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ELLA TAMS is BACK !

2010-11-18T02:01:00.000+08:00

HEY GUYS IM BACK !! OH MY GOSH ! IM SO EXCITED TO POST ON MY BLOG !! ITS BEEN A WHILE YOU KNOW !! YEAYYY !!! Hmmm , alot has happened , alot ! i just dont wish to state everything . LAZYY !!! Now this post just wanna let you guys know that im back . ELLA TAMARA IS BACK ! :)) Do meet me yeah people ? hehe !! Thats all for now :)

down mode

2010-09-16T18:29:00.000+08:00

Its been a long tim since I last post and I really miss blogging ! Sorry for not been updating cause im too busy with other stuffs .
My O level is like 1 month away .. and im freakin scared ! Please pray for the best for me .. Please give me motivations words so that i can stay strong till the last of the paper which is on 12 November . PLEASE !! Im just super scared for every single thing in my life . After my O level , i would want to enjoy lyke how i used to be . Every saturday went out with peeps to town and all over Singapore ! Goosshh !! So amazing ! :) And I think i wanna go for workshop or classes for dance in any genre .. I think i need those back again , since its been a long time since i dance . And im sure my body is so not gonna be like last time .. So guys , please wish me lucks for my O level .. I hope i'll get where i wanted to be ... hmmm !!

A Life Of A 'friendship'

2010-07-30T19:23:00.003+08:00

I have a friend . Her name is Nabilah . I always here beside her , Im the only person who knows how her life is . I was born with her . She was beside me . This means that I know everything about her from the first time she sees the world , and also the last time that she will live in this world . She always share her stories with me . And I really pity her upon hearing all of her stories . I know how she feel , cause as her most closest friend , somehow I can feel how she really felt .

She met a guy and she thought it was really a guy . She fall for that guy but that guy didnt know about this . After a while , she realised that actually that guy is a gay . After some time , being close with that gay , she then admit to herself that , yes that guy is really a gay . But she cant help it . She really love him . I , as her good friend , I told her not to love that gay . But she insisted . I've told her that she'll be hurt soon after . But she ignored . She believe in Allah and she didnt ever forget to pray for that gay every night before she sleep .

Yes Ive been friends with Nabilah for 17years plus and she's a type of girl who will follow her heart , not words from other people . When she believe , she really do , eventhough sometimes what she believe , isnt true . Nabilah have been loving that gay for more than a year , close to 2years . This equal to how many nights she prayed for that gay . And again , I as her closest friend , I tried to advice her again . I said to her that sometimes we really have to let go of the person that we really love . Again , she ignored and she replied , saying that no one ever knows how deep the love is . She added , 'This is my first love . A person that I really love sincerely and Im willing for any sacrifices . Ella , you knew that Im single but there's someone in my heart and it has already stay there for more than a year . This equally means that Im just waiting , no relationship between us , I repeat just WAITING and by waiting it takes me more than a year . I've never ever in my life , waiting for a person , but this is my first time simply cause , I feel much more different in 'this world' of love . Well , after she said that , I just utter not a word . I dont understand the terms that she used ,'this world', but I really pity her . I always saw her crying every night after saying her prayers . I try to confront her but she'll walk away , but not too far from me .

But today , she come to me and gave me a letter that state this ,'Ella , thankyou for always been there for me . You know everything that happened to me . I should follow your advices in the very first place . As you know , Im really disappointed with that gay already . He's been too gay nowadays . Ive tried my best to help him but it seems like he ignore . Ive prayed for him from the beginning but it seems like ,.. I dont know Ella . Im really sad . At times , I hate him . This few weeks , Ive tried to move on , Ive tried to dislike him , Ive tried to do so many things just to get over him but its not working . I hate these ! Cause the feeling just cant go away ! I just hope that Allah will open up his mind , his thinking , his mindset to think deeply . I hope that Allah will realise him before its too late . I hope that Allah will open up his eyes to see everything clearly . And I'll always pray that Allah will guide him and protect him from everything . Ella , Im stucked .' I cried reading her letter . As her most closest friend , I really know how she really felt . This gonna be real hard for her to face it . I meet her and asked if she really wanna move on . She nodded . I asked her again why she wanted to move on . She replied , 'Its really hurtful inside'. After some time I asked her again , 'Do you still love that gay ?'. She continued , 'Yes.....' and she start crying and I cried too . Everybody can see her tears but not mine . Then she come nearer to me and wanted to hug me , but as the light flashes the whole atmosphere , Im gone ...
Nabilah is now still stucked with her surroundings ~~

Surroundings

2010-07-29T20:43:00.000+08:00

Im so pressurized with everything . I have many things to think . I have many things to do . And I have many things to really think and do ! Gosshh !! Admit yourself that you readers actually do not understand what Im trying to state here . HAH ! Yeahh I know . Nowadays , Ive been too matured , I guess . And its killing me ! Cause too mature equals boring life ! But Im so stressful , this leads me to be quiet . And when Im stressful , sometimes I feel like talking to a person , that I love most . But no , it wont , exactly happen . Thats why Im glad and I appreciate the presence of Jason Lam . Who always be there for me , talking and sharing . The advices that he gave and all . Since he shared with me his stories , his life and need my advices , So I did the same . I shared with him mine and the advices he gave , somehow really effective . Should follow his advices . And he is the only guy who that I can talk to , share to , laugh to ,and everything . I feel comfortable with him . Wait I mean as friendship . You see , I have many other boys' friends and they are all really very important to me . We laugh , we crap jokes together , we play together and stuff . But with them , I cant share my personal stuff cause somehow it feels awkward . But its different to Jason . I can comfortably share and say everything about my personal stuffs . And a friend like him meant alot to me .

I would like to thank Nady Kiran , Akit Mansor and also not forgetting Izza Babyflizo , who really make a big impact to my life . With them I smile . With them Im frustrated . With them I laugh . With them I argued . Many things has happened and all sorrow moments is a good sign for us to learn from it and thats whats leads our friendship to a better one each day . You guys are like everything to me . A lighted splint that .... HAH ! Chemistry ter-include pulak !!

To my dearest boys' friends and girls' friends , somehow you guys have create some impact in my life . Dinie , Zaki , Huzaiyed , Rahim , Alif , Zaifuldin , Hafiz , Khadri , Luqman , Farhan , Firdaus , Shukor , Shawn , Fazrin , Noh , Einstein , Han hui , Shikin , Syafiqah , Shahidah , Syahirah , Faizah , Erlina , Amalia , Amalina , Rasyidah , GOSSSHHHH !! Those people who enter-ed my life , yes your name is on my list . Really ! You guys are awesome people . Great knowing you people , eventhough some may be a short period of time , but I still appreciate everything .

Ofcourse Nutzcrew is not forgotten . You guys are the most bunch of people who make me what I am today !

Shah's

2010-07-25T14:52:00.000+08:00

Alright firstly , I have a new boyfriend .
SHAH ISKANDAR :)
Hehehehe !!! *blush* No uhh but he's so charming and love the jawline ! Loving his sharp nose and the cappucino's skin colour . Love his sexy lips and most of the things in him ! Hahs ouhkays , this crap !

Alright I wanna wish my beloved seniors Freekzy Nutz all the best in the big thing that happening . Representing the Singapore . Nutzcrew love you ! The Nation love you ! :) All the best bros ! Alif balik Singapore makan kfc ... hehehe !
FLY HIGH LIKE A KITE , STRING ATTACHED TO THE GROUND

Nextly , Im becoming fatter and fatter !! HOW ?!! Siallaa .. Gonna work out real soon ! And diet is coming to my way . Shittss !! Ive increased by 1.5kg and this must not increase any further more ! Gotta work it !!

Sing for me

2010-07-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my listenin compre for Malay . And justnow was Racial Harmony Day . The whole class of mine (5A2) wore our tradisional clothes . It was nice ! Snap here snap there ! And my school have visitors from Indonesian's school , Cakra Buana , since the last 10 days . The pictures is too small for me too upload it here :( But I tell you , the guys were quite hot . Some of it not all . And one of the Indonesian guy , the name is Diergo , and I cant forget his voice , singing . Seriously it was damn Im melting . So sweet so soft so gentle like the smooth cool waves . LOVES IT ! Well I hope they will have their safe journey back to their country .

Nowadays , I feel like vomiting but actually Im not vomit . I just keep on 'bluekk bluekk' but didnt vomit . This is so irritating . I dont know whats the cause . Well dont say that Im pregnant cause absolutely NO DICKS enter before ! So stop saying ! I think Im on the way to sick , thats why . Arrghh really very painful !

Listen with heart and soul

2010-07-19T23:23:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow Im goin to sit for my O Level Listening Compre Examinations (Malay) . If you guys wanna hear it with me , channel your radio station to RIA , 89.7 FM . Ouhkay Im kinda scared . Scared for everything ! So please pray for the best for me . Its gonna be at 4pm . I just hope I can do it with truly love . I just need to cool down myself and just do my very best . Seriously im scared of this examinations ! Im doubting if I can do very well in this O level but I just try my very best .....
How I wish the listenin compre is all about music and no talkings ! Pheewwss ~ Alright tomorrow gonna be a long day ahead for me . Anyways , I cant wait for floorball , yeahh !! My team been winning , HOORAYY !!!
SPORTS SO AMAZING !! <3

Outta My Mind

2010-07-14T17:48:00.000+08:00

Currently at Pioneer's MacD now and soon gonna head to Aqilah's house as we need to do something . No dont get me wrong ! Hehs !! We have to complete our Social Studies assignment by tmr or else we're gonna be dead :( There's no school today , HOORAY !! :D Students should do their own revisions and access the net to do assignments that teacher sent through the portal . Freakin tired , yes ! But just do laa , to avoid getting scolded ! Im sick of getting scolded . It left me with 3 months in that school before I graduate , Insya-Allah . And I really try to be a good girl in school in this 3 months , before I sit for my O level . But actually , I think Im already a good girl , everyone is . Just that sometimes we get possession easily . HAHAHAH !!

Alright Im off now . I miss everyone . I miss each and everyone . I miss every single one of you . If one day I happen to be hospitalised or meet an accident or any bad happen to me , please dont forget me guys .

Loves ,
Ella Tamara Bleszynski

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, build the places I can't reach

Many Things

2010-07-12T01:48:00.001+08:00

Alright its 1:33am now and Im not asleep yet . I cant sleep cause I wanna watch who's the winner for the World Cup 2010 . You see Im so enthusiastic with this match cause my favourite is there , SPAIN :) Yupp hopefully Spain grab the World Cup . And you see , Ive been thinking lots of stuffs nowadays . Many things inside me , that only certain people knows . Im too stresed with my surroundings . Especially , O level is nearer and nearer and I became more scared and really very scared . I hope I achieve my aims . I really want to but its just the amount of work that I must put into . Yes , one of the thing that I keep on thinking is my O level examinations , that will begin on 21st October . You may seems that it is still far far away , but to those candidates , like me , whose gonna take this exams , will feel , its very fcuking near ! I just wanna do my best shot . Simple say , I wanna make my parents happy , thats all .
I would like to thank those whose always been there for me . Giving me advices , motivations and all . Without you guys , Im not that strong to face these challenges . Thank you guys !

And update about me ? No , no update actually . No dance performances or competitions :( No nothing :( But wait ! You'll get more updates about me when Im done with my last paper , which is on 12 November 2010 :) For now , I just stay very very low and do things that I really need to do . And , for now , Im not online-ing always . Umm , maybe everyday but from 10pm-11pm , yeahh . But for facebook , I cant say since it still can be updated through mobile phones , so yeahh .. Hehs ! Well , Ive make my own time-table . Hopefully it works . HAHAHHAA !! But I know it wont last long for goodness sake , cause I think I know myself :)

Moving on ... hopefully !

2010-07-06T01:26:00.004+08:00

FREAKIN TIRED !!! And am not sleepin yet . Arghh nowadays have been sleepin late . Yes Im sleepy but I cant sleep ! I dont know whats the cause . Its 6th July . WHAT?? 6th ?? Hmmmmm .... Dont know , f*ck it :D Ouhyeah its 1.10am now and so its already Tuesday ! Gonna be my last paper later , Combined Science . I know Im gonna screw it up , cause I didnt study for it . I just feel like sleepin when it comes to Science . Not interested at all . But have no choice , as its one of the important subjects though . Alright ! Hmm ouhyeah tmr Im gonna teach me choreography to my juniors , Nutzcrew ! And ofcourse seniors are allowed too :) Everyone of the Nutzcrew , yes ! I so cant wait for that !!

Alright , have to say this . I miss Khalis Ihsan ? Yes ? No ? Yes ? I dont know ... Hmmm ..... Yes I miss him :) Its been awhile . He's always been treating me good , but Im always the troublesome one . I know laa Khals . Dont have to say .. And we had a great talk on the phone last night . But I dont know why we argue so much ! About everything . Ouhkay he praised Nutzcrew so much , so I praised SleekBeatz and Fhunkie Stylerz much much more . Hahahhaa !! ADNAN SEMPIT !!!! And , well he asked me to sing the song that I recommended to him , but then I dont know it turned out to be what . Laughing and argueing . Hmmpph pheewss !! But it was a great chat together . Im just so sad about something . Something personal , that we've been through , that hurts him deep . Im aware of that Khals . But it takes time for me to think . Thank you for always understand me . When Im mad and throw all those words to you , you still handle me with patience . I know . I see everything . Anyways , I wish you all the best in whatever you do now . I hope whatever you do , makes you feel happy and satisfy . Anything , you know you can beep me anytime ...

