I have a friend . Her name is Nabilah . I always here beside her , Im the only person who knows how her life is . I was born with her . She was beside me . This means that I know everything about her from the first time she sees the world , and also the last time that she will live in this world . She always share her stories with me . And I really pity her upon hearing all of her stories . I know how she feel , cause as her most closest friend , somehow I can feel how she really felt .

She met a guy and she thought it was really a guy . She fall for that guy but that guy didnt know about this . After a while , she realised that actually that guy is a gay . After some time , being close with that gay , she then admit to herself that , yes that guy is really a gay . But she cant help it . She really love him . I , as her good friend , I told her not to love that gay . But she insisted . I've told her that she'll be hurt soon after . But she ignored . She believe in Allah and she didnt ever forget to pray for that gay every night before she sleep .

Yes Ive been friends with Nabilah for 17years plus and she's a type of girl who will follow her heart , not words from other people . When she believe , she really do , eventhough sometimes what she believe , isnt true . Nabilah have been loving that gay for more than a year , close to 2years . This equal to how many nights she prayed for that gay . And again , I as her closest friend , I tried to advice her again . I said to her that sometimes we really have to let go of the person that we really love . Again , she ignored and she replied , saying that no one ever knows how deep the love is . She added , 'This is my first love . A person that I really love sincerely and Im willing for any sacrifices . Ella , you knew that Im single but there's someone in my heart and it has already stay there for more than a year . This equally means that Im just waiting , no relationship between us , I repeat just WAITING and by waiting it takes me more than a year . I've never ever in my life , waiting for a person , but this is my first time simply cause , I feel much more different in 'this world' of love . Well , after she said that , I just utter not a word . I dont understand the terms that she used ,'this world', but I really pity her . I always saw her crying every night after saying her prayers . I try to confront her but she'll walk away , but not too far from me .

But today , she come to me and gave me a letter that state this ,'Ella , thankyou for always been there for me . You know everything that happened to me . I should follow your advices in the very first place . As you know , Im really disappointed with that gay already . He's been too gay nowadays . Ive tried my best to help him but it seems like he ignore . Ive prayed for him from the beginning but it seems like ,.. I dont know Ella . Im really sad . At times , I hate him . This few weeks , Ive tried to move on , Ive tried to dislike him , Ive tried to do so many things just to get over him but its not working . I hate these ! Cause the feeling just cant go away ! I just hope that Allah will open up his mind , his thinking , his mindset to think deeply . I hope that Allah will realise him before its too late . I hope that Allah will open up his eyes to see everything clearly . And I'll always pray that Allah will guide him and protect him from everything . Ella , Im stucked .' I cried reading her letter . As her most closest friend , I really know how she really felt . This gonna be real hard for her to face it . I meet her and asked if she really wanna move on . She nodded . I asked her again why she wanted to move on . She replied , 'Its really hurtful inside'. After some time I asked her again , 'Do you still love that gay ?'. She continued , 'Yes.....' and she start crying and I cried too . Everybody can see her tears but not mine . Then she come nearer to me and wanted to hug me , but as the light flashes the whole atmosphere , Im gone ...
Nabilah is now still stucked with her surroundings ~~

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