Im thankful and glad that I live with a beautifully wonderful people around me . Each and everyone of them who entered my life , really meant alot to me . I believe that everyone have their own low and high points . That is why I cant afford to lose anyone of them . Really meant alot to me . Maybe you've hurt me before but sooner or later , I will still forgive you no matter what ! Im a forgive-able person :) But sometimes I need time to think through what has happened .

I am who I am . If possible , I want to take care of everyone's feeling from getting hurt . But sometimes , I am the one who is being hurt . Honestly , Im a weak girl . I need lots of advices when Im down , when Im sad . You may see me so strong so cheerful and outgoing , but deep inside , its the other way round . Now , I really love everybody and there's no one in my life that I hate now . Maybe sometimes I said that I hate you but you know Im just playing . Its not true obviously !

I would like to thank my dear friend , Nadyra Miskiran , for always been there for me , listen to my stories , giving me advices , make me smile and basically its you who really understand my situations all the time . Eventhough sometimes you get irritated by me when I smack your butt in public , I tap your breast and everything . Hehehe ! But well , you did that back to me though . Even harder you see !! But I dont mad . Cause I know deep inside , you love me , and I love you . HAHAHHAAHAA :D But really I thank you alot . You may see that I didnt care about you , but actually I do . Ouhkay I sound lesbian so , lets stop . But this not lesbian to me . Its how I express my love to you :) Anyways , dont worry much about your cat . I know how deep your love is towards animals especially cats but trust me , he will come back soon . Eventhough you know that Im scared of animals especially cats , from now , I'll try to love and not scared towards them . And if its meant for you , then Allah will show him the right path home ouhkay . He will definitely be home :)

To Atyra , thanks alot ! I dont know how to thank you . Cause your words really , goes down to my body . Without you , I dont think Im alright now . Thanks alot dear ! You're precious . Really appreciate everything that you've done to my life from the start . Eventhough some are bad things , but I do appreciate it too . Cause from the bad things that now make me learn , experience and know what life is all about . Thank you babe !

Lastly to Nutzcrew . Each and everyone of you , its just undescribe-able . So precious to me . Too precious that I really wanna hug every single one of you . To my cuties juniors FRESHES NUTZ , you guys rock the stage in the competition that held in Jurong Point last week . I watched through videos and I was so impressed ! You guys improved alot , within a year ! You guys bring the Nutzcrew name . Please keep it that way , or be better . Always remember what our senior Freekzy Nutz said , 'PRACTICE DO NOT MAKE PERFECT . IT MAKE US BETTER AND BETTER .' I will meet you guys soon after my prelims exams is done . And to my respected seniors , FREEKZY NUTZ , really all the best for WORLD HIPHOP CHAMPIONSHIP in Las Vegas . I know you guys can do it . I know you guys have been practising so hardcore ! Till there's no time for Alif to teach me Chemistry . I understand . I dont wanna stress Alif up . Now , each and everyone of us have something to do . The Lil Nutz and Funky Nutz is busy with 'O' and 'N' levels . The juniors Groovy Nutz , Phat Nutz and Freshes Nutz is busy practising for upcoming shows and competitions and Freekzy Nutz is the busiest one , have to compete in Las Vegas . And its also seems that Abg Jamyl will have a hard time handling the Nutzcrew . But Im sure everything will turn just fine . And Im aware that some of the Nutzcrew is dancing with other dancers . I guess its totally fine . Its good to have experiences from other crews .
NUTZCREW , always remember this .
FLY HIGH LIKE A KITE , STRING ATTACHED TO THE GROUND !

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alright i must sleep right now ! but i wanna post a quick one . Im addicted to Miley Cyrus - When I Look At You . Its so meaningful ..
Ouhkay school already open . Pheewwss .. No more holidays . Now more work and much more hardwork should put on . 'O'levels is lyke 3months plus from now . And this week is my prelims . I hate it , but got no choice . Never say Never .. HAHAHHA !! Been going to Pioneer Mall Macd with Akit , Jason , Nadyra and Hong Hui to have our revision . And I always saw Fadh 3OT there . Like everyday . HAHAHHA !!! Now i dont miss him anymore since its lyke everyday we see each other :)
Ouhkay till here , bye !