Gravity

2010-06-30T23:56:00.002+08:00

Im thankful and glad that I live with a beautifully wonderful people around me . Each and everyone of them who entered my life , really meant alot to me . I believe that everyone have their own low and high points . That is why I cant afford to lose anyone of them . Really meant alot to me . Maybe you've hurt me before but sooner or later , I will still forgive you no matter what ! Im a forgive-able person :) But sometimes I need time to think through what has happened .

I am who I am . If possible , I want to take care of everyone's feeling from getting hurt . But sometimes , I am the one who is being hurt . Honestly , Im a weak girl . I need lots of advices when Im down , when Im sad . You may see me so strong so cheerful and outgoing , but deep inside , its the other way round . Now , I really love everybody and there's no one in my life that I hate now . Maybe sometimes I said that I hate you but you know Im just playing . Its not true obviously !

I would like to thank my dear friend , Nadyra Miskiran , for always been there for me , listen to my stories , giving me advices , make me smile and basically its you who really understand my situations all the time . Eventhough sometimes you get irritated by me when I smack your butt in public , I tap your breast and everything . Hehehe ! But well , you did that back to me though . Even harder you see !! But I dont mad . Cause I know deep inside , you love me , and I love you . HAHAHHAAHAA :D But really I thank you alot . You may see that I didnt care about you , but actually I do . Ouhkay I sound lesbian so , lets stop . But this not lesbian to me . Its how I express my love to you :) Anyways , dont worry much about your cat . I know how deep your love is towards animals especially cats but trust me , he will come back soon . Eventhough you know that Im scared of animals especially cats , from now , I'll try to love and not scared towards them . And if its meant for you , then Allah will show him the right path home ouhkay . He will definitely be home :)

To Atyra , thanks alot ! I dont know how to thank you . Cause your words really , goes down to my body . Without you , I dont think Im alright now . Thanks alot dear ! You're precious . Really appreciate everything that you've done to my life from the start . Eventhough some are bad things , but I do appreciate it too . Cause from the bad things that now make me learn , experience and know what life is all about . Thank you babe !

Lastly to Nutzcrew . Each and everyone of you , its just undescribe-able . So precious to me . Too precious that I really wanna hug every single one of you . To my cuties juniors FRESHES NUTZ , you guys rock the stage in the competition that held in Jurong Point last week . I watched through videos and I was so impressed ! You guys improved alot , within a year ! You guys bring the Nutzcrew name . Please keep it that way , or be better . Always remember what our senior Freekzy Nutz said , 'PRACTICE DO NOT MAKE PERFECT . IT MAKE US BETTER AND BETTER .' I will meet you guys soon after my prelims exams is done . And to my respected seniors , FREEKZY NUTZ , really all the best for WORLD HIPHOP CHAMPIONSHIP in Las Vegas . I know you guys can do it . I know you guys have been practising so hardcore ! Till there's no time for Alif to teach me Chemistry . I understand . I dont wanna stress Alif up . Now , each and everyone of us have something to do . The Lil Nutz and Funky Nutz is busy with 'O' and 'N' levels . The juniors Groovy Nutz , Phat Nutz and Freshes Nutz is busy practising for upcoming shows and competitions and Freekzy Nutz is the busiest one , have to compete in Las Vegas . And its also seems that Abg Jamyl will have a hard time handling the Nutzcrew . But Im sure everything will turn just fine . And Im aware that some of the Nutzcrew is dancing with other dancers . I guess its totally fine . Its good to have experiences from other crews .
NUTZCREW , always remember this .
FLY HIGH LIKE A KITE , STRING ATTACHED TO THE GROUND !

Prelims !

2010-06-28T23:20:00.001+08:00

alright i must sleep right now ! but i wanna post a quick one . Im addicted to Miley Cyrus - When I Look At You . Its so meaningful ..
Ouhkay school already open . Pheewwss .. No more holidays . Now more work and much more hardwork should put on . 'O'levels is lyke 3months plus from now . And this week is my prelims . I hate it , but got no choice . Never say Never .. HAHAHHA !! Been going to Pioneer Mall Macd with Akit , Jason , Nadyra and Hong Hui to have our revision . And I always saw Fadh 3OT there . Like everyday . HAHAHHA !!! Now i dont miss him anymore since its lyke everyday we see each other :)
Ouhkay till here , bye !

Portugal or Brazil ? Spain VS Chile

2010-06-26T05:18:00.000+08:00

PORTUGAL VS BRAZIL at 10pm till 12am . Its really a tough match . I love both . But i want Portugal since Brazil already been the champion . But , the score is 0-0 . Great played , great player (ofcourse) . HEHEHE !!! Christiano Ronaldo really , pheewwss ! So awesome ! SO FREAKIN HOTT !! I just cant take it . He smiled and will forever smiling . Sweet right . And see how he handle the ball . So perfect , so hardcore ! He slide and jump many times . I likee :)

SPAIN VS CHILE at 2.30am till 4.30am . Ofcourse I support Spain ! Did well !! 2-0 . Congratulations Spain . David Villa was the hero . Love him so much ! Well , David Villa . Will see you around , in television :)
Awesome player <3

two thumbs up !

2010-06-24T20:43:00.000+08:00

KARATE KID is FREAKIN AWESOME .
You guys should watch it .
Its A MUSTT !! :)
Jaden Smith is , really awesome plus cute .
Jackie Chan , kinda attitude .
HAHAHHAHAH !! :D
5 STAR FOR THAT ! <3

alright

2010-06-24T03:18:00.002+08:00

Its been 3 days of sleepless night for me . Many things that going around in my mind . Now , Im feeling super tired ! Very very tired !! But I made a promise to myself tonight , Im gonna sleep pretty soon . I cant be like this . I must not be stupid ! This is life . Have to accept the fact the reality . So here I am . I will smile through out my life . No more tears . Lets stop everything :)

Hmmm , next week , school reopens . No more holidays . I think after this week , its all work work and more hard work ! No more slacks . I hope Im strong to always be motivated towards studies . One of the thing that Im thinking always is my studies . This year is a crucial year for me . Im scared . I want it to end fast . But I dont want to flung it . I have to start studying . What I mean by that is , I MUST GIVE 100% ! But I cant :( But I will try my very best . Atleast , the very least , I wanna do my very best ! And when July comes , it left me with 3months to 'O' level . Im scared . Seriously Im scared ! But when I wanna study , I feel tired . Thats the problem with me now ! But what I know is , I dont wanna think anything for now . I just wanna think about my examinations , and after its over , I will be back to my ownself .

I would like to wish my daddy a HAPPY FATHER'S DAY and also HAPPY 55TH BIRTHDAY :) Its his birthday on the 21st June . Same as Nadyra Miskiran :) So happy birthday ! So Nadyra's birthday , me , Jason and Akit planned . Went to Geylang at City Plaza at Arnolds :) Me and Jason went to Geylang first and set everything . Its a surprise . I think I hurt Nadyra's feeling . Cause I said to her that I wont be celebrating her birthday cause I have no mood to celebrate it . She just nodded . But then I feel bad , but I know she'll be happy soon later :) Not forgetting , I would like to thank my dear friend , Jason Lam . For feeding me with lots of foods and all ! Went to his house before going to Geylang . Watched lots of dance videos . And , umm I cant describe cause that time I was totally down and when he did that to me , I felt relieved . I felt that , atleast there's still someone who cared for my feelings and he treated me like princess that day . Thank you Jason Lam !

Now I miss Nutzcrew . I have choreograph a song . Not have but on the process :)Loves it ! Ive teached Nadyra and Jason the first part of the choreography and it seems like they loves it . Im happy :) I choreo-ed that song at MRT , imagine that ! HAHAHHA !! But only like 2counts of eight of it . The rest its all at the random places when Im feeling that song . Its 'Turnin Me On by Keri Hilson ft Lil'Wayne' . I will find a time to teach my juniors . Let them have a taste of my style :) Its not done yet but its lyke halfly , three quarterly done . I hope its done by this weekend . This is my second choreography . I just playing it slow . Im learning . And atleast Im not lost in touch with dance tho . After exams , dance will be my first priority !! :D

Ouhkay Im going to sleep now . My eyes hurt . Its like heavy . Im tired . I just cant take it . Before that , I would like to apologise to everyone , to anyone , if I have hurt your feelings purposely or accidentally . Im sorry . And not forgetting , Khalis . I know Ive hurt you for so many times . Im sorry . Im not that bad to say goodbye just like that . Im sorry if I hurt you . We wont fight anymore . And , HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY KHALS !

I'll state it

2010-06-20T02:28:00.000+08:00

Many people going around asking me why I keep on rejecting guys that come . Am I too choosy ? Am I expecting more and stuffs . I'll state it here then . I am not choosy and I think I know whats best for myself . Cause afterall I am the one living my life with him right ? So yeahh .. I do not want to play with their feelings by saying ' I LOVE YOU TOO ' but actually my heart and my love is for someone else . In love , I wont fake . In love , I wont play . I think its a serious matter . And the reason why I do not accept some love that comes cause Im loving someone else . Simple . And oh , I appreciate those loves that comes to me but Im sorry that I cant respond to those cause , there's someone that I really love deep inside . I know its kinda unfair to you who really loves me truly than the guy that Im loving in . Cause actually , I dont even know if that guy loves me back . Maybe its my fault for not telling but I still love him . Dont blame me people cause Ive tried to move on but I failed . Ive tried so many ways but I still the way I am . My heart dont change . Please understand me for a moment . Dont be mad at me . Like Ive said to those loves that comes , Love Cant Be Force . So I need your understanding . Please dont be disappointed cause I think there's many girls more outside who is much more better than myself . I know Ive hurt so many guys there . But atleast I said the truth before anything happen between us . But I wanna make it clear here that , when I rejected you , it doesnt mean that youre bad or you have lower qualities than the guy that Im loving in . No definitely NO ! Some of you guys are way better than him but I think the love just blindfold me . I dont think anyone here understand what I actually felt . Its ouhkay . Atleast Ive state here and make it clear of whats the reason behind my attitude towards the loves that comes around me . So remember that Im not choosy . Its just love . If you meet yours one day , then you will understand what Im trying to say here . Take care everyone .

Laughs

2010-06-17T22:52:00.004+08:00

North Vista Secondary School was awesome ! :) I love their dance studio and the dancers were great too but , they are abit soft as in they are quiet . Jason had the class and he was abit disappointed for not making the class hyper but abg Jamyl cheered him by saying that the dancers here are all quiet . And ofcourse i enjoyed Jason's choreography :) More lyrical , kinda new style . Loving it ! <3 And abg Jamyl asked me to have the class tmr together with Ameer . I have to teach my choreography but I think Im not ready to teach yet . Its gonna be horrible I guess ! Im not a good teacher .. Hahahahha !! I give it a pass . So Ameer gonna teach alone tmr . Now Im working with my new choreography . I hope it turns well and Im gonna pass it to my juniors soon :) After the class , we went to ICA Building to meet Alif then we headed to Beach Road to have our lunch . Then after that Jason , Nadyra , Alif and I went to go somewhere else whereas abg Jamyl went home alone since he's tired and have something on later . So Alif bring us to a 'aircon place' and we waited for Fauzi there . Its at Dhoby Ghaut's Mrt station . Hmmmpphh !! We watched so many dance videos thru Alif's laptop . Then we camhore :D We laugh so loud during the camwhoring ! Its Fauzi !!! and Aliff !! You know when Fauzi meet anyone , he'll turn crazy !! HAHAHHAHA !!! After that we head to MacD since Fauzi is hungry . Then we walked till Scape and then we go to our separate ways . Alif and Fauzi went to Cineleisure since they will have class with Zaihar later . And Jason , Nadyra and I went to sit and have our drinks and talk nonsence and so , we laughed again ! It was a great day !! Im lazy to elaborate more . And I wanna go to North Vista's prac again together with Jason and Nadyra :) But school will reopen soon :(
And not forgetting we have recorded the choreo . If it is uploaded on fb , you guys can watch it and laugh as loud as you want . Cuz I laughed when I watch it . HAH ! :D
Last but not least , I miss those people up there in that photo ! <3

Disappoint

2010-06-17T06:08:00.000+08:00

HOW SPAIN CAN LOSE ??!! ALAMAK KECOH UH !!! I was lyke keep on jumping on my bed when they were given another 5mins extra times . Cause I thought that Spain will appreciate that 5mins , but Spain disappoint me . Hmmmmm :( Im disappointed with Torres and David Villa especially . Torres missed lots of chances and opportunity ! He was too kanchong laa . Haizzz ...... Ouhkay Im too disappointed and I dont wanna talk about it again . Cut it !!

