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ELLA Tamara Bleszynski.
6 april 1993.
West Side.
Juying Secondary School.
O Level This Year.
A Dancer But Being An Actress Is My Biggest Dream.
NUTZCREW repp FunkyNutz.
Red & Adidas Freak !
Single But Unavailable.
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Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Title; BEST MOMENTS
  what should i post now .
im so hurtful that my mind cant work properly .
he hurt me , say sorry and go away ...
putting all the blame on me ?
hmm , guess so .
well , i just dont think i would care anymore .
have fun ! and all the best with whatever you're doing now ! :)
and i would lyke to thank my abg Jamyl <3
atleast , he brighten-ed up my day today .
went to his house to help hym with some 'decorations' in his room ,
together with Nadyra :)
then abg Jamyl decided to record our voice .
since the 'decorations' is done ,
so yeahh , recording tyme .
both of us were lyke laughing and laughing at first .
especially the high pitch ones .
but nevertheless ,
we did record our voices for the whole song .
eventho its kinda out of tune or whatever ,
and try to imagine , abg Jamyl order-ed for us macdonald meal ,
after eating our meal ,
then start to rap , pheewws !
we were lyke saying what we wanna say and ~
but , guess its lyke T-Pain female version :P
gagaggaagaa !!
we did enjoy-ed ourselves :D
tmr sports day !
yeayyy !!! no studying :)Labels: im hurt you know
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Sunday, March 28, 2010
Title; to YOU ,
 i feel bad for myself .
i feel bad towards you .
i really understand how you feel on that moment ,
cuz from the words that you said to me ,
the way how you confessed to me ,
its really touches my heart .'it was you the one i tried so hard to get your attention
and me being noticed by you '...that sentence bothers me till today .
i try to ignored , but i feel bad at the same time .
im sorry to keep you waiting for so long .
and i know i took a long time to noticed you .
and i know how hurt are you , im sorry .
i dont mean to hurt you ,
but i dont know that im hurting you that period of tyme .
i know you're a emotional kind of person but ,
im truly sorry ~
hmmmm .....
lets just forget everything .
and i wish you all the best ...Labels: im sorry
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Saturday, March 27, 2010
Title; exposure
 its the first time the Lil'Nutz competing in a open cat
in dancework and we were lyke kinda scared .
seeing the JC's , Poly's and ITE's people really scare us .
but nevertheless ,
we did our all out and we were enjoying ourself on the stage ,
try to get the crowd .
thanks for people who come down and support :)
eventho we didnt get any placing ,
atleast , we managed to clinch the high energy award .
and i think its a great exposure to compete with our olders ones .
cheer up Lil'Nutz !
and ofcourse not forgetting , Fhunkie Stylerz :)
CONGRATULATIONS FOR THE FINALS :D
after that head to Pastamania at cineleisure with Faizah , Nadyra and Akit.
after that , went to Marina Barrage to just release our stress ,
and just wants to feel love in the night :)
OMG the place is super nice at night !
the atmosphere ...... :)
the cooling and this is freakin sweet ,
THE BIG ROUND MOON AND THE STARS AND KITE FLYING AROUND !
how i wish ........
nah forget it !
me and Nadyra really keep on laughing our hearts out ,
and theres people who imitate our laughter .
but we just heck care cuz we come there to enjoy ,
not to find troubles :)
but really , i wanna go there again !
this saturday maybe :D
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Monday, March 22, 2010
Title; HIPPO CRUISE
went for SBDC yesterdae .
all crew were awesome !
but the most that i love is the FANTASTIC CREW !
i was amazed by their theme .
and my eyes were lyke stucking at Wawan , HAHAA !
i mean in terms of his sharp moves , energy , face xpressions and etc .
he catches my attention throughout their routine .
LOVES IT :)
and other crew were amazing as well ! :D
and its difficult for me to open up my eyes this morning .
I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL :(
very tiring .
woke up at 6.30am :(
and just now after school had my sosial studies trip .
to Marina Barrage , then to Esplanade , take the Hippo cruise
and bring us to Clark Quay .
FUNNN !!!
OMG we keep on waving our hands to people that were on land .
we act lyke we're the tourist that take the cruise .
and atlast , i did feel how is it lyke on it :D
SUPER FUNN :D
after that went to practice ......... * tired face *
we really have to sacrifice .
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Saturday, March 20, 2010
Title; 21ST BIRTHDAY TO LUKE
  I KNOW ITS TOTALLY LATE .
BUT I DONT FEEL NICE IF I DIDNT POST IT .
ITS ACTUALLY LUKE'S 21ST BIRTHDAY , ON 25 FEB .
NOW ITS ALD 20 MARCH ( SHITSSS ) .