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PORTUGAL VS BRAZIL at 10pm till 12am . Its really a tough match . I love both . But i want Portugal since Brazil already been the champion . But , the score is 0-0 . Great played , great player (ofcourse) . HEHEHE !!! Christiano Ronaldo really , pheewwss ! So awesome ! SO FREAKIN HOTT !! I just cant take it . He smiled and will forever smiling . Sweet right . And see how he handle the ball . So perfect , so hardcore ! He slide and jump many times . I likee :)


SPAIN VS CHILE at 2.30am till 4.30am . Ofcourse I support Spain ! Did well !! 2-0 . Congratulations Spain . David Villa was the hero . Love him so much ! Well , David Villa . Will see you around , in television :)
Awesome player <3

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KARATE KID is FREAKIN AWESOME .
You guys should watch it .
Its A MUSTT !! :)
Jaden Smith is , really awesome plus cute .
Jackie Chan , kinda attitude .
HAHAHHAHAH !! :D
5 STAR FOR THAT ! <3

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Its been 3 days of sleepless night for me . Many things that going around in my mind . Now , Im feeling super tired ! Very very tired !! But I made a promise to myself tonight , Im gonna sleep pretty soon . I cant be like this . I must not be stupid ! This is life . Have to accept the fact the reality . So here I am . I will smile through out my life . No more tears . Lets stop everything :)

Hmmm , next week , school reopens . No more holidays . I think after this week , its all work work and more hard work ! No more slacks . I hope Im strong to always be motivated towards studies . One of the thing that Im thinking always is my studies . This year is a crucial year for me . Im scared . I want it to end fast . But I dont want to flung it . I have to start studying . What I mean by that is , I MUST GIVE 100% ! But I cant :( But I will try my very best . Atleast , the very least , I wanna do my very best ! And when July comes , it left me with 3months to 'O' level . Im scared . Seriously Im scared ! But when I wanna study , I feel tired . Thats the problem with me now ! But what I know is , I dont wanna think anything for now . I just wanna think about my examinations , and after its over , I will be back to my ownself .

I would like to wish my daddy a HAPPY FATHER'S DAY and also HAPPY 55TH BIRTHDAY :) Its his birthday on the 21st June . Same as Nadyra Miskiran :) So happy birthday ! So Nadyra's birthday , me , Jason and Akit planned . Went to Geylang at City Plaza at Arnolds :) Me and Jason went to Geylang first and set everything . Its a surprise . I think I hurt Nadyra's feeling . Cause I said to her that I wont be celebrating her birthday cause I have no mood to celebrate it . She just nodded . But then I feel bad , but I know she'll be happy soon later :) Not forgetting , I would like to thank my dear friend , Jason Lam . For feeding me with lots of foods and all ! Went to his house before going to Geylang . Watched lots of dance videos . And , umm I cant describe cause that time I was totally down and when he did that to me , I felt relieved . I felt that , atleast there's still someone who cared for my feelings and he treated me like princess that day . Thank you Jason Lam !

Now I miss Nutzcrew . I have choreograph a song . Not have but on the process :)Loves it ! Ive teached Nadyra and Jason the first part of the choreography and it seems like they loves it . Im happy :) I choreo-ed that song at MRT , imagine that ! HAHAHHA !! But only like 2counts of eight of it . The rest its all at the random places when Im feeling that song . Its 'Turnin Me On by Keri Hilson ft Lil'Wayne' . I will find a time to teach my juniors . Let them have a taste of my style :) Its not done yet but its lyke halfly , three quarterly done . I hope its done by this weekend . This is my second choreography . I just playing it slow . Im learning . And atleast Im not lost in touch with dance tho . After exams , dance will be my first priority !! :D

Ouhkay Im going to sleep now . My eyes hurt . Its like heavy . Im tired . I just cant take it . Before that , I would like to apologise to everyone , to anyone , if I have hurt your feelings purposely or accidentally . Im sorry . And not forgetting , Khalis . I know Ive hurt you for so many times . Im sorry . Im not that bad to say goodbye just like that . Im sorry if I hurt you . We wont fight anymore . And , HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY KHALS !

