im just going on with the flow .
as i rmmbr-ed that ive promised abg Isaac to be committ-ed .
so yeah , ...... im still smiling :)

just now Veron told me about Voguelicious 45mins show at
one of this club , idk where .
its on the 20 june at 10pm .
must be above 18 to enter the club .
im just 16 but Veron said he can help me in :)
see how it goes laa .
maybe after my show with Unique at chinatown , yeah .
God's willing :)

somemore what should i say eyh ?
ummm , ....

ouh yeah , im not gonna spend my money
on foods and drinks ald .
hehehe , its very wasted !
i can cook at home then tapao what , right right ? :)
yupp2 ! and just drink the syrup mango i got at home and
put it inside a bottle then drink laa , hehehe !
cuz i wanna save up !
i wanna buy something .
end of july im gonna make something , yeayyeay !! :D

let me update on my beloved crew , NUTZCREW <3
we all very busy with our upcoming shows .
all learn-ed new choreo , ouhGOSH !!
i really love the Adam and Alan's choreo .
BOOM BOOM POWW ! mygod !
dope man !
i love-d the tarting part .
its fast but im so happy & love it cuz i get the
rhythm right ald , hehehe !! :)
& im chosen for dancing that song , babe i seriously
love this part ! hehehhe !
gonna make that tarting with the steps energetic on tv ,
LIVE !! :)
then Fauzi's choreo is dope too , locking .
but i just hate locking i dont know why . :P
but still i learn-ed & do-ed the choreo properly , to give
a respect to Fauzi's locking choreo :)
& im not dancing for this locking part .
yeay its good tho cuz im gonna make it worst if im in it .
as i dont know the basic of locking you see .
abey tut tut wanna dance for locking , hehe !
Alif's choreo , breakdancing (beggin) is dope .
& i dont know why he choose me to dance this breakdancing .
really Alif im way too back behind in breakdancing .
been not practising my break for a long tyme ald .
instead im practising my splits & stretching , hehe !
but i'll giv my very best man !
with the help of you , yeah !
basically i love all of my honey Nutzcrew !
-Freekzy Nutz
-Lil Nutz
-Funky Nutz
-Groovy Nutz
-Phat Nutz
come on nutz , let bring it more bigger next year :D
upcoming shows with NC ( nutzcrew ) ,
- 7 july at swiss hotel
- 11 july at near taka ( live on tv )
- 15 august at spore expo doing 1hr show ( get paid $5000 )
yeay yeay !! <3

who i miss-ed now ?
- Firdaus
- Abg Jamyl
- Atyra
- Nutzcrew ( eventho i see them evday )
- Mr Bryan Ee ( form teacher )
- Willy :P hahahaa !
- Izzy ( very much miss-ed )
- Voguelicious
- UDC ( & eventho i see them too )
- Aisy
- Saiful L.E
- Haiqel FanKidz
- grandma <3 ( love sleepin with grandma . lots of stories to share )

and ouhouh before i forget ,
i must thank Wawan for teaching me splits .
yupp2 , meet hym at RP when im having prac .
& so i saw his leg so lyke longgar , hehe !
& so i confronted & from there he teaches me the correct skills and all .
thanks alot cutey !!

gosh sucha long post eyh , hahaa !

now at grandma's house .
sleeping over with my 2nd brother .
tmr kenduri .
i mean today , later .
i cant sleep right now .
thinking of something .
.................................

restless .....
arghhh !!
im so stress-ed !
stress bout dance , prelims and N level , bout some loves ,
bout some decision , really !
i know you guys dont get me .
but im truly so stress about my surroundings !
why ? why good things happened and it was so fast to be end-ed ??????!!!
i simply dont understand !
ouh yes im so sad hearing that news from hym but ,
im trying to help though , but ,
its real difficult .
i dont want hym to say that all his effort all wasted ,
i dont want cuz things has to change .
i love you and you and i dont want to hurt anyone of you guys .
<3

im so busy , june hols lyk not june hols lyke that :(
& eye bag was lyke growing lyke that .
aiyooooo .
want to sleep but i cant .
i need someone to entertain me or atleast talk to me .
till sometymes i was in the phone the whole night till 6am .
aiyoooooo .....