BUT NEVERMIND .
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY LUKMAN NURHAQIM :)
I APPRECIATE TO KNOWING YOU AND HAVING YOU IN MY LYFE .
ONE OR TWO , YOU DID MAKE SOME IMPACTS IN MY LYFE .
I REGARD YOU AS MY BROTHER AND WHATEVER SHIT THAT YOU'RE FACING ,
THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING BEHIND IT .
AND PLEASE REMEMBER THIS IN MIND ,
THAT ELLA WILL ALWAYS LOVE LUKE !
SO DONT SAY THAT YOU THINK I DONT WANNA TALK TO YOU AND ALL .
AND I THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME MOTIVATIONS AND SUPPORTS AND THE TRUST ,
EVERYTHING ON WHAT WE TALK-ED ABOUT JUST NOW .
THANKS LUKE !
AND I HOLD ON TO YOUR WORDS AYTE .
LET ME SAY THIS AGAIN ,
YOU'RE ALWAYS HANDSOME LUKE IDHAM ! :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D
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Title; MEE KUAH ~
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HEHEHE !
OMG its ald 4plus in the morning .
and im still awake .
currently chattin with Aisya
and its great :)
i dont know that she's fun to chat with .
and she's good at gossippin too .
NYAHAHAHAS !~
and thanks Aisya for , re-editin my blog :)
atleast now its look much more fresh .
simple but nice :)
thankyou !
and thankyou for the hints that you gave me .
well lyke ive said to you that
i really wanna clear my O level smoothly .
hopefully yeahh .. :)
and i hope you can talk things out with your dearest friend .
every problems have its own solution .
maybe now , you havent found it yet .
but soon you will :)
and see you soon !
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Friday, March 19, 2010
Title; i just wanna close my eyes everyday
i just feel lyke expressin it here .
IM SO STRESSFUL WITH MY LYFE !
everythin that related to me , i feel lyke not doin it .
one of it is my STUDIES .
sometymes i feel lyke quitting school :(
i know this is my very last year in that school ,
and i must do well in it .
but , i just cant wait to go out and be free from secondary rules !
and about the subjects ,
i totally cant focus !
my design and technology ,
I HAVENT COME OUT WITH AN IDEATION YET !
MY ARTEFACT AND ALL ~
MY JOURNAL IS IN A TOTAL MESS !
and i have no idea WHY I FAIL-ED MY MALAY ??!!
its my first tyme failing my malay you see ,
AND ITS A BIG SHOCK TO ME !!
im going to take my O level malay paper this 31st may .
i dont wanna fail it eventho theres a 2nd chance for me to retake .
i seriously wanna clear my O level with a successful grades .
BUT IN THIS PERIOD OF TYME ,
I JUST CANT FOCUS !
and i feel lyke giving up .
its a one week holiday this week .
and i didnt touch any of my books yet !
tmr is ald fridae .
I DONT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THIS .
sometymes i dont feel lyke continue-ing my lyfe anymore .
and this is just about my studies .
i havent talk about my other stuffs .
if i continue further , MY HEAD GOING TO CRASHHHH !!!!!!!~~~
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Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Title; TIRED ~
so freakin tired !
yesterdae was awesome at zirca :)
and congratulations to Freekzy :D
thankyou Sheikh Haiqel for the shirt ,
but its too big for us !
but appreciate lots !
its so crowded at zirca .
at the same tyme i feel abit scared ,
till i asked Sri to wait for me outside the girl's toilet ,
and hold Fauzi and Azlan when we were on the way out from zirca .
after the comp's over ,
we chill for a short while ,
then we followed abg Faliq to set up candles and all
for ADAM's 20TH BIRTHDAY :)
celebrate and celebrate , a small party between us .
Adam loves it alot , celebratin with his crew and his gf :)
its ald 1plus in the morning .
no more MRT ,
so abg Faliq send the 3 girls , Nadyra , Izza and me home .
he even waited until i ald go in to my house's lift .
thankyou abg Faliq :)
this just shows that he's responsible enough .
thats why my parents trust hym .
after send us home , abg Faliq went back to Clark Quay to fetch
Alif , Iskandar , Azlan , Adam and Adam's gf home .
while Fauzi and Hetty go back to zirca to party .
im so freakin tired that i woke up at 5pm justnow .
pheewwss !!~
anyways ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADAM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADAM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUHAMMAD ADAM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU .......! :)
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Saturday, March 13, 2010
Title; THANK YOU !
thank you for those who came and supported the Nutzcrew justnow .
especially JYIANS :)
and congratz to dearest FREEKZYNUTZ and FUNKYNUTZ for the next round <3
not forgetting VOGUELICIOUS too !
