i still keep the teddybear you gave me !
heeeee :)
its reminds about us .
i have to throw it away ,
cuz its bad rmmbr-ing the past tyme !
HAHHAHA , just joking :P

anyways ,
start-ed the day bad .
so real bad !
and it brings to the whole day of today .
im quite moody today .
but its our own fault too right guys ?
we're in the same crew ,
so we have to face it together .

i dont know how to say or explain .
only God understands what i really felt now .
its painful keeping inside !
i have to let it out .
but i need someone who is willing to hear me .
and someone i can trust to .
pheeww ~

and my schedule now is really TIGHT !
i cant do much .
this is my decision ,
so i will do it !
and please respect my decision everyone .
it wont affect ............
trust me .
i love you guys , equally !

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going dinner later with all aunties and uncles .
cuz one of my uncle gonna treat the whole big family .
but i dont know at whr yet .

tmr there'll be Voguelicious's audition .
but , i dont think i can make it .
cuz i got dance prac with Nutzcrew at 10am .
and the audition is at 12nn .
its impossible for me to reach there on tyme .
so if i cant reach on tyme , then i guess ,
i'll just give it a pass ..
lets see how it goes tmr ..
if my prac finish earlier ,
(which i dont think so) , ......
eyy lets see how it goes .
*serahkan kepade Tuhan saje laa :D

p/s : everything will be fine , just endurance Ella .

just got home from prac .
and later going prac again at 8pm .
ouchhh !!
im hungry now !
i wanna eat kfc's zinger !!!!
and now i dont know what to post .....

special thanks to
-JASON
-GICO
-AMEER
-REED
-DIN
-HAFIZ
-AZLAN
-ABG JAMYL
-ERLYNA
for cheering up my lyfe yaww !!
and for now , i cant live without you guys !!
<3
see ya'll later !! ;)

im no those eurasion/chinese .
friends ,
im malay and im proud to be one :)
anyways , thnks for the compliments *winks
those natural eyebrows's shape , dimples ,
black-brown eyes , sharp nose , 'pure skin' and
whatever you guys praised ,
thanks so much !
thanks to my parents's genes .
yeahh .. :D
my dad got dimples , so it passes to me and
my 1st bro .
anyways , i still do have my weaknesses people !
i got a scar on my right hand .
and its obvious .
cuz last tyme when i was a kid , my mom said that
im very 'good' girl .
i run around , and so i accidentally pull the iron's wire ,
and then the iron drop-ed to my righthand :(
the scar remains ...
and as for my face ,
*promoting ........
i eat tomato and i wash my face using ******
secret ! :P
hehehhe , ayte for people who wanna know so much ! ,
when i bath , i use this ..
'EVERSOFT AVOCADO FACIAL CLEANSER ' .
its green in colour and you guys can get at any shengsiong ,
prime or anywhere !
you have to rinse with water after that ayte .
then , after i finish-ed bathing , i wipe everything ,
*as normal* after wearing your clothes ,
then use this cream ,
'FAIR & LOVELY' .
yuuppp ..
you guys can try on this :)
its quite troublesome , but ,
to me , face is first priority .
and second is the hair .
hehehhehee !
and again , thanks alot !
well , all these is God's give .
*Alhamdulillah !
but now , my face have some pimples ald :(
i think im too stress .
but mom said , due to late night sleep .
hmmmm , i must sleep early then !
:(

and now , im tired !
well , we are practising for this comp ,
dance xplosion .
together with our genting comp after
Alif , Iqah , Nadyra , Izza and Akit
done with their o level ..

