pain and i cant take it .
it start-ed this morning when i had my sahur .
my throat were , .... very pain .
and i feel lyke there's a stone in it .
i cant swallow , its very pain .
ouchh ! :(
thought of not going to school tmr ,
but tmr is half day then tuesdae no school cuz t'cher's dae .
so , just go school tmr laa .
if not very leceh need mc and whatsoever !!

on the other hand , im so happy !
in this fasting month , ive been dreaming about what i wanna dreamt !
yeahh !
everyday i say what i wanna dream ,
and when i sleep , that it is !
only yesterdae , i had a bad dream .
i dreamt about my uncle who has ald pass-ed away ,
in a motorcycle accident .
i dreamt about how he get into the accident ,
and i tell you , it's scary .
but i dont know if what i dream is true or not .
but its scary ..

Labels: a stone killing me

Read like a storybook . It is quote-d fom Richard Templar's .

This is about what to do when the person you love can't love you back . Suppose you just can't love the person you're with ? Sure , you like them , you enjoy their company , they make you laugh or they listen when you're upset or they share your interests . You wouldn't be with them if there wasn't a lot to like . But you know you'll never love them the way they love you .

You feel bad , of course - you're a caring person . You wish you could love them , and you don't want to hurt them . And maybe you'd be happy to keep hanging out with them anyway . Meaning , if there's no one else on the scene to go out with , and you want to go to the same places , and maybe the sex is good , and anyway you'd miss their family and their friends ... yes , it would be simplest to stay with them at least for now .

But thats not the answer . The longer you stay with this person , the more hoops they'll have to jump through ( trying to make you love them ) , the more they'll be hurt when you finally go ( and you will go in the end ) , and the more time they'll waste with the wrong person ( you ) .

You've got to be cruel to be kind and end the thing now . It's tough .
But if you care about this person , you'll feel dreadful hurting them , but remind yourself it would hurt more if you left it even longer . They deserve to be free to find someone who can love them in the way you can't .

If you don't really love this person , sooner or later you'll find someone you do fall head over heels in love with . Just suppose that person walks into your life tomorrow , or next week . Then what'll you do ?

There's no really satisfactory answer to that . You could get involved and really , really hurt your current partner . Or you could be hugely honourable and refuse to get involved , but that would be difficult and potentially devastating for both you and your new mystery lover . The only solution that actually works is for you to be free and single already when your new love interest arrives on the scene . And for that to happen , you need to disentangle yourself from your current partner now .

See ? The kindest thing for everyone is for you to be briefly cruel ,
but by doing so to leave everyone free to get on with their lives and make much more of themselves than they possibly can as things are right now . Your partner may not like or appreciate it at the moment but one day , if they have any sense , they'll look back and privately thank you for it .


* Leave everyone free ( if you can't love them , tell them ) to get on with their lives *

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just came baq from my maths paper 1 .
well , i did badly .
just pass . :(
and later at 1230 gonna taq my paper 2 .
i have to work my mind for this paper in order to
pass .
and not a just pass !
................

fadh call-ed me just now to break fast with him .
together with faizah .
but i guess i cant cuz im going break fasting at grandma's house .
but we'll postpone it on this friday :D

yesterdae went to geylang , and it not as great as last year .
idk .
its to my opinion .

btw , GOODLUCK TO SRI ALIF FOR LATER SUNTEC !!
sorry ella cant come down to support cuz of this paperss
i have to take .
so yeah , ALL THE BEST !! :D

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physics lesson was great justnow .
idk but somehow , it's great !
maybe because of Zaki , Alif and Dinie's jokes .
try imagine .....
Mr Yeo ask-ed for the snail's law for physics
and what Zaki did ??
he act lyke how snails act .
moving his head forward & etc ..
what the _ _ _ _ ?!
ahahahahaa !
just cant stop laughing bout it .
then Mr Yeo ask-ed me what is the thing that N-N repels , N-S attract .
and i didnt say it but spell it , m.a.g.n.e.t :)
hhehhehee !
the whole class was having fun , esp my row .
guess Mr Yeo get bullied by us :P
N-level is 2 weeks tyme , but we behave lyke this !
but thats how 4a2 learn .....
with a noisy discussions and add jokes into it :D