LILNUTZ dont manage to go for the next round .....
but we still enjoy ourselves on stage and i guess people do enjoy it too :)
hopefully ...
and my mom loves the performances :)
anyways ,
DO COME DOWN TO PLAZA SINGAPURA TMR FOR DANCEWORKS AND SUPPORT
FUNKY NUTZ , PHAT NUTZ ,
AND OUR NEWBIES , FRESHES NUTZ :)
BE THERE AT 1PM AYTE !
EVERY SUPPORTER COUNTS :D
had fun with Voguelicious justnow :)
miss them alot !
and thats the first tyme we met for 2010 !
OMG !!
Luke was bboying before the show .
Fadlie was popping , with his blue skirt on !
pheewwwsss !!! :)
but , well , i do enjoy-ed myself today ,
eventho me and my LILNUTZ didnt get to the next round .
Babes , theres more to come ayte :)
and to MUHAMMAD FIRDAUS ,
PLEASE STOP YOUR NONSENCE !
ITS REALLY PISSED ME OFF !
AND DONT BE A COWARD BY JUST WANTING TO DEBATE IN SMS .
THATS SO CHILDISH !
PLEASE TALK LESS AND DO MORE !
I HAVE MY LIMIT .
JUST DONT GO BEYOND IT !
I DONT CARE IF YOU'RE A BOY AND IM A GIRL .
HONESTLY , I DONT SCARED OF YOU !
YOU PLAY SHIT , I'LL PLAY THE BIGGER SHIT !
AND MY INSTRUCTOR AND MY CREW ARE WATCHING ON YOU .
JUST KNOW WHEN TO TALK AND STOP CHANGING TOPIC !
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Friday, March 12, 2010
Title; BURN YOUR FACE !
I JUST WANNA ASK YOU ,
HOW LONG CAN YOUR RELATIONSHIP LAST ?
WELL , I GIVE YOU A MONTH OR TWO .
LETS SEE TOGETHER .
IM NOT TRYING TO BOTHER YOU OR WHATEVER SHIT .
I JUST WANNA ASK YOU ,
DO YOU REALLY KNOW THE MEANING OF LOVE ?
OR YOU JUST WANNA BE IN A RELATIONSHIP
FOR THE SAKE OF IN A RELATIONSHIP .
YOU GET ME ?
CUZ FROM WHAT IVE SEEN ,
YOU'RE LYKE , STEAD THEN BREAK , STEAD THEN BREAK .
YOU THINK WHAT SIAA ?
FUNFAIR OR FREE-RIDE UH ?
PHEEWWSSS !!!!!
I SERIOUSLY HATE YOU .
YOU WANT EVERYTHING TO GO ON YOUR WAY .
DONT EVEN THINK OF ME !
SELFISH GUY EVER !
YOU BETTER DONT SAY A WORD TO ME ,
BEFORE I START SPITTING EVERYTHING OUT INFRONT OF YOUR FACE !
YOU HATE WHAT IM DOING ,
BUT DONT YOU EVER THINK THAT I HATE WHAT YOU'RE DOING TOO ?
THATS THE POINT !
YOU JUST WANT EVERYTHING TO GO ON YOUR WAY !
AND YOU THINK YOU ARE THAT GOOD ?
WELL I DONT SAY IM GOOD OR MY JUNIORS ARE GOOD ,
BUT ATLEAST WE DONT TALK COCK LYKE YOU .
TALK MUCH WITH LESS ACTIONS .
YOU ALWAYS SAYS WORLD UH WORLD UH .
BUT YOU YOURSELF WORLD SIAO !
I JUST HOPE THAT YOU CAN REALLY DO CORRECTIONS ABOUT IT !
AND LASTLY ,
DONT PLAY WITH THE GIRLS HEART ,
IF YOU DONT WANT THE GIRLS TO PLAY ON YOU ...
JUST WATCH YOUR WORDS LOSER !~
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Title; ALL OUT OR WHAT !
THE WHOLE DAY FOR TODAY WITHOUT RELAXING !
MORNING SCHOOL FROM 7.20AM TO 10.20AM .
THEN WENT TO CLEMENTI WITH LILNUTZ TO BUY OUR
PANTS FOR TMR SINGAPORE BEST DANCE CREW COMPETITION .
WENT HOME AT 1PM AND GET CHANGE TO OUR P.E ATTIRE .
MEET AGAIN AT 1.45PM FOR OUR CROSS COUNTRY AT JAPANESE GARDEN .
A RACE OF 3.2KM FOR GIRLS AND 4.8KM FOR BOYS .
TIRING AND CRAMPS ALL OVER ....
END AT 6.30PM .