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my mind is full of thinking .
i cant be alone cuz if im alone ,
i will start to think EVERYTHING .
before that , i would lyke to thank to dearest NC .
for cheering me up , put a smile on my face and even laughters .
eventho the night prac is tiring ,
but i lyke it tho .
cuz my attention will only focus on the prac .
i just wanna say that ,
YOU GUYS REALLY MEANT TO ME .
EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU GUYS NUTZCREW !
meet you guys later :D

and to you ,
or should i just type down your name here ?
ouhkay you know yourself .
thanks for creating stories up , and put my name into it .
i dont know what to say about you .
atfirst , yes im angry , totally !
but i respect my crew , my instructor and everyone thats involved ,
so , im letting you off .
and for your info , im letting you off JUST LYKE THAT !
and i wont enter to your lyfe anymore .
and i hope you get it on what my instructor have told you .
lyke what you've said ,
why cant i forgive you , while God forgive every sins that
human's made .
ouhkay i'll forgave you , Mira .
im still respecting you by starting with a capital letter on your name .
and i know ,
everyone make mistakes ,
and yeah ..
you are now free from this problems that you've made .
you're free-ed by me .
idk if the others are still searching for you .
take care of your everything next tyme ayte .
ciaos !~

i wont entertain this kind of nonsence .
i had enough !
bestfriend ? i dont think so .
rival ? well , i dont give a shit !
why blog ?
you know my number , you know my msn .
you know where i live and you know who is close with me .
so ?!
come on , open up your mind !
and , yeah , we used to share our secrets .
and now we are in this condition .
i know my secrets with you will not be safe .
I KNOW THAT !
but atleast , I DIDNT MAKE UP STORIES !
i think maybe im TOO NICE with you , thats why you're stepping me .
babe , wrong person ar .
well then , i'll show you my true colours .
i wont let you escape !
i have the proof .
and not only me , the rest have also !
i just wanna tell you this ,
im totally pissed of with you !
if im not under my instructor's control ,
i dont know what will happen to you .
i dont wanna get involve in your life anymore .
once is enough !
and one more thing ,
if you wanna 'SHARE' my secrets with everyone ,
then i hope , you dont add your own words ouhkays ?
cuz if i get to know you add some shit to it ,
i promise you ,
i wont think twice to make you miserable !
YOU DESERVE THAT !

abg Jamyl call-ed and wanna have lunch with me .
so we gonna have it at JP and
we'll meet at 12.45pm later .
he'll be fetching me under my block with his bike and
will head-ed to dance prac at 2pm .

my routine of lyfe gonna be simple yet tiring .
2pm - prac for Genting comp .
6pm - prac ends and go home eat and wash up
8pm - prac for D.E comp ..........
and depends what tyme its end .
usually 10plus lyke tht .

so yeah , pardon me ,
if i've not updating my blog .

Im seating by the window
Im staring at the open air
Im hoping that it will show
Things that i could bare
Now what did i do wrong
Why were you so mean
We've been together for so long
Im stuck in between
Because

The feeling just died
I dont feel
Faith is on our side
Why did you create all these lies
When you know
I will leave without
Saying goodbye
The feeling just died
I dont feel
You by my side
Wish it was easy to say
I love you
Cause there's still
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do

I feel you close to me
The times when you were mine
Till i heard about the things
The cheating and all the lies
I find it kind of strange
Thinking we could last for a long time
You will never change
Even after giving you a second try
Because

The feeling just died
I dont feel
Faith is on our side
Why did you create all these lies
When you know
I will leave without
Saying goodbye
The feeling just died
I dont feel
You by my side
Wish it was easy to say
I love you
Cause there's still
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do

Now what did i do wrong
Why were you so mean?
We've been together for so long
Im stuck in between

The feeling just died
I dont feel
Faith is on our side
Why did you create all these lies
When you know
I will leave without
Saying goodbye
The feeling just died
I dont feel
You by my side
Wish it was easy to say
I love you
Cause there's still
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do
Many things for us to do ....

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dance prac justnow .
its PT :D
i can feel tht my stamina drop lyke hell !
alot of exercises we did !
and i cnnt tahan !!
but i didnt give up ayte ;)
push up sit up running captain's ball .
but my grp lose in the captain's ball .
hahahha !
funny siaa , cock-ed up !
but its just a game .
atleast our cheer is DOPE SHIT than the rest .
HAHAHHA !!
' eh ah eh ah , clap(x4) ' .
abg Jamyl loves our cheering !
heeee !

at around 5plus , we're dismiss-ed .
went to kfc with Jason .
then reach-ed home arnd 7pm .
wash up and go to dance prac again .
Alan will not be coming later ,
Fauzie also .
so we gonna learn Reed's choreo .

and ouchh ! im so tired !
CRAMPS everywhere !!
after i do that freakin thing ,
i dont know what its call-ed .
but after i did that ,
and 'show-off' each and every Nutzcrew ,
then , its start-ed to cramp !
maybe its because of ,
i just got to do tht ,
and start to do alot of tymes without break ,
and even do one time to one people ,
HAHAHHHAHA !!
FCUK LAA !!
i have to stop doing it for awhile ..
everywhere in me is cramp now .
hmmmm .....