Alright Im still awake and now its lyke 6am ! I have no choice . I must not sleep . Cause tmr Im going North Vista Secondary School to dance :) For practice actually together with Jason and Nadyra . Its Abg Jamyl's class . So yeahhh . But its freakin far ! From Jurong West to North Vista . Pheewss ! I think I will be asleep in taxi later . And worst , have to meet under Jamyl's block at 8am ! And Im meeting Jason around 7.45am !! Im gonna bath soon . Hmmmmmphh ! So early !!

Now , its too complicated . What must I do now ? Or next ? Im confused . Im sad Im hurt ! No one understand . Ouhkay , I love this person . I cant move on . Ive tried so hard but I really cant . Sometimes I regretted knowing him . I dont know that it stucked me till like this . But sometimes I tried to ignore too . I thought it helps , but no . Infact I miss him ! Im still keeping quiet cause I think its not the time yet . And I believe he's still 'PLAYFUL' . Actually I dont expect much from this person for now , I just need him to love me back , sincerely , thats all . I dont know , its too confusing for me .

For My Idol Kyle Hanagami

2010-06-12T03:04:00.002+08:00

KYLE HANAGAMI KYLE HANAGAMI KYLE HANAGAMI !
I JUST CANT STOP WATCHING YOUR VIDEOS !
I KEEP ON PLAYING IT AND PLAYING IT ALL DAY AND NIGHT LONG !
YOU'RE A GREAT DANCER I'VE EVER SEEN !
YOU'RE A DOPE CHOREOGRAPHER THAT I'VE EVER KNOWN !
YOU INSPIRED ME ALOT !
EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO SEEMS RIGHT !
ALL OF THE MOVES YOU MAKE LOOKS NATURAL !
I WANT TO LEARN MORE FROM YOU !
BUT SADLY THE BOOKING FOR YOUR CLASS IS FULL ! :(
AND I HOPE THERE'LL BE ANOTHER CHANCE FOR ME !
I SEE YOU LIKE AS IF YOU DO NOT HAVE ANY FLAWS !
I HOPE YOU ENJOY YOURSELF IN MY COUNTRY , SINGAPORE !

YOU'RE MY IDOL !
AND IF I MEET YOU , THE FIRST THING I WOULD LIKE TO DO IS TO ,
SHAKE YOUR HAND :)

p/s : oh my gosh you wore red ! you know its my fav.colour Kyle ! HAHAHA !

Kyle Hanagami Is In Singapore !!

2010-06-10T22:30:00.001+08:00

Heyyy readers ! First thing I would like to thank YOU , yes its YOU :) For coming to my blog . Thank you :D And now I really do not know what should I post about . But nowadays Ive been sleeping super late , talking on the phone with my girls . And Jason called me lesbian just because Im on the phone with a girl till 6am ! Hahahha !! Ape sajeeee ... Its doesnt mean that alright ! Im totally straight , pheewwss ... Was on the phone with Aqilah justnow morning from 12.30am till 6am ! O-M-G !! And thn join conference with Erlina and Faizah . Mampos kecoh ! And at 5am , me and Aqilah cooked prata with hotdog . Different situations but doing the same thing :) And for that , I woke up late at 1.45pm . And whats worst ???!!! I have to attend workshop at 1pm . Jason called me lots of times but I was having my beauty sleep :) Was so rush ! Reached workshop around 2.15pm . Haizzz ! Tiring ...
And tomorrow I have to attend workshop again for my artefact since the deadline is on 10th July , which left me with exact 1 month . Hopefully I clear it well . Pray for the best for me :) Ouhkay today Im gonna sleep early . If not Jason will keep on nagging at me . ' I called you so many times but you didnt pick up !',thats Jason . And tmr Ive asked him to call me (again) when he's awake and I promised him that I will pick up . HAHAHHAHA !! So I really have to sleep now . Goodnights :)But Before that ! TO ALL KYLE HANAGAMI'S FANS , HE'S IN SINGAPORE NOW !!! HE'LL BE TEACHING AT YMCA BUILDING BUT the booking is full :( Im so sad ... I wanna meet him , atleast take a photograph with him , but Im not so desperate . Cuz Im sure he'll be coming to Singapore again . And he got his new piece , Hey Ho - Kyle Hanagami . Love his choreos but its tough and kinda complicated . Check it out on youtube ! :)

Lets Work It Till 5am !

2010-06-09T06:03:00.003+08:00

I MISS FAIZAH ZAMBRI ! Hahahaha !!! And it was fun talkin with her on the phone justnow .. it was nearly 6am now ! i think im gonna sleep soon . But i'll finish up with my post first . Its been awhile since me and faizah be together AS IN lyke really talk and have fun together . Last time , we were very close . But now , i dont know whats pulling us back . Maybe the schedule ? Or , ... i dont know .. We used to fight , but i think that fight make us more stronger and tightened our friendship . So yeahh , had a talk with her . From 1am till 5am ! Shitss ... Habis laa bill handphone aku .. HAHAHHA !!! But its ouhkay .. Skali sekale :) Since my brother is using the house phone ... And we really talk alot !! Topics by topics , it just cant stop , till we really feel sleepy .. We gossip alot siaaa !! I miss those gossips .. Sariiii ..... GAGGAGAGA !!! MAMA BEAR ... Well only both of us know :D And we keep on blaming others .. W_ _ .... HAHAHHA !!! And and , dont forget naik cable car ! HAHAHHAA mampos .. sembarang infos sia :P Ssssshhh ... :) What i wanna say is , we really miss each other . And we really had fun togther justnow . Take care laa minah .. Byeee !!

gear 1 and 3

2010-06-07T15:14:00.002+08:00

Just get back from Malacca . It was great ! I've learn something that i dont think i would learn . Actually I was traumatise with motorcycle . Cuz back back then in 2008 , i had a minor accident at Malacca :( 3 passengers , and we all fall from that motorcycle ! Lucky it was just a minor bleed on my knee and toe . Thanks to my brother for not riding it carefully ! He thinks that his dad's road !! Speeding and change the gear when turning ! Nasib tak masok kolam siaa !! Since im 17 years old , and next year is 18 years old , and its legal for me to take lisence , i think i must not bring the trauma that i had all the way in my life . I have to change it . I have to be strong . I must look forward . So Ive tried . It was successful :)

6 June 2010 which means ...

2010-06-06T03:14:00.000+08:00

I thought Im going New Zealand tmr , but then Malacca . HAHAHAHAHA ! Yeahh im going Malacca lyke in 2 hours time . And Im not asleep yet ! Haiiiiz i feel lyke not going but i wanna go :) I wanna eat my all time favourite , Nasi Lemak Kampong :) It was so nice so unique ! Shitt I feel lyke eating it now !!!
Hmm now im doing something . Im downloading some videos from youtube to psp . Know what .. my psp is not meant for games . It was meant to store those videos , i mean dance videos ! store pictures and songs :) But sadly , it was 4GB . I think i should grab the 8GB one ! Should store more and more and more things inside !
Arghhhh my head keep on thinking the Nasi Lemak ! Crazyyy !! It was 3AM now ! I think i should go to bed and sleep . And it left me with 2 hours to have my beauty sleep :( Goodnights or goodmorning :D

Spice Is Loved

2010-06-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

Had a dinner with family justnow . Not as a big family since my two big brothers didnt follow . So it was just my parents and i . And i feel like im the only child :) HAHAHHA ! Its quite boring cuz ive always jokes with my brothers especially the second brother . Yeahhh , we ate at West Coast Ayer Rajah . OMG !!! The mee kuah ! But the best mee kuah is at geylang . Woahhh , that was all out siaa !!
'Man mee kuah satu , makan . Buat pedas pedas , letak cili padi eh '.
HAHAHAH !! I was lyke macam faham want it to be so spicy . hehe ! But seriously I cant eat food that is not spicy . There's no feeling mannn ....
And so the Man said ... ouhkay pedas pedas eh , ni special punye wokay ?
Hahahah !! And when it arrived , woahhh !! So nice ! But my mom said it was spicy . Yeah it was so spicy but i love it ! Eventhough my eyes and nose and cheeks turned red , but i finished it :)
And now im totally full !

Another day

2010-06-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

i did nothing today except watching videos on youtube . OMG ! The whole dayy !! HAHAHAHA !!! Youtube is funn nowadays <3 And i just know that its fun :) Im so tired now . I think i'll go . Take care readers :D

Insomnia

2010-06-02T05:12:00.000+08:00

Its already 5am and Im still awake ! Shitts !!! I wanna sleep but I cant . The eyes just cant keep close and the ears just wanna hear those !!! Well Ive finished with the choreo . I hope I have time to teach Nadyra , and better still , to teach my juniors . But , I think I must do some corrections to some of it , and make it look more , you know ... hehe ! Its my first time ,so~
I miss dancing badly . Nutzcrew havin practices later . I so wanna come . Releasing my stress by dancing and badly wanna learn their new choreo - How Low by Ludacris !
But I doubt so if I can wake up tmr since its already like 5plus A.M now ... The only way is not to sleep till morning and start bathing . But , yeahh , idk . I hope my alarm clock and alarm phone is loud and noisy enough for me to wake up .
When I watched all those dance videos in youtube , I feel like wanna involve myself with shows and competitions like how I used to be . But now , life has changed . A great changed I must say . Ive not been dancing like a month !!! But sometimes I was in my own world , dancing when I was bathing ... dancing while I was waiting for my bus ... and all ! I just miss it so much that I cant even describe it ! I hope my normal life will come back real soon . I wanna graduate fast ! And go to college and courses that I really badly want !! Thats all for now . PEACE !!

Hello June !

2010-06-01T03:10:00.000+08:00

Its 1st of June ! A new month , new fresh month ! Think should start all fresh ? Hmm , nono ! I dont want to . I love what Im doin now . But I think I should do some corrections in my life . A lot of it ! I hope june will turn up fine . I dont want to be like April ! April sucks !! Eventhough my birthday falls on april , but someone just ruined it without realising it . Its ouhkay , its over . Just paste it at some history books . Alright now's june ! Lets move forward ! Lets look forward !
Well Izzy's class is this friday ? I wanna turn up but I have my own explainations why I dont respond to the class . Alright I wish him all the best then !
Ggggrr !! Ive been sleeping late these few days and the next day when I wake up , the time is 2pm ! Or worst , 4pm ! Hows that ?? I think , I have to do something about it ! Pheewss !!!!

Pray the Best For Me

2010-05-31T18:14:00.000+08:00

Alright its done ! Alhamdulillah .. Cuz i manage to finish everything , thank God ..
And i manage to do it .. except the prosedur close :( Very hard ! But well , I've did my very very best .. So i leave no regrets . Just wish me the best people ! Cuz i dont wanna retake it . One shot thats it , provided i hit my target ... If not , gonna retake it again then .....

Its in my hand

2010-05-30T15:05:00.000+08:00

Ouch tmr is my O LEVEL !! CRAZYYY !!! Today I have to all out !! No choice !!!! Hopefully I can do it , not only that ! Hope I can manage my time well !
0830 - 1030 : Paper 1
1115 - 1245 : Paper 2
WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE !
CUZ IM FCUKIN SCARED NOW !!

ATLAST !

2010-05-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

ALRIGHTTT !!! Went to Breathe competition at Plaza S'pore with Nadyra . Nutzcrew were already there . 4 NUTZ were sent , Nutzcrew , Groovy Nutz , Phat Nutz and Freshes Nutz . All did great i must say ! Congratz Nutzcrew and Freshes Nutz for clinching Champion and 2nd ! Well actually i was expecting more from the competitors , like dope dancers coming . But the open cat was kinda , just alright . Anyways , felt bored and so slack at the mrt area . Alif Aircho Artist and i was camwhoring :) LOVES IT ! after that arnd maghrib , me and nadyra make our way to town . Saw Abg Isaac ! and the rest .. blablabla lots lots more ! im lazy to update !

Kyle Hanagami

2010-05-29T04:40:00.001+08:00

OMG ! I cant sleep because of this guy above , KYLE HANAGAMI ! <3 He's so freakin hot and I love his moves . Each and every ! And whats more ?!! He's coming to Singapore this June at YMCA(dhoby ghaut) !! This is crazy ! But the sad part is the booking is full :( But he stated that there'll be another booking . I dont know . Im waiting for the updates on KYLE HANAGAMI's workshop . ProvideD the payment is to my budget . If not , Im gonna save up my money to turn up for his another classes ! He is rock and CRAZYYYY !!!!! And because of him , Im not sleeping right now cuz I wanna watch all his videos ! From 9pm till now , 4.39am (to be exact) , I keep on watching dance videos from different international dancers .. Nick Demoura , Gigi Torres , S**t Kingz , Shaun Evaristo , Lyle Beniga , Ellen Kim , Ian Eastwood and many many more . They are C.S.D to me . CRAZYYY !!! SICKK !!! DOPEE !!!

