specially to Zulkarnain Hasan Isaac .
well , here i've promise-d hym that i will post about hym
as he dedicated a post specially for me :D
here's yours :)
and im gonna type it from what i thinks of you .
firstly , i respect you lyke MAXIMUM !!
cuz , you know when to do things at a right time .
lyke umm , example ,
when you are with Voguelicious , you act lyke one .
and when you are with Fhunkie Stylerz , you act lyke one too .
that is what i respect most from you .
you can be dope plus rowdy , but you also can be vogue & naughty :)
secondly , you are just so sweet to describe everything about you .
you dont really show to people about your problems .
you tried your very best to settle it on your own ,
eventho you know you cant sometymes , ( hahhaa ) .
but thats good for you as it gives you challenge and motivates you .
eventho you may not dress that baggy pants lyke those mens ,
but to me , you're strong enough to face anything in future .
& in my eyes ,
YOU ARE A STRONG GUY IN TERMS OF EVERYTHING .
ella am so thankful to have known you .
and also to the rest of Voguelicious .
thanks for everything !
thanks for teaching me dance , manners , patient & all .
you're great guy !
thanks ABG ISAAC !
& i miss those taking mrt & go undeground for prac .
hehe !
those jokes those laughters :)
im impress-ed in everything you've done &
its bring a great change-d in my lyfe .
thanks alot !
ZULKARNAIN HASAN ISAAC <3

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had competitions at scape park last sat .
we ( NC ) didnt get any position ,
but i guess its a good comp for us &
its a good exposure .
specially to Fhunkie Stylerz , congratz to them !!
Abg Isaac's crying but yeah ,
i know its a tears of joy so yeah ..
im happy for hym & his grp :D
then one more team , idk the name *forget
&& to Fresh Fix ,
congratz too !!
u guys are good , totally !
yeahyeah !! :)
Congratz :D

for my freestyle ,
gosh i love it !!

had fun with Voguelicious then .
madness .
every each of them <3
but ,
I MISS AZIZUL :(
but im thankful to meet hym even for a VERY awhile :)
together with Sabirin .
Zac Fadlie as normal , matrep !!
Afez , matrep but a bit soft , nyahahas !
sri alif , wanna act matrep but when i wanna come to hym ,
he ran lyke , idk whatt ..
Veron , he lost but he got do some mini performance for me :D
Luke , kinda quiet but he will lyke , any point of tyme , he'll be
noisy , then quiet back ..
hahha , i dont understand .. :)
took pictures ..
& i took their solo-ist photo .
very 'VOGUE' faces .
gonna upload it at facebook then .
only Veron's face dont have .
lyke ive said , he MIA for awhile .
heh !
blablablaaaaa ...

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well ,
i wore jubah just now for racial harmony day .
ooohhh , lots of people coming to me & comment-ed .
hahahhahaa !
teachers & friends .
hahhahaa !!
enjoy-ed myself justnow !
only my close members wore jubah :)
but only me & zaki lyke wanna go Mekah , heheh !!
with tasbir & all , goshhh !!
more pictures will be upload in fb :D

then go prac , after went to rehearsal .
we're late :(
as one of our members stuck somewhere , so yeah .
& i have to freestyle tmr ,
together with Faizah , Rihin & Vimal .
so , yeah , quite scared but ,
i guess i'll just throw whats in my mind then .
hahaa !

i dont know what should i wear for tmr
Racial Harmony Day .
i dont wanna wear kebaya cuz last yr when i was sec 3 ,
i wear it ald .
i also dont wanna wear chongsam & sari cuz i wore it ald
when i was sec 1 & 2 .
hmmm ..
i wann different where not much ppl are wearing .
umm , i have to search for it now ..
take care !! :D

special thanks to Alif & Riza to send me home ,
infront of my house's door on wednesday night ,
after the night studies .
thank you !!!!
cuz i was scared at tht point of tyme .
plus , my lift was repairing so ,
i have to climb the staircase :(
4th storey & Alif & Riza also take the stairs with me .
thanks , Nutz Crew eyh ! :) <3