Jason and Ella :D
well i just got home from dance prac .
from 10am till now .
and currently im cooking , maggy :D
after this im going to wash up ,
and go to dance prac again at 8pm .
im loving this !
i love making myself busy nowadays ,
so that i wont think of my problems too much !

prac later .
~dancing is my passion :)

i think since my hols starts ,
this is my first tyme waking up early .
at 8 plus ? yeahhh ..
hahahaa !
im so proud of myself !
i wake up early !
hehehhee :D
and i know the rest of my friends are still sleeping :P

for abg Faliq ,
I CRIED LISTENING TO YOUR SONGS ..
very touching !
:(




~see me smiling , dont think im happy .
deep inside , you'll never know .

he got a great voice

i got alot to talk about actually ...
but because of you !
all my mood swing !









its just the attitude ,
that can make lots of people ,
hate you !

well Izza and Akit call-ed me and msg-ed
me lyke pheewww ! ( ALOT ) .
hahhaaa ! and i guess Nadyr was with them too !
cuz they want me to follow them to have breakfast at
MacD :)
hehehe , im sorry babes !
my phone is not set to silent but i still cant hear
it ringing cuz im sleeping *winks ! :P
not that i sleep lyke any animal , quote-d by Izza .
but i sleep at 4plusAM yesterday .
so yeahh !
heeeee :)

and i receive-d msg-es from Riza , Faizah and all
saying the prac was cancel-ed !
pheeewww !!
but Jason just call-ed me a few mins ago ,
that prac still on and he's on his way now .
wth ?
whats up now ?!
and Alif said its still on ..
so yeah , im coming down cuz Jason's voice sound-ed
lyke wanting me to come down ..
hahhah !!
if not ,
fcuk im going to do the same routine again ,
WATCHING NICK DREAMER AT YOUTUBE , hahaaa ! :D
and lucky there's some competition going on tmr .
i have to bath now !
and Mira said there's party at sentosa ..
the new wave station or ?
have to confirm again with her .
arghh !!
actually im fcuk-ed up with something !
not gonna elaborate then .
pheeeww !!
ciaos !

* PUT YOUR 'F' SIGN UP DEAR FUNKY *
i miss FreekzyNutz , LilNutz , FunkyNutz , GroovyNutz and PhatNutz !
not forget-ing , JAMYL NUTZ !
yeayy !!
MEETING NUTZCREW LATER ! <3
i cant wait for this .
its lyke , very long2 tyme we didnt meet .
nono , not meet ! we've been meeting each other lyke everydae !
but what i mean it that , DANCE !
yeahhh !
been a long tyme since we dance together right ?!
hmmm ..
and chat-ed with Gico justnow really touch-ed me !
i mean , we both keep saying ' i miss you ' and ' i miss you ' ,
hahahhaa !!
wth ?! pheeww .. !
and for tmr is for Genting comp prac .
and i dont know what else .
cuz i know abg Jamyl always loves last minute ( ooppss ! ) :)
i mean lyke , another 4 days to comp ,
then he'll tell us that we're actually joining that comp .
if in class , we call it SURPRISE TEST .
but in dance , we call it SURPRISE COMP .
hahahaa ! wtf ella ?!