Watching You Fall

2010-05-27T23:16:00.001+08:00

Love , it's hurting me . I've never ever face these until I met you . I do not know what's love is after you came by . I've stopped seeing other guys since you're always by my side whenever I'm happy or down . And so , I thought you were the one , but as years passes , you hurt me real bad , deeply bad , until I just cant accept the reality and the fact that you've hurt me .
This song in my blog , is specially for you . You know I've been respecting all your decisions , the way you act and everything that you do . Even the thing that you wanna do is bad and I've already give you my advices , but you still didnt care much to all my advices , and that was the time that I still gave you my full support . Simply because seeing you happy will makes me happy too . But you're just plain didnt notice it . You ? It's difficult for me to forget about you but I have to since you're acting like ~@#$%! . You don't deserve me . It's hurt seeing you that way . It may be hard for me to face the reality that you're a *$%#@~ afterall , but I have no other choice . You're not responding to me back . You dont make a effort to improve yourself . I'm always the stupid one ...

I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy, I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that's a privilege
I had your back at the answers
You took the dollars
I took the chances
Defended, battled and fought
Cuz I really thought you loved me
I don't know where to start or where to stop
No, but I know I am done
I've had enough

So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You'll be sorry that I'm not around
I will watch you
While you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I'll be on the top just watching you fall

You said that you were the strong one
I was the girl
And I was the young one
I kept your feet on the ground
My head in the rounds I had you
You told me you were so grateful
I was with you
And I was so faithful
Stood by in all that you said
And all that you did
I loved you
I don't know how to act or what to say
But I know I am good
I'll be okay

And you fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You'll be sorry that I'm not around
I will watch you
While you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I'll be on the top just watching you fall
I'll be on the top just watching you fall

So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You'll be sorry that I'm not around
I will watch you
While you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I'll be on the top just watching you fall
I'll be on the top just watching you fall

New pair for me :)

2010-05-27T18:35:00.002+08:00

Just bought a new pair of shoe for myself . Im totally in love with it . Bought it at RUBI for only $29.95 ! It may be simple but its nice though :) I went to Jurong Point alone to get that shoe cuz mom coming home late from work . And then someone accompanied me coincidently , Suhailah . You know Im not that close with her but justnow was like hell ! I mean we talk like we already know each other for like sooooo long and yeahh , we talk shits ! But I love it . She even accompanied me for my lunch . Hehehe ! And guess what ??!! Her birthday falls the same as mine , 6 April :) How sweet ! Just that Im older than her by a year . We had a long talk at Burger King . Thank you Suhailah ! Now Ive know you better and you know me better . Hahaha ! I dont know that you're a great person to talk with ! This coincidence must happen everytime I guess :D
Anyways , all the best for O level Malay this Monday :)

ITS GICO'S DAY !

2010-05-27T01:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY DEAREST ! ITS YOUR DAY SO DO IT ! DO WHAT YOU WANT ! AND I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN EVERYTHING ! YOUR WISHES , MAY IT COME TRUE ONE DAY . I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST ! BASICALLY I MISS YOU AND I WANTS THE JOY AND THE LAUGHTER BACK THAT I HAD WITH YOU LAST TIME !! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU !
BABAGAY GICO FLORDELIZA <3

Whats up ?

2010-05-24T22:47:00.004+08:00

Pheews ! Am so tired ! Its Monday , its blues day . I dont know what going on with my life ! Its so bored ! 2010 is a critical year for me . You know , O level . I just wanna do it once and well . And after that , Im back to my hell life again , seriously ! Now , its all books and revisions and papers all around my room . And what worst , its intensive malay this week . Justnow , Tuesday and Wednesday . Argghhh ! I hope I achieve my aims for my malay exams and I dont have to take it anymore .
31st MAY 2010 .
Its a date that stuck in my head now . Because thats the day when Im going to sit for my O level Malay Paper . In the hall ,total silence , just the sound of the fans that can be hear . Shitts ! Its reminds me of last year when I sit for my N level . Its was scary ! Im going to face the same situation again . Now , its even scarier I bet ! Well , wish me luck people !

I miss dancing like seriously ! Nutzcrew <3 I really wanna dance back but I know my families , teachers and all will be disappointed because Ive promised them , something . Thats why you see , all the invitations that Ive been getting for any dance events , I rejected it . I dont want to do that but I have to . I wanna dance with Kak Sery , Kak Zeela and wanna turn up for the auditions but , yeah like Ive said , I really have no choice . My mom said , ' Lepas kau punye O level , joget laa sepuas-puas hati sampai kau bosan '. Thats my mom . What about my form-teacher last year , when he gave me my result for N level ,' You've meet the criteria for N level and you're promoted to sec 5 to do your O levels . But can you promise me something ? Not to dance for a meantime of next year(2010) after your O level is done '.
But well , Ella ,its just 5 months more and you're totally done . Now , I just have to focus one thing , studies . Always have to remember the people around me . Its ouhkay if Im the one facing difficulties but not to see them sad about my broken promises and my actions . Shitts ! Examinations is like always ! And Im so sick of it ! But I dont hold any power or authorities to make objections . I wish I can . But keep on wishing Ella . All the best to you . HAH !

I miss practising ! I miss the warming up and 50 jumping jacks each time we wanna start our practices . I love Nutzcrew ! The most lovable crew ever ! Our juniors especially ! Haiizzz .... The last day of the seniors for contributing to the Nutzcrew under school , and the juniors shed tears for the seniors . I , as a senior , felt so touched that Everyone shed tears too ! Including Abg Jamyl , HOWS THAT ?! Hhahahhaa !! Well , for now , its just the matter of time .

Tmr and Wednesday gonna be intensive malay paper . Its like a mock exams . After that head to workshop for Design and Technology . Probably till 6pm ! Haizzz ... But , NO SCHOOL FOR THURSDAY AND FRIDAY ! :D Thursday is the meet-the-parent session for Sec 1,2 and 3 . And Friday is Vesak Day . Yeayyyyyy !!! This is what Ive been wanting to hear for ! HEH ! But what I dont wanna hear is that , the reality is , I have to come back on Saturday because on next Monday is already the actual O level Malay paper . Ouchhhh !! Its hurt .

Desolation

2010-05-21T21:32:00.007+08:00

My new boyfriend : David Villa :)

Alright now Im packing up my things and Im going to Venice tmr morning . I know its so rushing but this is the only time I can release all my stress and everything . Im gonna let all out at there ! No worries , I'll be coming back soon .
Tmr is the day where Im going to have fun , fun , fun and just fun ! All the stress that I had , Im gonna throw it far away from me . But I know , the problem will be in me still . Same like those people who drinks beer . Maybe they are too stress and for that , beer is their choice . But those problems is still stick with them . Its just the moment of joy that these people who face difficulties need . For me , well I dont choose beer for my choice , obviously . But I choose Venice . So , let's go !

And I would like to apologies to my dear beloved Nutzcrew . I know Ive been busy with my personal stuffs that I never ever step into the danceroom eversince after the speech day performance . And plus Im not coming for tmr dance explosion . I know this may sound sucky . Especially to Abg Jamyl . Im sorry . I know this sorry may bring no meaning to majority of you guys but well ,atleast I apologies . I love you guys so much ! Its just the matter of time . I will be seeing you guys like soon !! I promise . I LOVE YOU GUYS ! NUTZCREW ITS WHERE I STARTED MY REAL LIFE !! I get to know more and more people of the national and international dancers . Dope dancers especially ! Nutzcrew , ALL THE VERY BEST FOR TMR DANCE EXPLOSION . I KNOW YOU GUYS WILL ROCK THE STAGE ! And to Aryll , TAKE CARE OF MY NUTZCREW SHIRT OUHKAY ! PLEASE WASH IT AFTER USE !! Make sure eh ! Hehehehe :)

Well guys , actually tmr Im going to Escape Theme Park and not Venice . HAHAHAHHAHA !!!!! :D Im going Escape Theme Park with my nephews . Their parents were working and they are too small and young to go by themselves . So my brother and I gonna bring them there tmr . Thats about it . Please , its not Venice . Its just one of the place where I wanted to go when I have my own stable job , a very extreme good salary , and blablablaaa ..... And the last rule is , I wanna go there with my future husband . And Im sure its not gonna be as early at this time . Its a long long long way to go or maybe , I never ever step in there . Hmmm ...
Alright tonight Im going to sleep at woodlands , my Uncle's house . Im so going to ride the 360degree inverter ! IM SURE WITH THAT RIDE , MY PROBLEMS WILL ALL GONE CUZ IM TOO GIDDY . HAHAHHAHA !!! Omg , Escape is so boring and yet Im acting this way , as if this is my first time going there . HAHAHAHA !! You guys may think Im crazy but I guess i react this way cuz this is the only way for me to release stress you see . And know what , its been 3 weeks Ive never step my feet to town ! Hows that ?! All because of my Design and Technology's portfolios . Pheewss . Sucked Big Time ! But Im still doing it whole-heartedly cuz I know this is where my future is . Its not a game . Its a serious thing . I hope I achieve what I want .

Im so sad deeply but I always try my very best to put a smile on my face to all of the people around me . It may be a fake smile , but thats the best for everyone . I want to make a shoutout that , I LOVE EVERYONE WHOM I KNOW AND PEOPLE WHO KNOWS ME . Thats all :)

And you , stop listening to others . You wanna know the truth from me , come look for me . Cuz I guess all this while you're getting and hearing a falsification informations . Thats all I can say . Thank you .

Terima Kasih atas sokongan anda .
hahahhahaha ........

Sighs

2010-05-20T16:54:00.003+08:00

I seriously do not know why everything must happened to me . We were friends at first and now , we're like strangers or maybe I should say holding grudges towards one another ? I don't know . But I want to make it clear to you , I don't hold any grudges towards you . Yes maybe at first I am super mad at you , and I know I hurt your feelings and worst , I break your heart into pieces . I am so sorry . I know you will not accept my apologies , but you have to know something that I treasure you and I do . I just need you to understand my situation at that time , that's all . I'm so straight forward as what you describe me . I know it's hurt you lots when I tell you the truth , but , I do not know what exactly I'm doing . Maybe I'm doing it all for the another person in my life . I really do not know how and what more can I say . And I know , you hate me now . It's obvious in my eyes . But it's ouhkay . Well I do not know if you gonna forgive me or not , but I hereby apologising the issue that we had that day .
Ella am sorry Khals .
And it's sincere .

And to you , I do not want you to think otherwise . I do not want you to have any bad impressions towards me . Guess you should have known me deep right . So , it still up to you to describe me how you want to describe me . It doesn't matter to me . But I want to make things clear , that I have no bad intentions and its all happened suddenly .

I just wish that I could tell everything to someone .
Everything to someone that I trust most .
Only God knows well .

hurts

2010-05-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

i really dont know .
everything was kept inside ,
for too long i guess .
that now its so hurt ...
maybe i should pass you my reddish diary ,
so you will know exactly ,
how i actually felt .
sighs ...

Love Full Of Question Marks

2010-05-12T00:56:00.003+08:00

Is a love a thing to live with ?
Can we survive without it ?
Maybe its true , Maybe its false .
Different people all , Have different thoughts .
Now what is love ?
Is it strong ?
Is it pain ?
Will it last long ?
Does it hurt to be in love ?
Will we get bless from the God's above ?
Is it tough to be together ?
Can we both be close forever ?
These are all the questions to be answer-ed ,
before i give my answer ......

Happy Birthday Bro

2010-05-05T23:56:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ABANG !
yeahh its my elder brother's birthday today .
mini celebration in the house :)
well ,
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO YOU BRO !
WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN EVERYTHING <3

arghh prelims exams starts tmr .
6/5 having english paper ,
7/5 having malay paper ,
and 10/5 having social studies paper .
and im so glad that the rest of the exams for other subjects
resume after june holidays ....
AND OMCM !!!!
O LEVEL MALAY PAPER IS ON 31ST MAY 2010 !!
wish me luck people :)
cuz im so freakin scared ~

tell me

2010-05-04T20:13:00.002+08:00

sometimes people hurt another person's feeling with their
actions without noticing it or realising it .

and i do admit that sometimes i hurt other people's feeling
without me realising it myself ....
please do tell me , i'll apologise and make you feel better the
next time round .

turns reality

2010-05-03T10:43:00.002+08:00

I just woke up ,
I dreamt about chocolate ,
I wear my bra and go down to buy chocolates ,
Without bathing .
OhMyChinaMan !
Ella Ella ......

For You ,

2010-05-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

Jangan pernah katakan bahwa cintamu hanyalah untukku
Karena kini kau telah membaginya
Maafkan jika memang kini harus kutinggalkan dirimu
Karena hatiku slalu kau lukai
Tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu
Ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yg kurasa

Ku menangis... membayangkan
Betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku
Kau duakan cinta ini
Kau pergi bersamanya

Ku menangis... melepaskan
Kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku
Harus slalu kau tahu
Akulah hati yg telah disakiti

Maafkan jika memang kini harus kutinggalkan dirimu
Karena hatiku slalu kau lukai
Tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu
Ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yg kurasa

Ku menangis... membayangkan
Betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku
Kau duakan cinta ini
Kau pergi bersamanya

Ku menangis... melepaskan
Kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku
Harus slalu kau tahu
Akulah hati yg telah kau sakiti

Ku menangis...
Harus slalu kau tahu
Akulah hati yang telah....
Kau sakiti...

