Pheews ! Am so tired ! Its Monday , its blues day . I dont know what going on with my life ! Its so bored ! 2010 is a critical year for me . You know , O level . I just wanna do it once and well . And after that , Im back to my hell life again , seriously ! Now , its all books and revisions and papers all around my room . And what worst , its intensive malay this week . Justnow , Tuesday and Wednesday . Argghhh ! I hope I achieve my aims for my malay exams and I dont have to take it anymore .
31st MAY 2010 .
Its a date that stuck in my head now . Because thats the day when Im going to sit for my O level Malay Paper . In the hall ,total silence , just the sound of the fans that can be hear . Shitts ! Its reminds me of last year when I sit for my N level . Its was scary ! Im going to face the same situation again . Now , its even scarier I bet ! Well , wish me luck people !

I miss dancing like seriously ! Nutzcrew <3 I really wanna dance back but I know my families , teachers and all will be disappointed because Ive promised them , something . Thats why you see , all the invitations that Ive been getting for any dance events , I rejected it . I dont want to do that but I have to . I wanna dance with Kak Sery , Kak Zeela and wanna turn up for the auditions but , yeah like Ive said , I really have no choice . My mom said , ' Lepas kau punye O level , joget laa sepuas-puas hati sampai kau bosan '. Thats my mom . What about my form-teacher last year , when he gave me my result for N level ,' You've meet the criteria for N level and you're promoted to sec 5 to do your O levels . But can you promise me something ? Not to dance for a meantime of next year(2010) after your O level is done '.
But well , Ella ,its just 5 months more and you're totally done . Now , I just have to focus one thing , studies . Always have to remember the people around me . Its ouhkay if Im the one facing difficulties but not to see them sad about my broken promises and my actions . Shitts ! Examinations is like always ! And Im so sick of it ! But I dont hold any power or authorities to make objections . I wish I can . But keep on wishing Ella . All the best to you . HAH !

I miss practising ! I miss the warming up and 50 jumping jacks each time we wanna start our practices . I love Nutzcrew ! The most lovable crew ever ! Our juniors especially ! Haiizzz .... The last day of the seniors for contributing to the Nutzcrew under school , and the juniors shed tears for the seniors . I , as a senior , felt so touched that Everyone shed tears too ! Including Abg Jamyl , HOWS THAT ?! Hhahahhaa !! Well , for now , its just the matter of time .

Tmr and Wednesday gonna be intensive malay paper . Its like a mock exams . After that head to workshop for Design and Technology . Probably till 6pm ! Haizzz ... But , NO SCHOOL FOR THURSDAY AND FRIDAY ! :D Thursday is the meet-the-parent session for Sec 1,2 and 3 . And Friday is Vesak Day . Yeayyyyyy !!! This is what Ive been wanting to hear for ! HEH ! But what I dont wanna hear is that , the reality is , I have to come back on Saturday because on next Monday is already the actual O level Malay paper . Ouchhhh !! Its hurt .

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