IT'S SO HARD TO PRETEND NOT TO LOVE A PERSON WHEN YOU REALLY DO.
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ELLA Tamara Bleszynski.
6 april 1993.
West Side.
Juying Secondary School.
O Level This Year.
A Dancer But Being An Actress Is My Biggest Dream.
NUTZCREW repp FunkyNutz.
Red & Adidas Freak !
Single But Unavailable.
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Sunday, January 31, 2010
Title; Romantic Boy
 Mr.Firelle Ferrero Rocher says:
I love you i love you i love you Nabilah Binte Abdul Aziz
Mrs.Firelle Ferrero Rocher says:
i love you i love you i love you too Muhammad Firdaus Bin Azul Karnaain <3
Firdaus sing for me alot of songs :)
he so sweettttt <3
i dont expect this seriously .
but at the same tyme ,
im loving it alot alot <3
i love it when he sing GURAUAN BERKASIH :)
by Achik and Nana .
and so i join the singin too .
after that , he sing Anggapanmu ,
and i said that song reminds me of someone
so he immediately stop ,
guess he's scared if i were to .......
hehehhehhee !!!!
i wont kay :)
no worries Muhammad Firdaus Bin Azul Karnaain <3
yeayyy ! he'll call me later :)
then later at 1.30am baby wanna watch football ,
phewww ~
now the tyme is 12:30am .
the football whatever thingy will starts 1 hour later .
i guess we'll talk on the phone after that football match then ,
which i guess its arnd 3+am ?
and or ive asleep ? :P
hehhe ! we'll see how it goes !
i dont know !
what so good about the ball huh ?
hehehe ! :P
currently webcaming with hym <3
aiyooo , know what ?!
background toilet seyy !
cute nyeee die ... :)
today ( sat, 30/1 ) ,
thought of going out with dearest boyfy ,
but both of us were busy :(
he got his CIP at jurong east .
while i have my maths class from 1-4pm .
then i got the 7th-day kenduri after that .
hmmmph ..
maybe next week then kaysss ...
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Friday, January 29, 2010
Title; sick :(
 im not feeling well .
im having fever :(
hate it hate it hate it !
cuz its total irritatetism !
i think this fever come from syg ...
cuz the last few days he is sick .
and now he's fine , and its my turn !
AIYOOOOOOO ....
syg didnt wait for me cuz he going friday prayers ,
so i went home and then dance .
i coach the new Nutzcrew ,
FreshesNutz just now cuz im having fever so ,
yeah just coach them .
hehs ! i make them do push-ups when they are way too noisy
or make mistakes .
but , i still love them :)
bunch of cute dancers !
love thems !!! <3
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Thursday, January 28, 2010
Title; FIRELLE Ferrero Rocher
 today was great .
spent time with Firdaus <3
anyways he's the one smiling without teeth :)
he's very caring and loud person !
i like ....
he fetch me under my block everymorning ,
he wiated for me in the afernoon .
and im sorry for justnow :(
cuz i have to go to dance room , and he wanted to go home with me ..
sorry keeping you waiting .
sorry for disappoint you ..
but i have a great time with you !
we sit at the school bench in the middle of our classrooms ,
and there it goes ,
our friends go shouting lyke monkey .
hahs !
and Firelle ignored them and continue our thing :)
I LOVE HIM and only him :)
and he really changed my lyfe alot alot !
i hope for the best for us ! <3
currently on the phone with hym :) ..
cuz we both nvr fails to have late night calls everynight :)
justnow he called his cat and i thought he called me ,
so i answer-ed , ' yeee ? '
and he laugh-ed and said that he called his cat ,
named Lala and me Ella .
aiyoooo , !! i dont lyke cat you know !~
oooopppsss ! sorryy~Labels: Muhd Firdaus
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Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Title; BabyFirell :)
Well , all of my surroundings is busy talking
about my status in facebook , hmm .
In school , in dance , in fb , HAHHAHAAA !
Yes im ald attach-ED :)
ouhkay on the behalf of him ,
i would lyke to apologise for not telling our own friends ,
and all , whoever ..
both of us are really sorry :(
just that we want it to be low profile :)
yuppp ..
yesterdae was amazing !
'fight' with my 2nd brother for house phone !
cuz he wants to talk to his gf .
and i wanna talk to my boy :)
but atlast i use it , heee ..
and we really had a great tyme together .
we shared alot previously .
i shared about my love lyfe last tyme ,
and also about my past .
and he did too .
well , basically he win my heart ,
because most of the guys that comes ,
i turn-ed them down , ooppss :|
but friendship will always stay :D
well , i hope everythin turns fine ...
amin ...
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Thursday, January 21, 2010
Title; how am i to focus ?