CALL MY NAME AGAIN~

2010-04-27T17:35:00.002+08:00

chatted with my dearest friend ,
Muhammad Firdaus , yesterday night .
it was great cuz its been awhile since we share everythin !
i miss hym alot cuz he's the one who always cheer me up ,
shouted my name ELLLLLAAAAA !!! whenever i walked pass
his class last year .
and he asked me if theres another person that shouted
my name lyke he do .
i said no ... :(
Firdaus is still Firdaus :)
a guy who is always very lovable , caring ,
respect all girls and funny in a way :D
thats totally him !
i hope youre doing fine ,
with your mates and omg , travel from boonlay to simei !
all the best travelling every morning Fird ! ;)
and the message you text me yesterday night ,
im so touched :(
i wish you all the best in your life ahead !
MUCH MISSES !! <3
and i miss Dinie Ramli too :)
and Ayim Rahman three :)
and Alif Azman four :)
and Kamsari five :)
and Sue Irziana six :)
and Jiliah Jimahat seven
OH MY CHINA MAN !
basically all of my classmates last year !! :(

........ DO EXIST !

2010-04-26T22:02:00.004+08:00

I WILL BE STRONG ,
IN FACING ANY DIFFICULTIES ANY CHALLENGES AHEAD ME .
I WONT LET ANY OF MY TEARS FALL AGAIN ,
NEVER EVER AGAIN ! ( hopefully )
I MUST STOP THINKING ABOUT EVERYTHING ,
I MUST FOCUS ABOUT NOTHING ,
EXCEPT FOR MY STUDIES .
CUZ ONLY TODAY ,
I REALISED THAT ITS USELESS TO THINK ABOUT OTHERS ,
CARE ABOUT THEM , SHOW THEM SOME LOVE ,
BUT THEY DIDNT EVEN GIVE A FCUKIN CARE TO THEIR OWNSELF !
SO DISAPPOINTED , BUT THATS LIFE ELLA .
YOU MUST LEARN TO ACCEPT THINGS ALRIGHTS ?
JUST BE STRONG .
ELLA ,
NOW THAT YOU KNOW ABOUT IT ,
WILL YOU STILL WANTS TO GO BACK ON THE SAME OLD TRACK ?
WHERE ITS SO HURTFUL .
YOU CRIED NIGHT AND THEN .
TRYING TO FIND SOLUTIONS TO IT ,
BUT YOU FAIL TO DO IT EVERYTIME .
OR MOVE ON & CONTINUE WITH YOUR LIFE ?
CUZ YOU STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO ELLA .
YOU'VE TRIED YOUR VERY BEST ,
AND THATS THE BEST YOU CAN GO .
LEAVE NO REGRETS TO IT !
ITS TIME TO MOVE ON SERIOUSLY .
ITS HURT , BUT SOMETIMES PEOPLE DONT LOVE THEIR OWNSELF .
JUST HAVE TO ACCEPT THE FACT ELLA ,
THAT .... DO EXIST !

ROCK THE STAGE !

2010-04-24T00:52:00.000+08:00

WE DO IT WELL NUTZCREW !
FROM THE CROWD RESPONSES ,
WE REALLY ROCK THE STAGE .
AND I ENJOYED MYSELF WITH ALL OF YOU AROUND ME .
DANCING AND CHEERING AND ETC ...
AND WE HAD OUR FRIENDLY BATTLE JUST NOW ,
SENIORS VS JUNIORS .
IT WAS A GREAT BATTLE .
I REALLY CANT LEAVE YOU GUYS ,
BUT I HAVE TOO .
NO WORRIES .
I'LL BE COMING BACK IF I HAVE THE TIME AYTE .
PHAT NUTZ AND FRESHES NUTZ ,
YOU GUYS WILL STILL HAVE OUR SUPPORT .
IM GONNA MISS YOU GUYS .
AND ABG JAMYL TOO ,
WHO MAKES A BIG IMPACT TO MY LYFE .
ITS JUST SO HARD FOR ME TO GO JUST LYKE THAT :(
YOU GUYS ARE LYKE ME BROTHERS AND SISTERS .
WE FIGHT BUT WE'RE TOGETHER BACK AGAIN .
JUST LYKE ME AND DIN ,
ME AND FAIZAH ,
ME AND NISA ...
WE DIDNT HOLD ANY GRUDGES ..
LYKE THE MALAY SAID ,
AIR DICENCANG TIADA PUTUS
I LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE OF NUTZCREW !
MWAHHH !!!
IM GONNA HUG EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU ,
BOYS AND GIRLS ,
EVERYONE <3

ALWAYS IN MY MIND !

2010-04-23T12:15:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY ..
ITS CCA RECOGNATION DAY ,
AND TODAY IS SPEECH DAY !
SENIORS , STEPPING DOWN :(
LETS ROCK THE STAGE LATER NIGHT NUTZCREW !
AND LETS ENJOY OURSELVES ,
FOR THE LAST ONE ..
BUT I BELIEVE THIS NOT GONNA BE THE LAST ONE .
THE SENIORS WILL BE BACK AFTER WE'RE DONE WITH
OUR MAJOR EXAMINATIONS .
EVERY ONE HAS OUR PART TO DO .
LETS DO IT RIGHT ..
KEEP IT ALIVE NUTZCREW !!! <3
FREEKZY NUTZ <3
LIL NUTZ <3
FUNKY NUTZ <3
PHAT NUTZ <3
FRESHES NUTZ <3

save sex for marriage

2010-04-19T23:54:00.002+08:00

heyyy !!
i think i miss bloggin so much !
miss expressing my thoughts here .
basically ,
im so tight with my schedule for this whole week .
cuz the Nutzcrew is preparing for our Speech Day this friday .
im so loving our performances !
gonna be SURPRISES for the audience :)
hmm had our rehearsals justnow .
tiring but we enjoyed it as a crew !
thats the most important part :)
well anyways , school really tune me down .
as in studies .
im so stressed up !
i dont know how to describe :(
and im gonna be busy doing the recording and all ...
arghh !!
DANCE.RECORDING.ASPRO.FCGS.
OMCM !!! ( OH MY CHINA MAN )
and this havent includes homeworks , projects ,
my design & technology's journal and artefact !
ARRGGHHH !!!
ouhkay , i really wish i can put everything aside !
but i know all of it will come back to me sooner or later .
so i have no choice :(
and im sure , i have to say goodbye to my saturdays ald :(
im so sadd .....
saturdays no more equals to town :(
saturdays equals to WORK !!
haizzz ...
more responsible-lity as im growing older ..
and im happy that actually Firdaus and i have sort our things out ,
in a gentle and polite manner .
its lyke how we first started .
thank you :)

well , i wanna highlight this point .
SAVE SEX FOR MARRIAGE .
seriously , to my opinion ...
sex should be the ultimate expression of true love
between spouses and should not be treated lightly .
if some has casual sex frequently ,
then sex to this person has no meaning .
it is not something special in a marriage anymore .
so , save sex for marriage !
YOU only have to make a little effort in maintaining the
relationship within its boundaries .
THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY ..
PEACE .......!!!

HATING MY LYFE TO THE FULLEST :(

2010-04-13T21:23:00.000+08:00

shitttsssss !!
shittss going around me !
im just so fcuked up with it !!
April is really a bad month for me !
eventho my birthday falls on april ..
the beginnin of april is ald turnin really suckyy !
i just cant face it !
its lyke lotsa problems coming to me in one shot !
IN ONE SHOT !!
i just cant face it !
i have no more strength to handle it ...
i feel really down ..
really really down ......... :(
*cryin*
please , i'll prefer if you just go away .
away from me seriously .
you dont have to care for me anymore ,
even if one day i met with an accident ,
dont visit me ,
just go away , far away from me .. :(
im just so sad , very angry , really disappointed !
----------------------------------------
and im really pissed off ,
people with TWO FACES !
really !!!~
no words can describe you all .
TOO OVER !
i dont know ~
i have no strength to continue on ...
im really really am fcukin down .........
just wish that i can confront those people ,
but i have to listen to my respected elder-lyes ...
i just need NUTZCREW only , for now ...

NAPHA TEST ...

2010-04-08T21:32:00.001+08:00

my birthday's over :(
SO FASTTT !!!
but eventho its ald 2 days over ,
i still receive presents , thats so touched ......
and i received another 5 presents just now .
you guys are so sweet .. :)
thank you !

had my NAPHA TEST just now .
so tiring !
and morning had my 2.4km run ,
but its just a practice .
my timing was 13mins and how many seconds ..
IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF :)
i hope during the actual one ,
i continue this way or even better timing , hopefully ...
my 5 stations was fcuk ~
and because my birthday has just passed ,
i have to follow the 17 years old girl passing mark ..
pheewwss ~
only my standing broad jump and pull up was sucks ..
the another 3 was perfectly done , for the girl standard :)
INCLINED PULL UPS - 9 ( 2points )
SHUTTLE RUN - 11.1s ( 5points )
SIT UPS - 41 ( 5points )
STANDING BROAD JUMP - 161 ( 1points )
SIT & REACH - 54cm ( 5points )
total were 20 out of 25 points .
shitss i suck in inclined pull ups !
i think because there's blueblacks on my hand ,
thats why very pain you know :P
HEHEHE ! EXCUSES SIAA ELLA !!! :)
and my worst .. standin broad jump !
YEAYY ! TMR FRIDAY !!!
FINISH SCHOOL AT 12.30PM :)

IM 17 YEARS OLD

2010-04-06T23:59:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR SELF :D
OMCM !!!!!!!
enter to school and everyone were lyke ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ..
and all the thing i could say is ,
THANK YOU , THANK YOU AND THANK YOU !
cuz you know , sometymes you dont know how to react when
lotsa people keep on wishing you .
enter canteen , people shouting HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ELLA .
sing a song some more .
well , im speechless .
just a THANK YOU in my head that tyme :)
and all comments i received in facebook ,
messages , offlyne messages .. everything !
thank you so much guys for everything !
each and everyone of you guys meant something in my lyfe :)
AND I RECEIVED 3 CAKES IN A DAY !!
AND OFCOURSE ALL 3 I WISH FOR THE SAME THING ...
and ofcourse not forgetting NUTZCREW !
banyak laa korang nye abg Jamyl nak jumpe !
step pegy prime supermarket lagy !!!
OMCM !
i shall post it what happen-ed actually ..
after our Nutzcrew's meeting at around 2.30pm ,
Akit said lets go to kfc to eat ,
together with Faizah and Erlina ,
since there's no practice for us today .
SO I AGREED TO GO .
but the lame thing is why Nadyra never follow us ?
cuz she's always with us .
Nisa and Amalia too ..
but they said they wanna eat maggy , so i just ignored .
reached to KFC , only Erlina and Faizah's eating .
both me and Akit didnt , cuz ..
maybe its my birthday so , ........ hehe !
AND WE WERE LYKE WASTING TYME IN KFC TRUST ME !
at around 3.15pm , Akit said that Nadyra msg-ed her ,
and said that abg Jamyl wanna see all the girls at 5pm .
as usual , if its at 5pm , we must always report 15mins earlier .
I REMEMBER THAT !
but then Erlina said she wanna pass motion after eating kfc ,
so we waited her in kfc .
soon later , its ald 4.10pm ..
then Faizah said she wanna go PRIME SUPERMARKET .
and we were lyke wasting tyme in that prime !
looking at fish , 'worms' and all .
TAPY BELINYE TIDAK !
then went to sweet area ,.. idk what they're doing !
after that ,
we make our way to school as its ald lyke 4.35pm .
on our way , Akit said ,
lets sit at the pondok area .
but i said lets just go to school cuz im scared if abg Jamyl
gonna scold us ,
cuz its my birthday ... i dont wanna get any scoldings from anyone !
but they insist .
stupid me , i just sit with them , but keep on looking at the tyme .
THERE'S MOSQUITOS AROUND and very lame why they can tahan !
then its lyke 4.55pm ald , i knw we're freakin late ,
and i knw we're gonna get scolded by abg Jamyl :(
then Faizah wanna buy drink some more !!!
macam macam kerenah uh minah ny !
but i just keep my mouth shut cuz Akit said ,
if abg Jamyl scold us , just say her name ..
when we reach-ed school , some of our juniors said ,
'eyy faster2 ! abg jamyl bad mood ..'
i ran lyke its my NAPFA TEST siakk !
when i climbed the stairs , i was takin 2 steps ahead .
at 3rd floor ,
i saw abg Jamyl waiting for the 4 of us .
with his anger face .
then me , with flowers and leafs on my hair !
ouhkay i dont wanna state here how and what he said to us ,
cuz i sound stupid answering those questions .... :(
but after he scolded us ,
he said go inside and do 40 push ups .
I WAS ALL THE WAY TALKING TO MYSELF IN THE HEART !
bad words were non-stop ...
i saw Funkynutz and Freshesnutz were lyke practising .
Alif were teaching them and stuff ,
WITH LIGHTS OFF !!!
but then ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ......
i heard that song .
i know this gonna be all drama !
so , i didnt do my 40push ups since its all drama :)
abg Jamyl come and hugged me .
BUT I DONT CRY OUHKAY !
IM JUST TOUCHED , so dont say im crying can ...
the cake was cute !
*din.ella*
since yesterdae it was Din's birthday ,
so celebrate together with hym .
pictures pictures pictures !
havent upload yet , lazy !
but THANK YOU NUTZCREW !!
BUAT SUSAH SUSAH JE KORANG :P
then my tuitor gave me a small cake :)
thankyou ..
went home , another cake at around 11.15pm .
asked my brother to cook maggy for me :)
THANK YOU ALL !
AND IM LOVING THE BLUE-BLACKS ON MY BODY AND MY LEFT HAND <3

BIRTHDAY AGAIN

2010-04-05T20:34:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO MUHAMMAD SAFIUDIN !!!
hmm , baru NC16 laa bang :)
and yesterday you guys did super well !
CONGRATULATIONS !
love you guys and may all your wishes come true !
well , get ready for surprises from Nutzcrew tmr :)

alright !
wake up at 6pm justnow .......
and start bathing at 8pm ....
which means i just finished bathing :)
i know this sounds negative but im so tired !
yesterday was on the phone with Faizah till 4.40am .
arrgghh , tmr schoolin :(
homework not done !
and tmr is 6april right ?
geeeee :D
im so excited !!
but im afraid also .
cuz i know im gonna be dead when Nutzcrew meet me tmr :(
SCARY SURPRISES !
havent plus my school mates :'(
but nvm , its once in a year ! :D
LOOKING FORWARD FOR 6 APRIL :D
heeee !
OMCM !
now i realised alot of april babies siaaa !
loves it !