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Many people going around asking me why I keep on rejecting guys that come . Am I too choosy ? Am I expecting more and stuffs . I'll state it here then . I am not choosy and I think I know whats best for myself . Cause afterall I am the one living my life with him right ? So yeahh .. I do not want to play with their feelings by saying ' I LOVE YOU TOO ' but actually my heart and my love is for someone else . In love , I wont fake . In love , I wont play . I think its a serious matter . And the reason why I do not accept some love that comes cause Im loving someone else . Simple . And oh , I appreciate those loves that comes to me but Im sorry that I cant respond to those cause , there's someone that I really love deep inside . I know its kinda unfair to you who really loves me truly than the guy that Im loving in . Cause actually , I dont even know if that guy loves me back . Maybe its my fault for not telling but I still love him . Dont blame me people cause Ive tried to move on but I failed . Ive tried so many ways but I still the way I am . My heart dont change . Please understand me for a moment . Dont be mad at me . Like Ive said to those loves that comes , Love Cant Be Force . So I need your understanding . Please dont be disappointed cause I think there's many girls more outside who is much more better than myself . I know Ive hurt so many guys there . But atleast I said the truth before anything happen between us . But I wanna make it clear here that , when I rejected you , it doesnt mean that youre bad or you have lower qualities than the guy that Im loving in . No definitely NO ! Some of you guys are way better than him but I think the love just blindfold me . I dont think anyone here understand what I actually felt . Its ouhkay . Atleast Ive state here and make it clear of whats the reason behind my attitude towards the loves that comes around me . So remember that Im not choosy . Its just love . If you meet yours one day , then you will understand what Im trying to say here . Take care everyone .

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North Vista Secondary School was awesome ! :) I love their dance studio and the dancers were great too but , they are abit soft as in they are quiet . Jason had the class and he was abit disappointed for not making the class hyper but abg Jamyl cheered him by saying that the dancers here are all quiet . And ofcourse i enjoyed Jason's choreography :) More lyrical , kinda new style . Loving it ! <3 And abg Jamyl asked me to have the class tmr together with Ameer . I have to teach my choreography but I think Im not ready to teach yet . Its gonna be horrible I guess ! Im not a good teacher .. Hahahahha !! I give it a pass . So Ameer gonna teach alone tmr . Now Im working with my new choreography . I hope it turns well and Im gonna pass it to my juniors soon :) After the class , we went to ICA Building to meet Alif then we headed to Beach Road to have our lunch . Then after that Jason , Nadyra , Alif and I went to go somewhere else whereas abg Jamyl went home alone since he's tired and have something on later . So Alif bring us to a 'aircon place' and we waited for Fauzi there . Its at Dhoby Ghaut's Mrt station . Hmmmpphh !! We watched so many dance videos thru Alif's laptop . Then we camhore :D We laugh so loud during the camwhoring ! Its Fauzi !!! and Aliff !! You know when Fauzi meet anyone , he'll turn crazy !! HAHAHHAHA !!! After that we head to MacD since Fauzi is hungry . Then we walked till Scape and then we go to our separate ways . Alif and Fauzi went to Cineleisure since they will have class with Zaihar later . And Jason , Nadyra and I went to sit and have our drinks and talk nonsence and so , we laughed again ! It was a great day !! Im lazy to elaborate more . And I wanna go to North Vista's prac again together with Jason and Nadyra :) But school will reopen soon :(
And not forgetting we have recorded the choreo . If it is uploaded on fb , you guys can watch it and laugh as loud as you want . Cuz I laughed when I watch it . HAH ! :D
Last but not least , I miss those people up there in that photo ! <3

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HOW SPAIN CAN LOSE ??!! ALAMAK KECOH UH !!! I was lyke keep on jumping on my bed when they were given another 5mins extra times . Cause I thought that Spain will appreciate that 5mins , but Spain disappoint me . Hmmmmm :( Im disappointed with Torres and David Villa especially . Torres missed lots of chances and opportunity ! He was too kanchong laa . Haizzz ...... Ouhkay Im too disappointed and I dont wanna talk about it again . Cut it !!

Alright Im still awake and now its lyke 6am ! I have no choice . I must not sleep . Cause tmr Im going North Vista Secondary School to dance :) For practice actually together with Jason and Nadyra . Its Abg Jamyl's class . So yeahhh . But its freakin far ! From Jurong West to North Vista . Pheewss ! I think I will be asleep in taxi later . And worst , have to meet under Jamyl's block at 8am ! And Im meeting Jason around 7.45am !! Im gonna bath soon . Hmmmmmphh ! So early !!

Now , its too complicated . What must I do now ? Or next ? Im confused . Im sad Im hurt ! No one understand . Ouhkay , I love this person . I cant move on . Ive tried so hard but I really cant . Sometimes I regretted knowing him . I dont know that it stucked me till like this . But sometimes I tried to ignore too . I thought it helps , but no . Infact I miss him ! Im still keeping quiet cause I think its not the time yet . And I believe he's still 'PLAYFUL' . Actually I dont expect much from this person for now , I just need him to love me back , sincerely , thats all . I dont know , its too confusing for me .