 OhMyGod !!Currently am doing my fcuking hmwks , plus chatting , plus blogging , plus sms-ing , plusplus , BALTIMORE CLUB MUSIC ! MYGODDD ~ im going crazy with this chemistry !~ im going crazy chattin with my friends ~ AND IM TOTALLY CRAZY LISTENIN TO THIS FCUKIN ~~~ BALTIMORE CLUB MUSIC !!!! how i wish im 18 now ..*shits* soon Ella , just next year ! *winks*
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Title; whats went wrong ?
*take a deep breathe*well actually , currently ,..im having some difficulties/problems/stress , everything !about everything ! my surroundings !!everything is not right to me .im hoping that this week will turn perfectly fine for me but it turns up ,fcukedup !!and because of that ,its affect everything to me ofcourse .i feel so down this week .i cant focus .all the things that i intended to do , are all messed up .everything is thwarting me !all lessons thats going on in school were so monotonous ~but everyone around me embolden me and i really thank them alot .but somehow , its didnt work :(its all depends on me , myself ...its just the startin of the week and im feelin lyke this .its totally negative sign :(but i want to dedicate this post to Firdaus ,thank you for everything .thank you for being there for me when i need somebody ,to talk to , to let out my feelings and all .youre always there for me .i really appreciate you to the max .you're zany to me but at the same time , you know when to be serious and all .once again , thanks alot !i hope our friendship will be greattsss one !and specially to this fcukin crazy stop it girl ,SITI FAIZAH BINTE ZAMBRI ,Happy 16th Birthday !or ,Happy Belated Birthday :)But theres something i wanna tell you ,NC16 IS SO YESTERDAY ....!HAHAHHAHAAA !!!kay one day lets watch those NC16 ones ayte .GAGGAGAGAAA :P
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Sunday, January 17, 2010
Title; I Must Learn To Accept Changes
 whats up with the christmas cap ?hehehe , idk ! anyways , my lyfe have changed alot . and im happy and looking forward for it :) 2010 <3 but still , 2009's memories will still kept close in my heart . whatever it is , i treasure every moment i had in lyfe . school's start back tmr :( its ald the 3rd weeks . im feeling tired .. but this year is a important year for me . decision is in my hand . hmmmm ... wish me luck people ! and i hope , Ate Kate come tmr for dance ..!! i wanna learn her choreo badly :( ATE KATEEEE <3 come come come !! and i hope tmr gonna be a good start of the week :) take care people !
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Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Title; VAGUE
pardon me for not updatin constantly . im superly busy . after school , went to dance prac , then to tuition , then went study and by next week theres night prac . omg !!! ofcourse its tiring , but i have to bare with everything . cuz what ? i wanna be lyke Alif a.k.a Aircho Artist . My role model :) he dance , he study and and , CONGRATULATIONS to him , for getting 13 points for 'O'level . i dont know how he managed his time . he get grade 1 for science , fcuk rightt !!!! but he said to me , ' dont be lyke me . be better than me ' . i will always remember every advices given by anybody . im scared to start anything for my 'O' level , S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y ....... ive lost my phone , last sunday :( eventho im going to chnge my phone to Blackberry :) , i still love my old phone , sony ericson <3 but yeah , now , its difficult to get Blackberry then . cuz i lost my phone . haizzz .... dad has ald cut that line , then get a new simcard of same number justnow . that phone keep playin in my mind . there's lots of things inside ... ;-( should i say this out ? or should i dont ? hmmmm .... im in total vague rightnow . im scared if i make the wrong decision . its ald more than 1 year im being single , cuz been waiting , and im deeply love that someone , just that he didnt notice it i guess . after he entered my lyfe , i dont look to other guys . sometymes its hurt , cuz i cant move on . since 2008 till rightnow 2010 . but i learn to be understandable , and always been understandin as my love is in a very difficult situation . i dont know why im still loving hym , eventho i knew how he's lyke ....... hmm , there's something in hym , that makes me keep on loving hym , till rightnow . and ive been rejecting many guys just because of hym . no guys win my heart except hym , but whatever it is , my love for this particular person is sincere , and its hard for me to forget a person lyk hym . but then , another guy came to my lyfe lyke 5 days back , and the way everything he did , attracts me . esp. his eyes ......... and the smile he gave me .. basically he win my heart , after more than 1 year of me loving the same person . Labels: apple or flower
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Saturday, January 9, 2010
Title; Dont Get The Wrong Picture
 as what ive promised ,
here for you Jason Lam Jie Sheng , specially .
there's alot to talk about but ,
i will highlight the important points , first .
umm , when i heard about your stories ,
i let out an audible sigh with a bleakly smiled but uttered not a word .
everyone could not quite grasp what was happening .
that moment , when you told us what you did ,
the atmosphere turned silent ,
numb with shock and disbelief .