BIRTHDAYS

2010-04-04T00:20:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY FADLIE AHMAD .
ALL THE BEST , ENJOY AND TAKE CARE !
LOVE YA !

All The Best

2010-04-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

ALL THE BEST TO FREEKZY NUTZ AND FUNKY NUTZ !
for sbdc tmr ...
with all the hardwork ,
i believe you guys will rock the stage ayte .
dont worry too much !
LOVE MY NUTZCREW BOYS ! <3

NEW MONTH , NEW LIFE

2010-04-01T20:55:00.000+08:00

it is the 1st of April ,
a new fresh month ,
and i wanna make a new lyfe to myself .
i wanna stop thinking bout you ,
cuz its no point ald .
i know its hard for myself ,
since ive known you for so long ,
and been waiting for you lyke , pheewws ...
but i will try very hard not to bother you anymore .
its pointless when i always tell you your mistakes ,
but you're still the same .
it hurts me alot !
i wanna stop lovin you and i wanna learn how to hate you .
you must not blame me if it happen that one day ,
i hate you super much till i dont even give you a smile ,
cuz all the things i do reflects to your own actions .
i wanna start April as a positive way ,
but because of your actions ,
i have no choice .
i have to be strong !
it cant always be me to give in all the time .
i regretted knowing you sometymes .
but i know i'll be much more regret if ive never ever met you .
hmm i dont know .... :(
also , this new month ,
i want to focus more on my studies .
i will take a break for my dance .
i wanna get nearer to God , and ,
i wanna live in my own world !
thats all .
April just arrived ,
which means my birthday is getting nearer :)

BEST MOMENTS

2010-03-31T23:54:00.002+08:00

what should i post now .
im so hurtful that my mind cant work properly .
he hurt me , say sorry and go away ...
putting all the blame on me ?
hmm , guess so .
well , i just dont think i would care anymore .
have fun ! and all the best with whatever you're doing now ! :)
and i would lyke to thank my abg Jamyl <3
atleast , he brighten-ed up my day today .
went to his house to help hym with some 'decorations' in his room ,
together with Nadyra :)
then abg Jamyl decided to record our voice .
since the 'decorations' is done ,
so yeahh , recording tyme .
both of us were lyke laughing and laughing at first .
especially the high pitch ones .
but nevertheless ,
we did record our voices for the whole song .
eventho its kinda out of tune or whatever ,
and try to imagine , abg Jamyl order-ed for us macdonald meal ,
after eating our meal ,
then start to rap , pheewws !
we were lyke saying what we wanna say and ~
but , guess its lyke T-Pain female version :P
gagaggaagaa !!
we did enjoy-ed ourselves :D
tmr sports day !
yeayyy !!! no studying :)

to YOU ,

2010-03-28T03:12:00.002+08:00

i feel bad for myself .
i feel bad towards you .
i really understand how you feel on that moment ,
cuz from the words that you said to me ,
the way how you confessed to me ,
its really touches my heart .
'it was you the one i tried so hard to get your attention
and me being noticed by you '...
that sentence bothers me till today .
i try to ignored , but i feel bad at the same time .
im sorry to keep you waiting for so long .
and i know i took a long time to noticed you .
and i know how hurt are you , im sorry .
i dont mean to hurt you ,
but i dont know that im hurting you that period of tyme .
i know you're a emotional kind of person but ,
im truly sorry ~
hmmmm .....
lets just forget everything .
and i wish you all the best ...

exposure

2010-03-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

its the first time the Lil'Nutz competing in a open cat
in dancework and we were lyke kinda scared .
seeing the JC's , Poly's and ITE's people really scare us .
but nevertheless ,
we did our all out and we were enjoying ourself on the stage ,
try to get the crowd .
thanks for people who come down and support :)
eventho we didnt get any placing ,
atleast , we managed to clinch the high energy award .
and i think its a great exposure to compete with our olders ones .
cheer up Lil'Nutz !
and ofcourse not forgetting , Fhunkie Stylerz :)
CONGRATULATIONS FOR THE FINALS :D
after that head to Pastamania at cineleisure with Faizah , Nadyra and Akit.
after that , went to Marina Barrage to just release our stress ,
and just wants to feel love in the night :)
OMG the place is super nice at night !
the atmosphere ...... :)
the cooling and this is freakin sweet ,
THE BIG ROUND MOON AND THE STARS AND KITE FLYING AROUND !
how i wish ........
nah forget it !
me and Nadyra really keep on laughing our hearts out ,
and theres people who imitate our laughter .
but we just heck care cuz we come there to enjoy ,
not to find troubles :)
but really , i wanna go there again !
this saturday maybe :D

HIPPO CRUISE

2010-03-22T20:01:00.002+08:00

went for SBDC yesterdae .
all crew were awesome !
but the most that i love is the FANTASTIC CREW !
i was amazed by their theme .
and my eyes were lyke stucking at Wawan , HAHAA !
i mean in terms of his sharp moves , energy , face xpressions and etc .
he catches my attention throughout their routine .
LOVES IT :)
and other crew were amazing as well ! :D

and its difficult for me to open up my eyes this morning .
I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL :(
very tiring .
woke up at 6.30am :(
and just now after school had my sosial studies trip .
to Marina Barrage , then to Esplanade , take the Hippo cruise
and bring us to Clark Quay .
FUNNN !!!
OMG we keep on waving our hands to people that were on land .
we act lyke we're the tourist that take the cruise .
and atlast , i did feel how is it lyke on it :D
SUPER FUNN :D
after that went to practice ......... * tired face *
we really have to sacrifice .

21ST BIRTHDAY TO LUKE

2010-03-20T05:28:00.001+08:00

I KNOW ITS TOTALLY LATE .
BUT I DONT FEEL NICE IF I DIDNT POST IT .
ITS ACTUALLY LUKE'S 21ST BIRTHDAY , ON 25 FEB .
NOW ITS ALD 20 MARCH ( SHITSSS ) .
BUT NEVERMIND .
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY LUKMAN NURHAQIM :)
I APPRECIATE TO KNOWING YOU AND HAVING YOU IN MY LYFE .
ONE OR TWO , YOU DID MAKE SOME IMPACTS IN MY LYFE .
I REGARD YOU AS MY BROTHER AND WHATEVER SHIT THAT YOU'RE FACING ,
THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING BEHIND IT .
AND PLEASE REMEMBER THIS IN MIND ,
THAT ELLA WILL ALWAYS LOVE LUKE !
SO DONT SAY THAT YOU THINK I DONT WANNA TALK TO YOU AND ALL .
AND I THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME MOTIVATIONS AND SUPPORTS AND THE TRUST ,
EVERYTHING ON WHAT WE TALK-ED ABOUT JUST NOW .
THANKS LUKE !
AND I HOLD ON TO YOUR WORDS AYTE .
LET ME SAY THIS AGAIN ,
YOU'RE ALWAYS HANDSOME LUKE IDHAM ! :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

MEE KUAH ~

2010-03-20T04:45:00.000+08:00

budak poly main swing nmpk !
HEHEHE !
OMG its ald 4plus in the morning .
and im still awake .
currently chattin with Aisya
and its great :)
i dont know that she's fun to chat with .
and she's good at gossippin too .
NYAHAHAHAS !~
and thanks Aisya for , re-editin my blog :)
atleast now its look much more fresh .
simple but nice :)
thankyou !
and thankyou for the hints that you gave me .
well lyke ive said to you that
i really wanna clear my O level smoothly .
hopefully yeahh .. :)
and i hope you can talk things out with your dearest friend .
every problems have its own solution .
maybe now , you havent found it yet .
but soon you will :)
and see you soon !

i just wanna close my eyes everyday

2010-03-19T00:13:00.000+08:00

i just feel lyke expressin it here .
IM SO STRESSFUL WITH MY LYFE !
everythin that related to me , i feel lyke not doin it .
one of it is my STUDIES .
sometymes i feel lyke quitting school :(
i know this is my very last year in that school ,
and i must do well in it .
but , i just cant wait to go out and be free from secondary rules !
and about the subjects ,
i totally cant focus !
my design and technology ,
I HAVENT COME OUT WITH AN IDEATION YET !
MY ARTEFACT AND ALL ~
MY JOURNAL IS IN A TOTAL MESS !
and i have no idea WHY I FAIL-ED MY MALAY ??!!
its my first tyme failing my malay you see ,
AND ITS A BIG SHOCK TO ME !!
im going to take my O level malay paper this 31st may .
i dont wanna fail it eventho theres a 2nd chance for me to retake .
i seriously wanna clear my O level with a successful grades .
BUT IN THIS PERIOD OF TYME ,
I JUST CANT FOCUS !
and i feel lyke giving up .
its a one week holiday this week .
and i didnt touch any of my books yet !
tmr is ald fridae .
I DONT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THIS .
sometymes i dont feel lyke continue-ing my lyfe anymore .
and this is just about my studies .
i havent talk about my other stuffs .
if i continue further , MY HEAD GOING TO CRASHHHH !!!!!!!~~~

TIRED ~

2010-03-16T19:21:00.001+08:00

so freakin tired !
yesterdae was awesome at zirca :)
and congratulations to Freekzy :D
thankyou Sheikh Haiqel for the shirt ,
but its too big for us !
but appreciate lots !
its so crowded at zirca .
at the same tyme i feel abit scared ,
till i asked Sri to wait for me outside the girl's toilet ,
and hold Fauzi and Azlan when we were on the way out from zirca .
after the comp's over ,
we chill for a short while ,
then we followed abg Faliq to set up candles and all
for ADAM's 20TH BIRTHDAY :)
celebrate and celebrate , a small party between us .
Adam loves it alot , celebratin with his crew and his gf :)
its ald 1plus in the morning .
no more MRT ,
so abg Faliq send the 3 girls , Nadyra , Izza and me home .
he even waited until i ald go in to my house's lift .
thankyou abg Faliq :)
this just shows that he's responsible enough .
thats why my parents trust hym .
after send us home , abg Faliq went back to Clark Quay to fetch
Alif , Iskandar , Azlan , Adam and Adam's gf home .
while Fauzi and Hetty go back to zirca to party .
im so freakin tired that i woke up at 5pm justnow .
pheewwss !!~

anyways ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADAM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADAM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUHAMMAD ADAM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU .......! :)

THANK YOU !

2010-03-13T23:59:00.001+08:00

thank you for those who came and supported the Nutzcrew justnow .
especially JYIANS :)
and congratz to dearest FREEKZYNUTZ and FUNKYNUTZ for the next round <3
not forgetting VOGUELICIOUS too !
LILNUTZ dont manage to go for the next round .....
but we still enjoy ourselves on stage and i guess people do enjoy it too :)
hopefully ...
and my mom loves the performances :)
anyways ,
DO COME DOWN TO PLAZA SINGAPURA TMR FOR DANCEWORKS AND SUPPORT
FUNKY NUTZ , PHAT NUTZ ,
AND OUR NEWBIES , FRESHES NUTZ :)
BE THERE AT 1PM AYTE !
EVERY SUPPORTER COUNTS :D

had fun with Voguelicious justnow :)
miss them alot !
and thats the first tyme we met for 2010 !
OMG !!
Luke was bboying before the show .
Fadlie was popping , with his blue skirt on !
pheewwwsss !!! :)
but , well , i do enjoy-ed myself today ,
eventho me and my LILNUTZ didnt get to the next round .
Babes , theres more to come ayte :)

and to MUHAMMAD FIRDAUS ,
PLEASE STOP YOUR NONSENCE !
ITS REALLY PISSED ME OFF !
AND DONT BE A COWARD BY JUST WANTING TO DEBATE IN SMS .
THATS SO CHILDISH !
PLEASE TALK LESS AND DO MORE !
I HAVE MY LIMIT .
JUST DONT GO BEYOND IT !
I DONT CARE IF YOU'RE A BOY AND IM A GIRL .
HONESTLY , I DONT SCARED OF YOU !
YOU PLAY SHIT , I'LL PLAY THE BIGGER SHIT !
AND MY INSTRUCTOR AND MY CREW ARE WATCHING ON YOU .
JUST KNOW WHEN TO TALK AND STOP CHANGING TOPIC !