he look lyke Fadlie from Voguelicious rightt ?? hahahaa ! nahh , he's my cousin :)

know about the vegetables that eat with bread right ?
and know bout the small tomato that pack-ed in one packet right ?
i search for this just 2 items for half an hour siaaaa ....
a big WTF to me seriously !!!
i just came baq from buying both things .
tmr for sahur , i wanna eat bread with mayo plus vege and the small small tomato .
so , i went to prime supermarket .
act.,tonight my parents will be going to sheng siong to buy kitchen's stuff ,
but yeah , i dont know why i was so deperately wanted to go and buy on my own .
hehhehehe !
step in to prime , i was lyke step rushing and go to the vege & tomato area :P
reach-ed thr , i was confused , which want is the right one ...
i am confused with kobis & the vege's bread .
so i taq both of them , and look at it , lyke .... fcuk siaaa !!
cuz both of them look the same .
then , i ask-ed the makcik beside me ,
so she search-ed and search-ed , then said to me ,
' cik rase tk jual pat sini ' .
i wanted to laugh but nvm ..
cuz she search-ed lyke very semangat , you know the makcik2 style ,
hahahahaa !
then atlast , dont have .
but i know its there !
so i ask-ed another makcik , and she said ,
very confidently ,
' oooooo .... sayur yg mkn dgn sandwhich eyh ? ny die ... '.
i never ever seen that vege before .
it is lyke , there's 4 different kind of vege in one packet .
so i wanted to laugh again !
cuz i know this obviously not what i want & the way she said ,
lyke that is really the correct one .
i was so fcuk-ed up but at the same tyme , i wanted to laugh with the makciks .
i never bring my handphone , and i cant contact my mother :(
i was talking to myself that moment !
after awhile , i ask-ed another one makcik , again ....
but before she answer , a nyonya beside me said ,
' that thing outside . different types of bread all outside '.
then i was lyke huh ? who want to buy bread ???
then the makcik said ,' die piker ko nk beli roti ' .
this tyme round i laugh , loudly ... !
hahhahahahhahaaa !!
firstly , i never ask her anything .
secondly , she gave me a wrong info but said it very confidently .
hehehhe !
cute laa !
then when i turn-ed to the makcik , she left away ald .
fcuk right ?????!!!!
aiyoooo , this what happens if girls never follow ur mom to market .
so yeah , i just randomly pick-ed the vege .
i try to recap baq the bread's vege that mom always bought to home .
recap eyh ,... lyke dance ald , hahhaaha !!
ouh yaa , i miss dancing :(
ouhkay nvm ,
then after i took the vege , now's the tomato .
there's a small tomato in one packet but the colour of the tomato is lyke ,
orange yellow lyke that .
i want the red one ..
first i ask-ed the prime people and they said all the tomato is here ..
the red one finish-ed ald .
so i take the orange yellow tomato & stare at it .
again my clumsyness & stupidness comes ..
aiyooooooooooooooo !!
so after some tyme ,
i ask-ed a makcik , then she said ,
' tomato ny dgn yg merah same , cume colour je lain .. yg tomato kecik ny rase
mcm cherry tau , ko tau tk , cherry2 gytu ..' .
she keeps repeating the cherry2 part .
i said thank you also still said ,' die rase cherry2 gytu ' .
so i just lyke what the malay says , layan kan aje ..

haizzz !! thats about it !
i told my mom about this , and she laughs at me non-stop .
haizz ....
i have to follow mom to market ald !
been not following her since i was a ....
ummm , .... primary 3 , yeahh ...
& tonight im going sheng siong :D

Labels: vegetable and tomato

hey know what ??!
i didnt know that im still that strong !!
hahahahaa !
serious im not joking !!
well , todae is the best dae ever .
i mean for myself :)
everything is clear-ed ..
yeayyy !!
im still strong
im still strong
im still strong
:D
I LOVE MYSELF <3


to YOU ,
im sorry about just now .
i know i hurt you but ,
yeahhh ..
i just treat you as a friend of mine .
so yeahh ...
sorry
friends alright :D
see you around !