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ive been knowing you lyke 4 years ald .
you've known nutzcrew for 4 years also and , yeahh ...
you know your mistakes and i gotta tell you that ,
a wave of emotions swept over us , the nutzcrew ,
upon hearing the news .
i dont know whats your point doing it ,
but i try my best to understand you deeply.
as a senior ,
i have to point out your mistakes .
yes i am disappointed , but i also have to be understanding as well .
cuz sometymes people do something and there will always be a reason .
but whatever it is ,
what past is past .
what we have to do now is learn from our mistakes ,
and try not to do it again .
and dont be ego please .
im not angry with you Jason .
you know me well .
you know yourself that at the end of the day ,
you know tht Nutzcrew loves you rightt .... , thats why .
if we all dont love you ,
we will just ignore you and dont scold you .
i hope you understand the meaning of scolding .
scolding means love .
come on Jason ,
you're left with how many months and you're away ald .
so i hope you spend this few months seriously ,
and just have fun alrights .
treasure every moment .
i seriously know how you feel .
but , you have to be strong , facing all of this shit .
take it as a lesson to learn .
and actually , i wanna blog about you ,
about other thing , but i think blogging this is
much more important and meaningful .
i hope you'll cope everything in fine ,
and , all the best for everything .
you'll get my back , no worries .
Nutzcrew's back .
rmmbr on your head that ,
NUTZCREW STILL LOVE YOU !
WILL ALWAYS BE , FOREVER !
and one more thing ,
i want you to rmmbr that ,
you've join-ed nutzcrew in a twinkle in your eyes .
and i hope , if you wanna leave us ,
you gonna leave us with a facial muscles relaxed and a smile linger on your face .
yupp , for now , just go with the flow .
BE STRONG ayte .
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Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Title; need your help still
 Firstly I would like to thank my bro , my senior ,
Mohamad Alif Bin Rais ,
a.k.a
AIRCHO ARTIST :)
He's been always teaching me everything that I wanna know .
And a person like him will never be forgotten :)
my headstand , handstand , chair , 6steps ...
basically those breakdance ,
its all teach-ed by him .
he's not selfish .
he shared his experience and dance technics with Nutzcrew .
and now , i ask-ed him to teach me how to control steps .
as in , not flowing but its lyke fast then go slow .
ITS NICE !!
its more to the feel and its hard i tell you !
but im still working on it .
i wanna upgrade myself cuz those streets dancers out there ,
are way better than me .
and the dance standard now is so high !
when i went to STS BATTLE COMP ,
seeing flairnation doing their thing ,
seriously , im scared !
if i were to battle with them ,
......hmmm........
and also other groups were dope too .
thats why , they are motivating me to improve myself ,
without they knowing .
i cant afford to remain like this .
i have to work this shit out !
im learning different genre , one at the time .
so currently im learning CONTROLing by Alif .
and also finger tating , with the help of Alif too .
WELL , THANKS BRO !! :D
you guys may see him in that picture so fierce .
but his heart is so clean .
i know him well .
its been 5 years yeah !
Nutzcrew having audition just now .
its good to see that lots of pople coming in .
lyke more than 50 peoples ?
yeahhhh ..
but we can only choose 16 :(
but really thanks to those who come ,
and those 16s , CONGRATULATIONS .
YOU'RE NUTZCREW NOW ;D
remember ,
'FLY HIGH LIKE A KITE , STRING ATTACHED TO THE GROUND'
it means ,
no matter how good we are , we must not be arrogant :)
NUTZCREW ! <3
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Sunday, January 3, 2010
Title; bad girl gone good :)
 school starts tmr and i dont feel anything .
but some lazy-ness is there ,
cuz i have to wake up at 6am ! :(
but i really wanna do great in 2010 .
i wanna be a good girl :)
its my last year and i wanna give my all out .
i hope everything goes smoothly .
anyways , 2009 will be kept safely in my heart .
all those memories , sweet and bitter <3
i love all ! <3 :D
and i know im dead tmr :(
cuz my hair is colour-ed .
and i havent colour-ed it back to the natural colour .
i seriously got no tyme !
blackhairspray maybe , or just remain as lyke that , hehe !
kate ELLA TAMARA mahhhh :D
heeeeee ....... :)Labels: left side row gonna be much misses
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ELLA Tamara Bleszynski.
6 april 1993.
West Side.
Juying Secondary School.
O Level This Year.
A Dancer But Being An Actress Is My Biggest Dream.
NUTZCREW repp FunkyNutz.
Red & Adidas Freak !
Single But Unavailable.