i got alot to do .
10 june - NC prac 10am to idk .
11 june - my cuzz sunat .
12 june - NC prac 10am to idk . then went UDC prac 4pm to idk .
13 june - my cuzz engagement . then UDC prac 4pm to idk .
14 june - kenduri bout my cuzz sunat .
15 june - NC prac . then went to east coast for outing . gonna ask for early leave .
16 june - NC camp
17 june - NC camp
18 june - NC prac
19 june - UDC prac
20 june - UDC prac
21 june - NOTHING !!! :)
22 june - Maths Class 10.30am to idk .
23 june - eng class idk what tyme to what tyme , hehehhe ! as long as i turn up :)
24 june - performance at united square with UDC <3
25 june - not comfirm
26 june - not comfirm
27 june - not comfirm
28 june - not comfirm
29 june - start schooling ! gosh !!! prelims on july !!!!!!!!!!!
7 july - performance at swiss hotel with NC <3 && Azizul going NS :(
11 july - performance at AYG near taka there with NC <3
11 august - performance at some town area for the full whole 1 hour & get paid for $5000 !!!!!!
goshhhh !!! this big event . Abg Faliq will be helping us with this 1 hour show with Abg Jamyl . omg !!! we will not just be doing dance .
also rapping , acting , singing & whatsoever ......
& not forgeting N level on august , fcuk !

i cant fail my prelims and N level cuz i have to show to my parents that i can
cope with my pack schedule of dance with my studies .
so that they wont nag at me that much ...
& also show to everyone .
but i havent start studying yet :(
i got no time .
the only time to study that best is at fcuking real morning
at arnd 2am , seriously .
as that is the time where i didnt do anything .
omg , i think yes i should do that .
nvm i'll sacrifice everything .
sacrifice my sleeping tyme , my eye bags that surely will have sooner
or later .
yeahhhhh ,.....
should do for both parents ,
families , Nutzcrew , Voguelicious , principal , teachers , school ,
friends , everyone laa i know :)
also to my instructor abg Jamyl :)
also to my fav.dancer Mazlan , omg !
also to my fav.actress , as you guys know ..
TAMARA NATHALIA KRISTINA MAYAWATI BLESZYNSKI ...
hahhaa , whatever !!
haha full name kappaaaa .. :)
kay insya-Allah i will try my very best to fulfill my parents wishes
about wanting me to go to sec 5 , amin ...........
but if cannot then i go ite then take the good courses lorh ...
hmmmm ....
but i'll try my very best first ...
amin .... :)

Labels: fadlie ............

im so tired ! damn tired !!
today wake up at 9am & get ready for
Nutz crew prac at 10am .
yeay !!
the all seniors Nutzcrew are called up and
we have to come to NC prac as we got alot of shows :)
i happy this part right here , hehehe !
we end early just now cuz just now only that our
principal wanna talk about studies as most of us taking
N and O level .
so yeah .
actually , i havent been studying .
i mean havent been studying for N level you see .
i know its a big aiyoooooooo , but
i seriously got no time .
mom and dad really mad at me .
and just now i went to their room and lying down on their bed
together with them .
so i said that i got a lot of shows to do this june & july , plus august .
ouh yess they are angry but not that angry laa .
cuz they know what i love and dont .
'kau ny joget joget joget . atleast abes kan N level dulu laa ,
pastu kau nak joget ke nak ape ke , up to you ' , my mom nag .
hmmph !!

after prac , went to jurong point banquet , Nasi Ayam <3
omg i and nadyra talk nonsence there !
those dirty things and people was lyke staring looking at us .
we dont know that we are talking that loud , hahahha !!
akit was just silent all the way .
we talked about how lesbian's play .
gay's play , how we wanted to do that at first and how we end it , omg !!
that is so , a big omg !!
hahaha !
then went to akit's house at 2plus pm .
& we slept at her house till 5.40pm arnd there .

went home & cooked maggy at arnd 8pm , curry <3
then watch anugerah :)
omg i love to see Hafizah Naser's face when the picture of her ( voting part ) .
then just now see her , with short hair , omg !!!
so different !!
not as sweet as her long hair .
no no , actually not her long hair .
its a wig .
hmmph !
it reminds me of luke :)
hehehehehehe !!!
& izzy too :)

Specially this post for a birthday boy :) ,
AZIZUL MAHATHIR <3
well , .......
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AZIZUL ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!!!!
Happy 20th Birthday & wish you all the best
in your lifes alright .
Good luck in your NS on next month and
im so very sure im gonna miss you !!!!
i got faith in you that you gonna do greats in your
NS with the packs and stamina and stretchi-able body that
you got in you :)
take care & happy birthday to you once again .
ENJOYSSSSS !!!!

p.s : oooppppssyy .. !!
sorry for the edit , hehehe ! :P

Labels: happy birthday

Alright firstly ,
a big sorry to my bro Alif .
as i didnt turn up for his party just now .
saw the nutzcrew at kfc discussing bout the surprise
while i was inside the bus .
hehe !
they are cute .