and i cant sleep still !
i dont know !!
im lyke 24/7 hr using this com .
fcuk rightt .
but starting from tmr onwards , i'll be quite bust then :D
its good cuz i love making myself looks busy .
so that i know what i have to do ..
AND YOU GUYS WANNA KNOW WHAT IVE BEEN DOING LATELY ?
beside bloghopping , download musics , updating blog , chats ,
search for lyrics to sing , watch dance moves at youtube and etc ..
ive been watching this video from youtube .
umm , his state-d thr that his name is NICK DREAMER .
omg !!
HE'S MY FULL TYME ENTERTAINER for the past 2 days .
hahahahaa !
i love see-ing hym singing boom boom pow and sweet dreams !
and not forgeting JAIHO too !!
hehe , funny laa ! :D
and i never fails to watch hym everyday .
hahaha !! im not psycho eh !
just that , he'll make me laughs each tyme !
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0UI36i6--mA&NR=1
thats the link to it .
hope you guys enjoys too ! :D

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~LUQMAN NURHAQIM~
This guy is freakin hawt in both side of his :)
I get to know hym at RP's competition on 10 Jan '09 .
He's from Style Groovaz last tyme .
I know them because whenever i participated in a
competition with Nutzcrew , they'll have too .
Its lyke mostly compete-ing .
But I didnt know that I get close to one of them ,
Luqman Nurhaqim :D
Eversince he join-ed Voguelicious , yeap !
Thats the tyme i get to know more about hym .
To me , i love his style , his grooves and mostly everything
about hym .
Because i can say that , HE'S FREAKIN FRESH ! :D
I love the way he dress hymself , be it if its
boyish or girlish ,
because he knows how to dress them .
But i prefer more boyish of hym lyke i said to hym :)
Because to my opinion ,
overall , he's still a guy .
But whatever things you do Luke ,
you'll get my fully support ouhkays :D
And Ella loves you ! <3
Take care and see you this saturday together with Voguelicious !
Good Luck and i love the videoshoot , Amoled , *winks !

p.s : Sorry ! I snatch-ed it from FB justnow :P

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tagboard and song , finally its up :D
and blogskin gonna change soon too !
but i didnt know when because the camera's USB
is with my brother's friend .
TSKK !
i cant do much rightnow but just wait for USB to come back !

im totally bored at home !
i prefer going to school now hahaa .
i wanna work but dance starts this friday .
and it continues till the competition's end .
but i told mum that im not working and she's fine with that
because its my own decision anyways .
but i said that how about my income ?
and i suggest her to leave me $5 everyday at the dining table
before she leave to work .
hehehhehehhehehhe !! :P
*makan gaji buta*
when she start to open her mouth , i continue-d .....
and then i'll clean up the house .
then she's alright :)

i've been waking up late , really late .
freakin late !!
at 4pm ? damnn !!
all this due to sleeping very late around nearly 4am ?!
TSKK !
i've tried to sleep early but fail-ed .
tmr is thursday .
pheww , bored day !
i think i want to follow mum to work ,
but have to wake up at 7am ?!
hmmmmmm ... * think thrice babe !
i think work out at gym is much more better .
Aiyed , how bout that ?

and to Dinie ,
get well soon ouhkays !
drink lots of plain water and dont forget medicine .
take care of yourself dude !!

ouhkay ! atlast im done with examinations !!
im so happy plus scared !
happy cuz the exam stress is over !
and scared for the result in Dec .
hopefully , i hit my aims ....

well , im having some photoshoots tmr for
Sheikh Haiqel's studio .
yeahh ! together with Nutzcrew !
im lovin' it ! <3
thanks Reed and Gico !
i miss you both too !
lyke super alot !
*hugs*
and so do NC :D
im done with exams , so we'll be meeting everyday ayte .
heeee ... !!
practice practice practice !!
and plus scoldings , but enjoyments's scolding !
hahahaa !!

my hair is not a big wow now .
i thought the colour will lyke what i want it to be .
but then , it turns suckky !!
i think im going to saloon to help me to retouch back .
or do everything back !
now , $$$$$$ !
fcuk right ?/!
two tymes work .
i hate it !