BURN YOUR FACE !

2010-03-12T23:59:00.002+08:00

I JUST WANNA ASK YOU ,
HOW LONG CAN YOUR RELATIONSHIP LAST ?
WELL , I GIVE YOU A MONTH OR TWO .
LETS SEE TOGETHER .
IM NOT TRYING TO BOTHER YOU OR WHATEVER SHIT .
I JUST WANNA ASK YOU ,
DO YOU REALLY KNOW THE MEANING OF LOVE ?
OR YOU JUST WANNA BE IN A RELATIONSHIP
FOR THE SAKE OF IN A RELATIONSHIP .
YOU GET ME ?
CUZ FROM WHAT IVE SEEN ,
YOU'RE LYKE , STEAD THEN BREAK , STEAD THEN BREAK .
YOU THINK WHAT SIAA ?
FUNFAIR OR FREE-RIDE UH ?
PHEEWWSSS !!!!!
I SERIOUSLY HATE YOU .
YOU WANT EVERYTHING TO GO ON YOUR WAY .
DONT EVEN THINK OF ME !
SELFISH GUY EVER !
YOU BETTER DONT SAY A WORD TO ME ,
BEFORE I START SPITTING EVERYTHING OUT INFRONT OF YOUR FACE !
YOU HATE WHAT IM DOING ,
BUT DONT YOU EVER THINK THAT I HATE WHAT YOU'RE DOING TOO ?
THATS THE POINT !
YOU JUST WANT EVERYTHING TO GO ON YOUR WAY !
AND YOU THINK YOU ARE THAT GOOD ?
WELL I DONT SAY IM GOOD OR MY JUNIORS ARE GOOD ,
BUT ATLEAST WE DONT TALK COCK LYKE YOU .
TALK MUCH WITH LESS ACTIONS .
YOU ALWAYS SAYS WORLD UH WORLD UH .
BUT YOU YOURSELF WORLD SIAO !
I JUST HOPE THAT YOU CAN REALLY DO CORRECTIONS ABOUT IT !
AND LASTLY ,
DONT PLAY WITH THE GIRLS HEART ,
IF YOU DONT WANT THE GIRLS TO PLAY ON YOU ...
JUST WATCH YOUR WORDS LOSER !~

ALL OUT OR WHAT !

2010-03-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

THE WHOLE DAY FOR TODAY WITHOUT RELAXING !
MORNING SCHOOL FROM 7.20AM TO 10.20AM .
THEN WENT TO CLEMENTI WITH LILNUTZ TO BUY OUR
PANTS FOR TMR SINGAPORE BEST DANCE CREW COMPETITION .
WENT HOME AT 1PM AND GET CHANGE TO OUR P.E ATTIRE .
MEET AGAIN AT 1.45PM FOR OUR CROSS COUNTRY AT JAPANESE GARDEN .
A RACE OF 3.2KM FOR GIRLS AND 4.8KM FOR BOYS .
TIRING AND CRAMPS ALL OVER ....
END AT 6.30PM .
THEN WENT TO BOONLAY PLACE TO BUY OUR SHIRT FOR TMR COMPETITION .
AFTER THAT GO TO JURONG POINT TO BUY FOOD ( MACDONALD ! )
THEN STRAIGHT AWAY GO TO DOME FOR PRACTISING AS THE FUNKY BOYS AND
ABG JAMYL HAVE WAITED FOR US .
PHEEWSS ~
AND AFTER DOING DETAILING AND CLEANING UP ,
WE LEARN-ED NEW CHOREO :)
I LOVE IT <3
AND NOW I JUST GOT BACK HOME , TIRIING !!
ANYWAYS , MY TIMING FOR JUSTNOW 3.2KM IS ROUGHLY AROUND 20MINS .
RUN WITH AQILAH .
WOWWWW !! MOTIVATION AND MOTIVATES EACH OTHER :D
MAYBE IM NOT TOP 20 BUT TOP 50 IS COOL TOO :)
HEHEHHEHEHE !!!! ~
GUYS , DO COME AND SUPPORT FUNKY AND LILNUTZ FOR TMR
SINGAPORE BEST DANCE CREW (SBDC) COMPETITION AYTE .
ITS AT OUTSIDE JURONG POINT .
JUST DROP AT BOONLAY MRT STATION .
BE THERE AT 5PM :)
THANK YOU LOVELIES <3

You Cant Stop Me From Doing Anything Now

2010-03-11T23:18:00.002+08:00

My lyfe turned great without you now !
i just wasted my lyfe spending tyme with you .
i mean with all your empty promises , pheewss !~
seriously , i would rather choose a guy who didnt give me
any promises but try their best than a guy who gave me thousands
of promises but didnt fulfill it .
THATS TOTALLY WORSE !
enough said .

I THINK I MISS AZIZUL BADLY !
I MISS CHATTING WITH HYM .
WEBCAMING WITH HYM IS SO UNFORGETABLE !
AND OFCOURSE BY SEEING HYM WILL BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY :)
CUZ HE DIDNT HURT ME LYKE SOMEONE DID !
I CHERISH HYM MUCH :)
ALL THE BEST FOR ROMP !!

CANT WAIT FOR NEW SHIRT FOR NUTZCREW !

2010-03-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

SORRY PEOPLE FOR PRIVATING MY BLOG ..
NOW , ITS OPEN FOR ALL :)
YOU GUYS CAN COME 24/7 :D

ANYWAYS , NUTZCREW IS COMPETING IN QUITE LOTS OF COMPS .
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SUPPORT US .
CUZ EACH ONE OF YOU GUYS COUNT :)

COME DOWN TO JURONG POINT THIS SATURDAY , 13/3 ,
AND SUPPORT FUNKY NUTZ AND LIL NUTZ IN
SINGAPORE BEST DANCE CREW !!! :)
IM NOT SURE ABOUT THE TYME YET ....
BUT WILL CONFIRM IR SOON :)
AND THERES LOTZ OF DOPE DANCERS AS WELL ! :D

ON THIS SUN , 14/3 ,
COME DOWN TO PLAZA SINGAPURA AT 1PM AND GIVE YOUR
SUPPORT TO FUNKY NUTZ , PHAT NUTZ AND OUR NEWBIES , FRESHES NUTZ !
IN DANCEWORKS 2010 ! ( SECONDARY CATEGORY ) .

ON MON , 15/3 ,
SUPPORT OUR BELOVED SENIORS , FREEKZY NUTZ ,
FOR THEIR ROMP COMPETITION AT ZIRCA AT 7PM .
TIX ARE AT 25BUCKS ..
AND THERE'S GONNA SICK AND DOPE DANCERS THERE ! <3

ON THE SAT , 27/3 ,
PLEASE PLEASE COME DOWN TO SOMERSET , SKATE SCAPE PARK ,
AND SUPPORT THE LIL NUTZ FOR DANCEWORKS 2010 ( OPEN CATEGORY ) .
BE THERE BY 1PM I GUESS :)

AND OFCOURSE WITH A LOTS OF COMPETITIONS ,
OUR TRAININGS ARE AS HARD AS THOSE GUYS IN NS ....
AND NOT FORGETTING ABG JAMYL FOR ALWAYS HELPING US ,
AND SCOLDED US FOR GOOD .
THANKS ALOTT !
SEE YOU GUYS SOON !!!!! :D

ABANG2 HANDSOME ... CHECK2 ..........................

2010-02-22T21:23:00.002+08:00

im so freaking tired nowadays .
teacher have gone to ideation for design and technology ,
but me ! still left behind !
2010 seems lyke a bad year for me :(
SERIOUSLY !!!
i feel lyke crying .
i feel lyke rewind-ing the time .
i feel lyke , what i feel now !
pheewwws !
sometymes , i dont feel lyke schooling :(
but hearing my parents advices , friends advices and everyone ,
that motivated me , for 10% maybe , HAH !
especially when Monday comes , my goodness !
so blues ..............
tuesday , shittsss , ASPRO till 4.30pm then dance .
i am only fully hearted to go to school when its Friday .
cuz its last day of school of the week ,
and we are release at 12:30pm :)
tmr English common test .
wed Maths common test .
thurs Science common test .
and fri is Malay common test .
..........................
just left with 8months of school and im gone ,
do it last and do your best Ella Tamara Bleszynski :D

just now went to JP library to do my design and technology .
went i was on my way to the toilet , at arnd 7plus pm uh ,
there's 3 civil defence guy .
i whispered to Nadyra , ' eh abang2 handsome uh ' ..
then she replied , ' siakk uh mcm daa tue je ' ...
( GUESS CUZ SHE NEVER WEAR HER SPEC , THATS WHY CANT SEE PROPERLY )
then they walk towards us as they need to take the stairs .
then when i stare properly ,
MY GODD ITS JAZRUL JALANI FROM VOGUELICIOUS !
hahahhahaaahaha !!
i called hym and you know hym ,
Mr Squeezy eyes :)
at first he was lyke dont know me , keep on squeezing and squeeze .
pheeewwss !
then he remembered ella vogue fan .
wtf ? pheeewwss ! :)
talk for awhile then he proceed to the 3rd level while
me and Nadyra go to the 1st level .
hehhehe !! abang2 handsome ehhh ........
and now im going to watch CINTA FITRI <3
I HATE MISCHA !
TROUBLE MAKER ALWAYS ! AIYOOO !!!!!!

YOU make me cry :'(

2010-02-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

im deeply hurt looking at it .
i turned silent and my mood switched off .
im crying currently .
................
going indonesia tmr ,
but seems lyke im not looking forward to it after , ...... :'(

JONTE CAME TO MY HOUSE ! :)

2010-02-11T21:45:00.001+08:00

GUYS KNOW WHAT ???!!!
I DREAMT ABOUT JONTE LAST NIGHT !!!!
AND IT WAS SERIIOUSLY A GREAT NIGHT-DREAM !
I REALLY HOPE THAT I DREAM ABOUT IT AGAIN TONIGHT :D
BUT THE DREAM DIDNT MAKE SENSE THOUGH , HAHAHAHAHAAA !
HE CAME TO MY HOUSE AND ASKED ME TO FOLLOW HYM TO JAPAN ,
TO DUET WITH HYM FOR HIS SONG , ' BITCH YOU BETTA ' .
CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT ??!!!
IT WAS TOTALLY EXCITED BUT AT THE SAME TYME ,
N.O.N.S.E.N.C.E !! :D
AND YES I DID FOLLOWED HYM TO JAPAN ,
AND WE SING TOGETHER FOR THE SONG BITCH YOU BETTER .
WE REALLY ROCK THE STAGE !!

well enough of the 'wont-happen-dreams ' .
well , tomorrow no study in school !
CELEBRATIONS !
for both Chinese New Year and Total Defence Day :)
and schools end at 11am tmr !
but then the NUTZCREW having our performance at Marina Bay Float <3
totally cant wait for this !
its end at 10pm .
then dad gonna send me and my bro to our grandma's house at woodlands :)
cuz on saturday morning , the 3 of us going to Indonesia :D
and we're back on tuesday at 5pm !
this means , BABY GONNA BE ALONE IN SPORE :(
AND WE'RE NOT CELEBRATING THE VALENTINE'S DAY .
AWWWW :(
but baby has promised to have belated valentine's day for both of us .
<3 FIRELLE <3
and im so stress about studies !
cant take it anymore !
pheeww ! ~
someone help ! :(

Hip-Hoppers Are Just Dancing & Doing Their Thing

2010-02-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY !!!
SO BUSY THAT I DONT HAVE TIME TO DO ANYTHING ,
EVEN TO BE WITH MY FIRDAUS ALL THE TIME :(
AND IM SO BUSY THAT i have no tyme for
sleeping and surfing the nets , and also watch CINTA FITRI :(
haizzz ! what a 2010 !!
common test is coming lyke 2 weeks tyme .
i have to pass that test !
die die its a must , if not ,
NO DANCEWORKS FOR ME :(
and thats stressing me off !

and i miss Muhammad Firdaus Bin Azul Karnaain alot !
as people know , dance take lots of our tyme and hardwork ,
and by that , sometymes i have no tyme to meet babyFird :(
i really hope you understand me .
and you have to accept the fact that your girlfriend is a hiphop dancer .
so dont anti-hiphop ouhkays !
please understand 'our culture' ! :)
4 words for you my dear baby ,
LOVE ME , LOVE HIPHOP :D
thank you for your co-operation :)
Love ya !

CANT WAIT CANT WAIT CANT WAIT !