meet abg Isaac at pioneer int. at 2pm
& saw Gino while waiting for Faizah .
talk for awhile & just go .
as usual , his hawt same goes to his bro Gico :)

its been a long tyme since i dance eyh ...
so prac was kinda tiring & stamina has drop-ed down .
& so stress as have to learn 6 songs .
but thnks to Fadlie ( Zac Efron become Willy Wonka ) &
Afez , making lots of lame jokes .
even its irritating sometymes but very funny !
representing the kak Fira & Mora <3
hahhahaa !!
& im so stress when abg Isaac ask-ed me to do leg lift .
seriously i cant .
i only can do normal split you see .
& its hurt when Fadh bring my leg up .
&& one more thing ,
thnks to kak Siti for helping me in some of the choreos & brush-ed
on me , thanks alot alot !!
appreciated !

hey people its me , again .
LYKE DUHHH , hahahaa !!
ouhkay im gonna blog about upcoming people's
birthday ,
as what Faizah asked me to ,
for a long time :)
actually she asked me to blog about each and every
of Nutzcrew , aiyooooo !!
try imagine ??!!!
Nutzcrew got so many people , arnd 40 plus the new juniors .
i got no time like seriously gurl .
ouhkay so here you go ,
wheeeee ~!

i would like to wish a Happy Birthday to the people
i mention below . :)

5th June
My the reason why im a dancer today ,
Muhammad Alif Bin Rais :)
Happy 17th Birthday boy !!!!!
thanks for always be there helping me when i need help !
*i'll try my very very best to come to your party ayte*

7th June
My girlfy my ms advicer ,
Jiliah Binte Jimahat <3
Happy 16th Birthday !!!!!
thanks for always advice me when i do something wrong &
even when im slack in class .
Without you , i think im so , ...
i dont know what to say ..
thanks for giving me strong girl !
love you !!!
*lets party party party*

8th June
my the most dancer i like most ,
Azizul Mahathir :) <3
Happy 20th Birthday !!!!!!
thanks for , always never rejected when i want to
take picture with you everytime when i meet you .
hehehhehe , lame !! :P
thanks for always advice me to sleep early :)
yeah thats you .
thank you thank you .
without you , i think i always never sleep ,
hehehehee ! :)
happy birthday !!!

9th June
my sister ,
Athirah Binte Abdul Rahman :)
Happy 17th Birthday !!!!
i miss you really !
thanks for always been there for me ,
and help me to solve some of my problems .
really big thanks babe !!
love you !! <3

9th June
my mat mat ,
Huzaiyed Anuar :)
Happy 16th Birthday !!!
ooooppss , name glamour seyy !!
hehehehehhehehe !!!
you're always making me smile :)
thanks for that .
see you around !

21st June
Nadhirah Binte Miskiran :)
Happy 16th Birthday !!!!
hehehe , lets exercise lets go !
hehehehes !!
& lets go karaoke yokk :)
yeay yeay !!!

well , who still i forget huh ??
ummmm ,......
well , Faizah , im done :)
June babies ,
ENJOYS !!!!!!!! :D

Muhammad Firdaus :)
yupp yupp , im gonna blog about the guy in that picture ,
in his jersey who is a footballer ,
& with his handbag who is trying to be gay :)
hahahhahahaaa !!
cute kapaaaaaaaa !!!!
its the same person people ,
just that sometimes people wanna be someone else ,
hehe !!

alright .
Fir Ella tepati promise you see . :)
Ella tak bueh eyh .
sorry yee im not that kind eyh .

so so ,
this Firdaus is cute :)
jangan kembang bang oi !!
but ya laa , he is .
just state the fact alright :)
suke laa tuu , hmmphh menyampah !!
hahahhaa !!
&& , he is more cute when get scolded by his parents ,
hehs !!
ooopppsss ...... ! :P
soorry terlepas , hehe .
ouhkay laa ,
he is my secret diary .
whatever secrets i have ,
i shared with him .
EVERYTHING i mean .
& he does that too .
& Fir , Ella never tell anyone about it you know ,
until today ! :)
& if can ,
Ella want Fir to be there at the East Coast outing
on the 15th june .
i miss you you know !
ouh & also , whenever i walk at the 2nd floor of
juying secondary school ,
i will hear someone calling my name .
hehs !
he never fail to call my name everytime i walk pass his class .
hahahaa !
Fir Fir , cute kapaaaa !!!
& sadly , next year no one gonna call my name :(
take care at your new school environment ouhkay !
dont be naughty !!

So Fir , about just now question at msn
that you asked me what i want right ?
Can choose right ??
hehehe !
Ella want one day we go school together for
secondary life before we graduate ouhkay .
that's all i want alright :)

i love you my secret diary <3