mom , grandma , aunties , uncles and all ,...
says tht im too pamper-ed .
hahhaha !! wth ??!
no im not actually ...
everything tht i do , they will say ,
' eh eh manje nyee ' .. or
' ella kan penat .. tk tau eh ella penat ? '
but in the very dragwords say ..
cuz i always umm , idk ...
im just being me ..
but sometymes i do realise-d tht im too pamper-ed .
well what to do ?!
i love being lyke this ..
hehehee !
i love dragging each words im saying ..
thats makes people always say ,
MANJE NYE ELLA NY ... !
hahahhahaa !!
but when serious im serious ouhkays , hehe !
i wont drag my words when im scolding or angry ..
lyke duuhh !! haa !
but mom ask-ed me justnow ,
' ella ko ny daa menengah lagy nk manje2 ..
esok kalau ko dpt laki garang , padan muke ko .. '
and i reply , ' bukan nye ella nk kawin esok pon .. '
grandma interfere ,' biarlaa ella nk manje2 , cucu nenek sorang ny '.
( padehal cucu ad 13 , hahhaaa ! )
mom just smile-d :)

i guess im going to sleep .
tmr morning i wanna work out with Aiyed and Zaki at gym .
hahahhaha !!!
lets go !

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1stly ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DEAREST
Muhammad Adryan Mikhail Bin Muhammad Fadlie !
Happy 1 YEARS OLD my beloved adik sedare :D
so tmr gonna have party for hym at chalet with all cousins ,
aunties , uncles , grandma , great-grandma and blablablaaa !
how i wish my grandfather is there too for tmr ,
but God loves hym more ............
its been ald 4 yrs he left this big family , ....
but he's still in our hearts .
i love you tok ! <3>
so yeahhh , im gonna overnight there :)
with cousins , yeayyyy !
what else ? lets tonn lyke what we always do when thrs family gathering :D



went to Lavender just now to renew my passport
for my dance competitions at Genting next month .
i cant wait to dance back !
been watchin dance videos in youtube from other countries
and also dancers in S'pore ,
cuz its been the long tyme i didnt dance .
lyke , 1 months plus ?
yeahh , arnd thr .
and i think i have to start jogging to get the stamina back .
STADIUM , here i come :)
cuz what Jason told me that , abg Jamyl's training gonna be tough ,
lyke how he start-ed the Nutzcrew very 1st training ,
and when i was sec 1 .
the 2.4km run before practising , hehe !
games , captain's ball and all ..
sometymes its ald lyke High School Musical , heheh !
actually i miss that too !
its been a long tyme since i run together with Nutzcrew ,
and abg Jamyl when he was in NS :D
i think i better pack my things for tmr so that its not gonna be ,
kanchong and forget-ing this and that !
but im lazy ...........
nvm , .....
tmr morning will be fine too :D

JASON LAM JIE SHENG !!
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU my ' baby ' in nutzcrew :D
i hope you're happy the celebrates just now at swensen ,
together with Nadyra and Akit .
hehehhe !
SURPRISE FOR YOU !!!!!
cuz i dont want you to celebrate your birthday this yr alone
lyke last year .

so Nadyra and Akit go to buy cake that can be drawn by ourselves ,
whereas i and Jason at swensen , talking , sharings , everything !
we come out with a lot of topics cuz i dont know what Nadyra and Akit is doing !!!
they took nearly 1 hour , wtf ?!
but i have a great talks with Jason , right ?
hehehhe !
keep between us ouhkays !!
then , there you go !
the 2 gurls coming , heeee :)
with cakes and presents .
and so Jason get free ice cream from swensen cuz its his birthday :)
i love today !

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just reach-ed home from raya with beloved friends <3
and thanks to Huzaiyed for sending me home cuz
im so scared .
its nearly 1am and under my blocks there's always
matreps and banglas sitting at the pondok playing guitar and slack .
thanks Huzaiyed !!
and it was a great day !
im so tired !!
and all this blame the heels !!!
there's only ' 3 couples ' ( wearing same colour ) .
and mine is Firdaus :)
we're wearing light and dark orange colours .
we dont plan it , its just coincidence ..
so that guy over there ,
the purple-ish one ....
dont get jealous ouhkay !
hahahaa !
true that i and Firdaus was together last tyme ,
for lyke umm , 8mnths plus ..
but doesnt mean we're continue-ing again .
hehehehee ..
thats me and Firdaus up there :D
and everyone in my house <3

p/s : sorry to that someone for not wearing white together with him .
and sorry to that someone for making you jealous !

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it was last day of school justnow .