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cant wait for da showcase this sat .
cant wait to see Voguelicious , a new concept of them ,
lyke what Veron's stated in his post .
hmmmm .....
and all the best to other groups too :)

well im gonna miss dancing with Nutzcrew .
supposingly , all the graduating classes cannot dance
for this MOE thingy .
but , somehow , yeah , i manage-d to .
i didnt get tht blue form of approval .
i thought it was the yellow & white form .
but tmr , Ms Nurul gonna giv me the blue form for approval of
me dancing for this MOE performance .
and i bet this gonna be extreme L.A.S.T :(
gonna miss NUTZCREW alot alot !!
but unless they join comps not under school ,
that one i would love to join :D
eventho N level is coming ,
no one can stop me from dancing .
i know the limit everybody .
and THANKS ABG JAMYL FOR THE RECORDING THINGY !!
yeayy !
been waiting for this .
i can simply record & make my own song ,
my own lyrics & words .
gosshhh !!
interesting !
expressing !
hahaa ! :D
way to happy ..

i miss this Willy's hair of his .
this is his strength , to me seriously .
his Willy's hair simply attract others .
when he walks , it bounce .
when he run , it fly .
& when he dance , i just lyke it the way his hair moves .
its attracting me & thats the only thing that attract me in him .
but too bad too sad ,
he cut it off :(
added , he rebond-ed it !
hmmmmph !!
no more Willy's anymore ....
but he look Zac Efron now .
hahahaa !
like what my bro said .
as long as you're happy Zac Fadlie !
you're still look great tho :D
be happy & smile always alright ! :)

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no more loving messages
no more late night calls
the togethereness have change-d
and i really wonder why ..
could it be me ,
could it be time .
could it be the end of a life .
if its not any of these
a third party is all i have in mind ...

once again relationship has torn apart
u saw it coming
but u choose to be closer to her , more .
& then she tear us apart
u played behind me ,
did it secretly ..
bcause of she ,
and u never even thought about me , no .
im sick of u bout this .
-- thanks to Faliq's .

N level is really coming in 1 month times .
& my D&T artefact is not done yet & the deadline of
submittion is this end of month , 31st july .
Goshh !!
& am busy with practising with NC for MOE performance on 30th july .
there'll be rehearsal on 21st july at suntec city ballroom
from 1-6pm .
& i am so happy i get grade A1 for my CCA points .
thanks to NUTZCREW !!! <3
well , im off to labrador later on at arnd 6pm with fam & cuzz .
gathering like that :)

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been have alot of 'challenges' i have to face .
or maybe face-d .
it really stress-ed me out !
but i accept with a sincere heart ,
and take it as ,
God's challenge , or God is testing me right now .
its hard to handle but ,
im accepting EVERYTHING .

im so sorry friends , readers and all .
as you guys come to me & said ,
ella tak update blog seyy , ella tak update blog seyy .
:)
i got alot of stuffs nowadays .
and i am adapting my new life right now .
trying to adapting i mean .
so yeah .
but you guys can still me around right :D
& stop saying about my pimples people :(
i know im growing pimples nowadays .
arghh !!
forehead , both cheek , MYGOD !!
nevermind .
it will gone soon when all i am stressing about it settle-d .
yupyupp :D
this fri going to cinema , watching harry potter .
nahh , to release abit of my stress i guess .
last week went to watch OBSSESS with Azlan , Alif , Nadyr & Akit
at cineleisure .
fcuk !! you guys should watch tht seriously !!
go go go !!!! :)

one last thing ,
ella syg krg semue !! <3

posting this specially for Azizul Mahathir .
yeahh .
left only a few hours for you to go to NS .
yupp im very sad .
im not that really really sad about he's going cuz i know
on sat or sun he will release from there :)
im just deeply sad cuz , yeahh .....
hmm , nevermind laa .
but i hope you enjoy there :D
im really speechless & didnt know what to say next .
again , do enjoy there alright .
ouh yeahh ,
ELLA GONNA MISS IZZY ALOT ALOT !!
take care bro ,
:(

much loves & cares !
<3

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Best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before ?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing things down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a boy like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed , but I have loved you from the start

Ohh , but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a boy like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in , I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a boy like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a boy like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

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well , i just came back from rehearsal at swissotel .
the stage of the carpet was rough .
& as you guys know ,
Nutzcrew is alot of people .
FreekzyNutz
LilNutz
FunkyNutz
GroovyNutz
PhatNutz
& total up its a strength of 44 peoples .
so i hate the noise when we were dancing or moving and etc ,
i mean the noise of the stage ,
its lyke going to collapse .
going to roboh lyke that .
aiyoooo !