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KYLE HANAGAMI KYLE HANAGAMI KYLE HANAGAMI !
I JUST CANT STOP WATCHING YOUR VIDEOS !
I KEEP ON PLAYING IT AND PLAYING IT ALL DAY AND NIGHT LONG !
YOU'RE A GREAT DANCER I'VE EVER SEEN !
YOU'RE A DOPE CHOREOGRAPHER THAT I'VE EVER KNOWN !
YOU INSPIRED ME ALOT !
EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO SEEMS RIGHT !
ALL OF THE MOVES YOU MAKE LOOKS NATURAL !
I WANT TO LEARN MORE FROM YOU !
BUT SADLY THE BOOKING FOR YOUR CLASS IS FULL ! :(
AND I HOPE THERE'LL BE ANOTHER CHANCE FOR ME !
I SEE YOU LIKE AS IF YOU DO NOT HAVE ANY FLAWS !
I HOPE YOU ENJOY YOURSELF IN MY COUNTRY , SINGAPORE !

YOU'RE MY IDOL !
AND IF I MEET YOU , THE FIRST THING I WOULD LIKE TO DO IS TO ,
SHAKE YOUR HAND :)

p/s : oh my gosh you wore red ! you know its my fav.colour Kyle ! HAHAHA !

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Heyyy readers ! First thing I would like to thank YOU , yes its YOU :) For coming to my blog . Thank you :D And now I really do not know what should I post about . But nowadays Ive been sleeping super late , talking on the phone with my girls . And Jason called me lesbian just because Im on the phone with a girl till 6am ! Hahahha !! Ape sajeeee ... Its doesnt mean that alright ! Im totally straight , pheewwss ... Was on the phone with Aqilah justnow morning from 12.30am till 6am ! O-M-G !! And thn join conference with Erlina and Faizah . Mampos kecoh ! And at 5am , me and Aqilah cooked prata with hotdog . Different situations but doing the same thing :) And for that , I woke up late at 1.45pm . And whats worst ???!!! I have to attend workshop at 1pm . Jason called me lots of times but I was having my beauty sleep :) Was so rush ! Reached workshop around 2.15pm . Haizzz ! Tiring ...
And tomorrow I have to attend workshop again for my artefact since the deadline is on 10th July , which left me with exact 1 month . Hopefully I clear it well . Pray for the best for me :) Ouhkay today Im gonna sleep early . If not Jason will keep on nagging at me . ' I called you so many times but you didnt pick up !',thats Jason . And tmr Ive asked him to call me (again) when he's awake and I promised him that I will pick up . HAHAHHAHA !! So I really have to sleep now . Goodnights :)But Before that ! TO ALL KYLE HANAGAMI'S FANS , HE'S IN SINGAPORE NOW !!! HE'LL BE TEACHING AT YMCA BUILDING BUT the booking is full :( Im so sad ... I wanna meet him , atleast take a photograph with him , but Im not so desperate . Cuz Im sure he'll be coming to Singapore again . And he got his new piece , Hey Ho - Kyle Hanagami . Love his choreos but its tough and kinda complicated . Check it out on youtube ! :)

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I MISS FAIZAH ZAMBRI ! Hahahaha !!! And it was fun talkin with her on the phone justnow .. it was nearly 6am now ! i think im gonna sleep soon . But i'll finish up with my post first . Its been awhile since me and faizah be together AS IN lyke really talk and have fun together . Last time , we were very close . But now , i dont know whats pulling us back . Maybe the schedule ? Or , ... i dont know .. We used to fight , but i think that fight make us more stronger and tightened our friendship . So yeahh , had a talk with her . From 1am till 5am ! Shitss ... Habis laa bill handphone aku .. HAHAHHA !!! But its ouhkay .. Skali sekale :) Since my brother is using the house phone ... And we really talk alot !! Topics by topics , it just cant stop , till we really feel sleepy .. We gossip alot siaaa !! I miss those gossips .. Sariiii ..... GAGGAGAGA !!! MAMA BEAR ... Well only both of us know :D And we keep on blaming others .. W_ _ .... HAHAHHA !!! And and , dont forget naik cable car ! HAHAHHAA mampos .. sembarang infos sia :P Ssssshhh ... :) What i wanna say is , we really miss each other . And we really had fun togther justnow . Take care laa minah .. Byeee !!