THEN WENT TO BOONLAY PLACE TO BUY OUR SHIRT FOR TMR COMPETITION .
AFTER THAT GO TO JURONG POINT TO BUY FOOD ( MACDONALD ! )
THEN STRAIGHT AWAY GO TO DOME FOR PRACTISING AS THE FUNKY BOYS AND
ABG JAMYL HAVE WAITED FOR US .
PHEEWSS ~
AND AFTER DOING DETAILING AND CLEANING UP ,
WE LEARN-ED NEW CHOREO :)
I LOVE IT <3
AND NOW I JUST GOT BACK HOME , TIRIING !!
ANYWAYS , MY TIMING FOR JUSTNOW 3.2KM IS ROUGHLY AROUND 20MINS .
RUN WITH AQILAH .
WOWWWW !! MOTIVATION AND MOTIVATES EACH OTHER :D
MAYBE IM NOT TOP 20 BUT TOP 50 IS COOL TOO :)
HEHEHHEHEHE !!!! ~
GUYS , DO COME AND SUPPORT FUNKY AND LILNUTZ FOR TMR
SINGAPORE BEST DANCE CREW (SBDC) COMPETITION AYTE .
ITS AT OUTSIDE JURONG POINT .
JUST DROP AT BOONLAY MRT STATION .
BE THERE AT 5PM :)
THANK YOU LOVELIES <3
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Thursday, March 11, 2010
Title; You Cant Stop Me From Doing Anything Now
 My lyfe turned great without you now !
i just wasted my lyfe spending tyme with you .
i mean with all your empty promises , pheewss !~
seriously , i would rather choose a guy who didnt give me
any promises but try their best than a guy who gave me thousands
of promises but didnt fulfill it .
THATS TOTALLY WORSE !
enough said .
I THINK I MISS AZIZUL BADLY !
I MISS CHATTING WITH HYM .
WEBCAMING WITH HYM IS SO UNFORGETABLE !
AND OFCOURSE BY SEEING HYM WILL BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY :)
CUZ HE DIDNT HURT ME LYKE SOMEONE DID !
I CHERISH HYM MUCH :)
ALL THE BEST FOR ROMP !!
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Monday, March 8, 2010
Title; CANT WAIT FOR NEW SHIRT FOR NUTZCREW !
 SORRY PEOPLE FOR PRIVATING MY BLOG ..
NOW , ITS OPEN FOR ALL :)
YOU GUYS CAN COME 24/7 :D
ANYWAYS , NUTZCREW IS COMPETING IN QUITE LOTS OF COMPS .
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SUPPORT US .
CUZ EACH ONE OF YOU GUYS COUNT :)
COME DOWN TO JURONG POINT THIS SATURDAY , 13/3 ,
AND SUPPORT FUNKY NUTZ AND LIL NUTZ IN
SINGAPORE BEST DANCE CREW !!! :)
IM NOT SURE ABOUT THE TYME YET ....
BUT WILL CONFIRM IR SOON :)
AND THERES LOTZ OF DOPE DANCERS AS WELL ! :D
ON THIS SUN , 14/3 ,
COME DOWN TO PLAZA SINGAPURA AT 1PM AND GIVE YOUR
SUPPORT TO FUNKY NUTZ , PHAT NUTZ AND OUR NEWBIES , FRESHES NUTZ !
IN DANCEWORKS 2010 ! ( SECONDARY CATEGORY ) .
ON MON , 15/3 ,
SUPPORT OUR BELOVED SENIORS , FREEKZY NUTZ ,
FOR THEIR ROMP COMPETITION AT ZIRCA AT 7PM .
TIX ARE AT 25BUCKS ..
AND THERE'S GONNA SICK AND DOPE DANCERS THERE ! <3
ON THE SAT , 27/3 ,
PLEASE PLEASE COME DOWN TO SOMERSET , SKATE SCAPE PARK ,
AND SUPPORT THE LIL NUTZ FOR DANCEWORKS 2010 ( OPEN CATEGORY ) .
BE THERE BY 1PM I GUESS :)
AND OFCOURSE WITH A LOTS OF COMPETITIONS ,
OUR TRAININGS ARE AS HARD AS THOSE GUYS IN NS ....
AND NOT FORGETTING ABG JAMYL FOR ALWAYS HELPING US ,
AND SCOLDED US FOR GOOD .
THANKS ALOTT !
SEE YOU GUYS SOON !!!!! :D
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ELLA Tamara Bleszynski.
6 april 1993.
West Side.
Juying Secondary School.
O Level This Year.
A Dancer But Being An Actress Is My Biggest Dream.
NUTZCREW repp FunkyNutz.
Red & Adidas Freak !
Single But Unavailable.
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