and our item is too long as what they've said .
its lyke 11 mins plus .
& they wanted 7 minutes .
but they didnt inform us EARLIER ,
so we thought its gonna be alright .
so got no choice ,
we have to cut down some songs .
I HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE !!
We're cutting off ,
AMILLIE - THE GAME & LIL WAYNE
BLOW YOUR WHISTLE - SOUL SEARCHERS
PUMP IT UP - ( by idk who )
& got one more song i guess ,
i dont remember .

so yeah , supposingly have to release from class tmr
at 12noon .
but because of this last minute changes ,
so we Nutzcrew , got no classes tmr .
yeayy !! :D
but we report to school as per normal at 7.20am .
take temperature and at 8am , we proceed to our dance studio .
no books tmr , yeayyy !!!!

so do catch Nutzcrew on tv , channel 5 at 7pm alright .
hehehhee !
i'll be wearing ,
yellow singlet with red jacket ,
black dickies 3 quarter pants ,
red high socks ,
& nike airforce white and black colour .
:D
& catch me dancing ,
MADE BY NUTZCREW NEW SONG ( INTRO )
CLICK CLICK CLICK
CHURCH
KITTYBOX
BOOM BOOM POW
MADE BY NUTZCREW KRUMP SONG ( ENDING ) .

so yeahh , heee !!!
the rest of the song tht you guys hear lyke ,
BEGGIN , the krump song idk the title .
hahhaa !

but yeahh , tmr gonna be my happy day & very sad day .
happy cuz dancing for a big event , AYG .
happy cuz no lessons tmr , a big YEAYY !!
sad cuz Izzy gonna be away for NS :(
hmmmm .....

i've just come back from 'food-shopping' at central .
bought 10 small doughnuts ,
1 of colourful doughnut ,
a fruit pastry cake with mango kiwi & strawberry in it ,
peanuts ,
gummy sweets and
a roller coaster crackers .
DONT ASK ME WHY .
im always lyke that when moodswing .
so yeah .

to those ,
thanks for everything .
i did all these for the goods of you guys .
but seems lyke no one appreciating of what im doing .
except one or two .
thanks alot !
guess ive wasted my time ,
wasted my effort .
i wont bothers anymore .
and am now concentrating in what i have to do ,
which is AYG and studies .

im so happy that the formations , mix , detailing
are all done .
im happy !!
so yeah people , do catch the NUTZCREW live on tv on channel 5
at 7pm on tuesdae 7 july .
i mean the thingy starts at 7pm ,
and we're gonna perform the closing ceremony which is arnd 8pm .
umm , just on ur tv at 7pm then .
hahahahaa !

dont worry of me so much people .
im fine .
im fine ald .
i can take care of myself , no worries !!
:)

tmr Nutzcrew gonna go to swiss hotel for rehearsal at 2pm .
but we have to report at 10am :(
full costume .
dearest Nutzcrew , please iron & hang ur costume please .
& lunch will be provided , yeayy !!
:D

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im just so confuse-d currently .
but i guess yeah , its a good solution .
to make everything settle down .
and i really hope it works .
i cant take this anymore .
been thinking bout it every seconds !
and i hate it cuz it distract-ed me !!
so i hope everybody is on track with me ,
and im gonna apreciate it lots !
i just cant see him lyke this .
come on people , he's going off soon .
and what he said is all right .
i think we're going overboard .
lets just stop all this .
lets be peace .
im tired of all !!
i just want all this to be end .
i cant concentrate in any if this continues .
hmmmm ..
im sorry to say this .
but i'll do whatever it takes , for him .
im not siding anyone seriously .
im just directing myself to a right person .
and that does not mean im saying you guys are bad person .
but i guess you guys need time for all this .
i respect and i'll give you guys time , before this coming tues .
and if you guys ignore-d my words , i'll take bigger actions .
im sorry & so sorry , but if you guys are rock head-ed ,
I'LL TAKE MYSELF OUT from you guys .
and im serious now .
mark my words .
cuz i'll do whatever it takes .