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Just get back from Malacca . It was great ! I've learn something that i dont think i would learn . Actually I was traumatise with motorcycle . Cuz back back then in 2008 , i had a minor accident at Malacca :( 3 passengers , and we all fall from that motorcycle ! Lucky it was just a minor bleed on my knee and toe . Thanks to my brother for not riding it carefully ! He thinks that his dad's road !! Speeding and change the gear when turning ! Nasib tak masok kolam siaa !! Since im 17 years old , and next year is 18 years old , and its legal for me to take lisence , i think i must not bring the trauma that i had all the way in my life . I have to change it . I have to be strong . I must look forward . So Ive tried . It was successful :)

I thought Im going New Zealand tmr , but then Malacca . HAHAHAHAHA ! Yeahh im going Malacca lyke in 2 hours time . And Im not asleep yet ! Haiiiiz i feel lyke not going but i wanna go :) I wanna eat my all time favourite , Nasi Lemak Kampong :) It was so nice so unique ! Shitt I feel lyke eating it now !!!
Hmm now im doing something . Im downloading some videos from youtube to psp . Know what .. my psp is not meant for games . It was meant to store those videos , i mean dance videos ! store pictures and songs :) But sadly , it was 4GB . I think i should grab the 8GB one ! Should store more and more and more things inside !
Arghhhh my head keep on thinking the Nasi Lemak ! Crazyyy !! It was 3AM now ! I think i should go to bed and sleep . And it left me with 2 hours to have my beauty sleep :( Goodnights or goodmorning :D

Had a dinner with family justnow . Not as a big family since my two big brothers didnt follow . So it was just my parents and i . And i feel like im the only child :) HAHAHHA ! Its quite boring cuz ive always jokes with my brothers especially the second brother . Yeahhh , we ate at West Coast Ayer Rajah . OMG !!! The mee kuah ! But the best mee kuah is at geylang . Woahhh , that was all out siaa !!
'Man mee kuah satu , makan . Buat pedas pedas , letak cili padi eh '.
HAHAHAH !! I was lyke macam faham want it to be so spicy . hehe ! But seriously I cant eat food that is not spicy . There's no feeling mannn ....
And so the Man said ... ouhkay pedas pedas eh , ni special punye wokay ?
Hahahah !! And when it arrived , woahhh !! So nice ! But my mom said it was spicy . Yeah it was so spicy but i love it ! Eventhough my eyes and nose and cheeks turned red , but i finished it :)
And now im totally full !

i did nothing today except watching videos on youtube . OMG ! The whole dayy !! HAHAHAHA !!! Youtube is funn nowadays <3 And i just know that its fun :) Im so tired now . I think i'll go . Take care readers :D

Its already 5am and Im still awake ! Shitts !!! I wanna sleep but I cant . The eyes just cant keep close and the ears just wanna hear those !!! Well Ive finished with the choreo . I hope I have time to teach Nadyra , and better still , to teach my juniors . But , I think I must do some corrections to some of it , and make it look more , you know ... hehe ! Its my first time ,so~
I miss dancing badly . Nutzcrew havin practices later . I so wanna come . Releasing my stress by dancing and badly wanna learn their new choreo - How Low by Ludacris !
But I doubt so if I can wake up tmr since its already like 5plus A.M now ... The only way is not to sleep till morning and start bathing . But , yeahh , idk . I hope my alarm clock and alarm phone is loud and noisy enough for me to wake up .
When I watched all those dance videos in youtube , I feel like wanna involve myself with shows and competitions like how I used to be . But now , life has changed . A great changed I must say . Ive not been dancing like a month !!! But sometimes I was in my own world , dancing when I was bathing ... dancing while I was waiting for my bus ... and all ! I just miss it so much that I cant even describe it ! I hope my normal life will come back real soon . I wanna graduate fast ! And go to college and courses that I really badly want !! Thats all for now . PEACE !!

Its 1st of June ! A new month , new fresh month ! Think should start all fresh ? Hmm , nono ! I dont want to . I love what Im doin now . But I think I should do some corrections in my life . A lot of it ! I hope june will turn up fine . I dont want to be like April ! April sucks !! Eventhough my birthday falls on april , but someone just ruined it without realising it . Its ouhkay , its over . Just paste it at some history books . Alright now's june ! Lets move forward ! Lets look forward !
Well Izzy's class is this friday ? I wanna turn up but I have my own explainations why I dont respond to the class . Alright I wish him all the best then !
Ggggrr !! Ive been sleeping late these few days and the next day when I wake up , the time is 2pm ! Or worst , 4pm ! Hows that ?? I think , I have to do something about it ! Pheewss !!!!