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parents are away to kampong .
i didnt want to follow cuz , yeah , .... lazy :P
i got no plans today .
but my 2nd bro , FORCE-D me to follow hym to his friend's house ,
for karaoke-ing .
he keep on questioning me , and its simply irritates me somehow !
really !!!!
im lazy !!
i wanna be at home & just laze around .
but since he said he'll do anything for me ,
as long as i follow to the karaoke ,
hmmm , ouhkay2 ..
i should ask hym to cook my breakfast for me ..
hehhe !!
maggi as usual .
simple & nice :)
alright , im going bathing now !
love yall !

Labels: hahahaa, why fallen for .. siaaa

Bermulanya semua hanya dengan rasa
Ada saja yang tak kena
Rupanya kau berkasih
Menyingkir setia
Sandiwara penuh dusta

Kini ku beri satu amaran
Jangan nanti jadi cabaran
Aku ingin kau memadam kenangan
Menjadi mimpi berterbangan

Jika engkau pergi,
bulan dan bintang tetap masih di langit
Jika engkau pergi, air mengalir takkan berhenti
Jangan khuatir tentang diri ku
Ku janji takkan merindui mu

Bermusim resah hadir membelai
Menyentuh hati kecewa
Janji sehidup semati
Tinggal tiada lagi
Impian hancur depan mata

Semakin terungkap kepastian
Biarlah ku rela melepaskan
Pada mu cinta cuma lah mainan
Sekadar untuk senda bersama

Jika engkau pergi,
bulan dan bintang tetap masih di langit
Jika engkau pergi, air mengalir takkan berhenti
Jangan khuatir tentang diri ku
Ku janji takkan merindui mu

Puas sudah ku berikan engkau segalanya
Jalan cerita pun nyata akan berubah

Jika engkau pergi,
bulan dan bintang tetap masih di langit
Jika engkau pergi, air mengalir takkan berhenti
Jangan khuatir tentang diri ku
Ku janji takkan merindui mu


i love hearing Imran Ajmain's voice .
his voice is unique & easily melt the girls i sure !!
and i love all of his songs .
loves it !

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ella would like to thank that person .
<3

alaaa .....
ella not promise i can do for later on .
im so sorry kays !
but when the actual comes ,
ella promise , i will do my very best !
promise promise promise :)

Labels: strength energy spirit

it was a great chat right gurl ?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ....... VERONN ;D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!!!

May you have a great journey ahead &
May God bless you always :)
Take Care and have a nice day later ,
2-0 GUY :)
<3

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my favourite song of National Day :)
' We Will Get There & Reach Out For The Skies ' .


Was a great performance put up by Nutzcrew justnow .
hehee !!
then follow-ed by my singing performance with Mr Saz , Alif , Izza & Akit .
' Rasa Sayang ' .
today was tiring ever !
& i miss-ed my primary school's life :(
random but seriously !

tomorrow gonna be a very rush day for me !
firstly , prelim exam papers starts .
its english tomorrow , 8am till 12noon .
then have to rush to Suntec City for performance .
then go to Pasir Ris to meet Afez and pass my net .
then get back to my hometown , Pioneer and get fresh up .
then go to school for my design and technology project till 9pm .
tomorrow is the last day of doing the project and ,
on Friday , it has to be submitted ..
arghhhhhh !!!
IM SO TIRED LYKE SUPER HELL !

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i felt so relieve-d !
atlast , my orthographic drawing is DONE !
imagine i did that from 2.30pm to 5.15pm !!!!
goshh !! im suck at dimensioning , alignment , dotted & etc .
supposingly there's dance prac justnow ,
but graduating classes have no .
so , i went to design studio ,
sit quietly and do what i have to do .
many says , im a good gurl just now :)
but whadeva it is ,
im happy im done with orthographic !
and im coming baq to school later at 7pm to do my partlist drawing .
this gonna taq me long im sure !!
Mr Tan , please be around me at this moment !!!

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im so tired of everything .
so stress-ed up .
but life has to go on .
lyke it or not ,
it has to be accept-ed .
*my examinations



to Khalis ,
i'll upload the picture you & me soon ayteayte .
:)
btw , ive upload it at fb ald .
siap dengan tag Khalis lagy .
hehehee !

Labels: its takes time for someone to change