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i got alot to do .
but seems lyke im not concentrating in it .
how can i ?
if my mind keeps thinking of another thing .
i am now thinking of a solution , thats all .
my mind didnt think of anything except the solution .
i've been not focusing in studies ,
in this AYG performance ,
didnt sleep well and eat well .
but then now im really trying my best to focus in those .
especially AYG !!!!
its a big thing !
haizz ...

im touch-ed abg Isaac .
you make my tears falling reading your post .
:'(
thank you for everything .
E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G
i will try my very best to pass my N level .
my examinations .
thanks for the advices .
it gave me strength ,
more strength .
if tamara have to post abt abg ,
it will never end .
too much to talk bout you .
your just a really great guy i've ever met .
but , tamara will still post abt you one day :D
<3

&& tamara still remember-ed ,
you are the first Voguelicious that i took pictures with .
ingat tak at Zhenghua CC comp on 6 dec 08 .
hahahhaa !
tamara & Faizah searching for Voguelicious lyke hell siaa !
*laughs
we both went to backstage , tgk krg takde .
then we ask-ed the backstage people if got see
a group of male dancers wearing thick makeups ,
call-ed themselves Voguelicious .
hahhaahaaa !!
then he said NO ( wtf ) .
then we went to 3rd floor & all .
well , our prediction was all wrong siaa !
then when one of our friend said that Voguelicious is in
the hall .
& that tyme tamara & Faizah was drinking a cup of water .
when we heard that ,
BOTH OF US THROW AWAY THE CUP OF WATER .
Faizah press-ed the lift & the lift is open .
whereas tamara run to the staircase & take the staircase ,
with rushing face .
& Faizah shouted wanting my attention to take the lift .
FUNNY SIAAA !
A GREAT MEMORIES OF FIRST TYME SEEING VOGUELICIOUS .
then tamara remember-ed tamara saw ISAAC first , talking with
a guy , i dont know who .
while tamara was behind ISAAC ,
doing some stupid stuffs , hahahaa !
only Faizah , Aqilah & some of the Nutzcrew saw it .
gossshhh !!
& then took pictures with hym , then with the rest .
&& , when i was taking picture with hym ,
kimekk , far eyh !
both of us lyke just finish quarelling .
hahahaa !
tamara tak mintak nk hug ke ape eyh .
tamara pon tk nk ( hehehe , bluek :P )
but seriously ar ,
i laugh looking at it .
i laugh looking at those old pictures taking with them .
hehee !
& im gonna miss those times .
those great times .......

i wont do much this time .
if he loves me ,
he will message me .
he will call me up .
thats all i can say .
im just a girl .
if i had a crush , i wont be asking tht guy for anything .
like i said , im just a girl .
never i heard a girl asking for stead to a guy before .
seriously .
to me , thats a cheap girl ( sorry to anyone out there ) .
im no cheap girl .
i wont do much .
i will just remain him as a crush & been waiting silently ,
with much lovess ...
until he confess ,
until he started ...............

ouh goshhh Afez !
ur making me panic-ed seriously !
tht tyme UDC got performance at Novena on last wed .
so tmr is wed am i right .
i mean today .
then Afez msg-ed me lyke how he msg-ed me last wed .
the conferencing part , he waited for me at jurong mrt station .
*tears
gosssh Afez :(
ur so sweet !
its so memorable .
but im so sorry i cant join with you guys in MDIS comp .
also with Dylimarcell .
all of u guys enjoy yourself ayte , dancing with Dylimarcell .
my support will always there .
i really want to dance with you guys , & with Dylimarcell ,
but i got no choice , N level is very fcuking near with MDIS comp .
I REALLY GOT NO CHOICE PEOPLE .
i love you guys & will always do .
<3

tmr finish school at 2.10pm and
tmr im going penin to buy the dr.martins boot for
this Nutzcrew Asian Youth Games on 7 july .
what i mean is today .. hehehe !
well i got my costume ready , except the dr.martins boots .
yellow/black sleeveless ( not decide yet ) .
izzy's red jacket ( all thanks to him ) .
dickies black pants
high socks
dr.martins boot
People , do watch the Nutzcrew doing our thang on this AYG show .
its gonna be LIVE ON TV ( channel 5 ) .
and its gonna be live on tv in all asian's channel ,
A BIG GOSSSHH !! :D