2010-02-05T22:36:00.003+08:00

ouhkay Voguelicious's comp was postponed .
instead of tmr it will be on the 2nd March .
so now its either Firdaus or STS for tmr plans ..
hmmm ..
to make it fair ,
meet baby in afternoon then ,
and then go STS in the evening :)
heeeee ...
and tmr STS's class !!
but before that there will be a show by STS itself at YP at 7.30pm .
the class starts at 8pm and for those whose not going for
the class will continue watching the show put up by STS :)
whereas the one going for those classes will be going to the
studio behind it :D but wait !!
go for MAZLAN's class or ATE KATE's class ???
hmmmmmmmm .....
let me think .....
*brain freeze* !
guess im having a hard tyme , phewws !

Nutzcrew had our rehearsals justnow .
from 2.30pm to 5.10pm , NO BREAK !
NO BREAK AT ALL !
NOT A DRIP OF WATER !
but all worth it as we finished our formations for all songs .
left cleaning up steps and do details .
ohh yaaa !
NEW UPDATES : ATTENTION !!
THE NUTZCREW SENIOR GONNA PERFORM FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR
AT THE MARINA BAY PLATFORM , THE FLOAT <3
FREEKZY NUTZ , LIL NUTZ , FUNKY NUTZ GROOVY NUTZ AND PHAT NUTZ !
GOD WE ARE GOING NUTZ YAW ! :D
YUPP ITS ON THE 12TH AND 19TH FEB AND ITS LIVE ON TV !
on channel 8 .
WHILE OUR JUNIORS , FRESHES NUTZ , WILL BE HAVING PERFORMANCE
IN SCHOOL ON THE SAME DAY AS WELL .
CATCH US LIVE ON TV AND CATCH OUR JUNIORS , FRESHES NUTZ IN YOUTUBE !
heeee :)
AND AND ,
NUTZCREW GONNA SEND 4 GROUPS TO THE DANCEWORKS 2010 !
LIL NUTZ , FUNKY NUTZ , PHAT NUTZ AND NOT FORGETTING OUR JUNIOR ,
FRESHES NUTZ !!!!
and for Freshes Nutz , yupp THEY MAY LOOK YOUNG ,
BUT YOU GUYS HAVE TO CHECK THEM OUT :)
AND LIL NUTZ IS JOINING FOR OPEN CAT.FOR DANCEWORK 2010 !
FUHHH !!
we will face the hard time training then .

CANT WAIT FOR TMR STS CLASS !
well i miss-ed the last week's class due to my maths remedial .
hmmmph ! hate it !!
so now im so looking forward for tmr !
and tmr after the class , i go to woodlands cuz im sleeping over
at my grandma's house <3
yeayyy !!!
and one more thing ,
im addicted to the song ,
' LELAKI.. BUAYA DARAT , PU-CHEST AKU TERTIPU LAGI UWOOO ..'
and the song ,
' ALALA DONDANG DONDANG LAA SAYANG .. ALALA DONDANG DONDANG LAA SAYANG ..
ADOI ADOI !! '
hehhe !!
keep singing this two songs in rehearsals justnow , hehs ! :D

My Taggy Is Below !!

2010-02-03T02:33:00.001+08:00

just finish-ed talking with babyFird on the phone .
it was a great one but , there's fights at the end .
haizz ...
*piss-ed*
but i try my best not to be ego and be childish .
if i were to follow my heart , aiyoooo ....
but i still love baby <3
miss you Muhammad Firdaus Bin Azul Karnaain !
and he asked me to come to school tmr ,
which means today ,
while the doctor gave me 2 days MC .
hehehhe !!
guess he's jealous :P
or he wants to see me badly , HAHAHAA !
i know your tricks boy !
its all in my pocket :)
and babyFird was jealous when any guy comes and hug me .
awww ....
hehhe , then how ?
babyFird said give them a punch when they wants to hug me .
HAHAHHAHAHAA !
ap saje .
well , no jealous2 kays cuz they are all my brothers and sisters .
worse to worst , they are my friends :)
its lyke our friendship bonding you know .
i wont flirt omg !
phewww ...
and idk why my taggy and links all were pushed down to below .
aiyooo !!!!!!
so irritating , pheewws !~

sick~

2010-02-02T16:20:00.004+08:00

didnt go to school today .
i cant take it , the sickness .
bad flu :(
and sore throat :(
its lyke there's stone in my throat ..
so painful .
and now i just get back from see-ing doctor .
he gave me 2 days MC .
so tmr im not goin to school also .
im gonna miss my dance prac :(
haizzz ..
and im gonna miss babyFirdaus alot :(

this saturday , 6 feb ,
im havin a hard tyme :(
cuz its all squeeze into 1 .
i dont know where should i go ?
1st option : STS class ( Its free-of-charge for Nutzcrew )
2nd option : Voguelicious for their comp ,
3rd option : Out with BabyFirdaus .....
so which ?
cuz all of them are important to me ,
and yeahh , i dont know .
hmmmmmm ....

Romantic Boy

2010-01-31T00:31:00.001+08:00

Mr.Firelle Ferrero Rocher says:
I love you i love you i love you Nabilah Binte Abdul Aziz
Mrs.Firelle Ferrero Rocher says:
i love you i love you i love you too Muhammad Firdaus Bin Azul Karnaain <3
Firdaus sing for me alot of songs :)
he so sweettttt <3
i dont expect this seriously .
but at the same tyme ,
im loving it alot alot <3
i love it when he sing GURAUAN BERKASIH :)
by Achik and Nana .
and so i join the singin too .
after that , he sing Anggapanmu ,
and i said that song reminds me of someone
so he immediately stop ,
guess he's scared if i were to .......
hehehhehhee !!!!
i wont kay :)
no worries Muhammad Firdaus Bin Azul Karnaain <3
yeayyy ! he'll call me later :)
then later at 1.30am baby wanna watch football ,
phewww ~
now the tyme is 12:30am .
the football whatever thingy will starts 1 hour later .
i guess we'll talk on the phone after that football match then ,
which i guess its arnd 3+am ?
and or ive asleep ? :P
hehhe ! we'll see how it goes !
i dont know !
what so good about the ball huh ?
hehehe ! :P
currently webcaming with hym <3
aiyooo , know what ?!
background toilet seyy !
cute nyeee die ... :)

today ( sat, 30/1 ) ,
thought of going out with dearest boyfy ,
but both of us were busy :(
he got his CIP at jurong east .
while i have my maths class from 1-4pm .
then i got the 7th-day kenduri after that .
hmmmph ..
maybe next week then kaysss ...

sick :(

2010-01-29T23:01:00.001+08:00

im not feeling well .
im having fever :(
hate it hate it hate it !
cuz its total irritatetism !
i think this fever come from syg ...
cuz the last few days he is sick .
and now he's fine , and its my turn !
AIYOOOOOOO ....
syg didnt wait for me cuz he going friday prayers ,
so i went home and then dance .
i coach the new Nutzcrew ,
FreshesNutz just now cuz im having fever so ,
yeah just coach them .
hehs ! i make them do push-ups when they are way too noisy
or make mistakes .
but , i still love them :)
bunch of cute dancers !
love thems !!! <3

FIRELLE Ferrero Rocher

2010-01-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

today was great .
spent time with Firdaus <3
anyways he's the one smiling without teeth :)
he's very caring and loud person !
i like ....
he fetch me under my block everymorning ,
he wiated for me in the afernoon .
and im sorry for justnow :(
cuz i have to go to dance room , and he wanted to go home with me ..
sorry keeping you waiting .
sorry for disappoint you ..
but i have a great time with you !
we sit at the school bench in the middle of our classrooms ,
and there it goes ,
our friends go shouting lyke monkey .
hahs !
and Firelle ignored them and continue our thing :)
I LOVE HIM and only him :)
and he really changed my lyfe alot alot !
i hope for the best for us ! <3
currently on the phone with hym :) ..
cuz we both nvr fails to have late night calls everynight :)
justnow he called his cat and i thought he called me ,
so i answer-ed , ' yeee ? '
and he laugh-ed and said that he called his cat ,
named Lala and me Ella .
aiyoooo , !! i dont lyke cat you know !~
oooopppsss ! sorryy~

BabyFirell :)

2010-01-27T16:08:00.003+08:00

Well , all of my surroundings is busy talking
about my status in facebook , hmm .
In school , in dance , in fb , HAHHAHAAA !
Yes im ald attach-ED :)
ouhkay on the behalf of him ,
i would lyke to apologise for not telling our own friends ,
and all , whoever ..
both of us are really sorry :(
just that we want it to be low profile :)
yuppp ..
yesterdae was amazing !
'fight' with my 2nd brother for house phone !
cuz he wants to talk to his gf .
and i wanna talk to my boy :)
but atlast i use it , heee ..
and we really had a great tyme together .
we shared alot previously .
i shared about my love lyfe last tyme ,
and also about my past .
and he did too .
well , basically he win my heart ,
because most of the guys that comes ,
i turn-ed them down , ooppss :|
but friendship will always stay :D
well , i hope everythin turns fine ...
amin ...

how am i to focus ?

2010-01-21T21:23:00.002+08:00

OhMyGod !!

Currently am doing my fcuking hmwks ,

plus chatting ,

plus blogging ,

plus sms-ing ,

plusplus ,

BALTIMORE CLUB MUSIC !

MYGODDD ~

im going crazy with this chemistry !~

im going crazy chattin with my friends ~

AND IM TOTALLY CRAZY LISTENIN TO THIS

FCUKIN ~~~

BALTIMORE CLUB MUSIC !!!!

how i wish im 18 now ..*shits*

soon Ella , just next year ! *winks*

and am waiting for 6APRIL <3

whats went wrong ?

2010-01-19T21:39:00.000+08:00

*take a deep breathe*
well actually , currently ,..
im having some difficulties/problems/stress , everything !
about everything ! my surroundings !!
everything is not right to me .
im hoping that this week will turn perfectly fine for me but it turns up ,
fcukedup !!
and because of that ,
its affect everything to me ofcourse .
i feel so down this week .
i cant focus .
all the things that i intended to do , are all messed up .
everything is thwarting me !
all lessons thats going on in school were so monotonous ~
but everyone around me embolden me and i really thank them alot .
but somehow , its didnt work :(
its all depends on me , myself ...
its just the startin of the week and im feelin lyke this .
its totally negative sign :(

but i want to dedicate this post to Firdaus ,
thank you for everything .
thank you for being there for me when i need somebody ,
to talk to , to let out my feelings and all .
youre always there for me .
i really appreciate you to the max .
you're zany to me but at the same time ,
you know when to be serious and all .
once again , thanks alot !
i hope our friendship will be greattsss one !

and specially to this fcukin crazy stop it girl ,
SITI FAIZAH BINTE ZAMBRI ,
Happy 16th Birthday !
or ,
Happy Belated Birthday :)
But theres something i wanna tell you ,
NC16 IS SO YESTERDAY ....!
HAHAHHAHAAA !!!
kay one day lets watch those NC16 ones ayte .
GAGGAGAGAAA :P

I Must Learn To Accept Changes

2010-01-17T21:59:00.001+08:00

whats up with the christmas cap ?

hehehe , idk !

anyways , my lyfe have changed alot .

and im happy and looking forward for it :)

2010 <3

but still , 2009's memories will still kept close in my heart .

whatever it is ,

i treasure every moment i had in lyfe .

school's start back tmr :(

its ald the 3rd weeks .

im feeling tired ..

but this year is a important year for me .

decision is in my hand .

hmmmm ...

wish me luck people !

and i hope ,

Ate Kate come tmr for dance ..!!

i wanna learn her choreo badly :(

ATE KATEEEE <3

come come come !!

and i hope tmr gonna be a good start of the week :)

take care people !

VAGUE

2010-01-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

pardon me for not updatin constantly .

im superly busy .

after school , went to dance prac , then to tuition ,

then went study and by next week theres night prac .

omg !!!

ofcourse its tiring , but i have to bare with everything .

cuz what ? i wanna be lyke Alif a.k.a Aircho Artist .

My role model :)

he dance , he study and and , CONGRATULATIONS to him ,

for getting 13 points for 'O'level .

i dont know how he managed his time .

he get grade 1 for science , fcuk rightt !!!!

but he said to me , ' dont be lyke me . be better than me ' .

i will always remember every advices given by anybody .

im scared to start anything for my 'O' level ,

S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y .......

ive lost my phone , last sunday :(

eventho im going to chnge my phone to Blackberry :) ,

i still love my old phone , sony ericson <3

but yeah , now , its difficult to get Blackberry then .

cuz i lost my phone .

haizzz ....

dad has ald cut that line ,

then get a new simcard of same number justnow .

that phone keep playin in my mind .

there's lots of things inside ... ;-(

should i say this out ?

or should i dont ?

hmmmm ....

im in total vague rightnow .

im scared if i make the wrong decision .

its ald more than 1 year im being single ,

cuz been waiting , and im deeply love that someone ,

just that he didnt notice it i guess .

after he entered my lyfe ,

i dont look to other guys .

sometymes its hurt , cuz i cant move on .

since 2008 till rightnow 2010 .

but i learn to be understandable ,

and always been understandin as my love is in a

very difficult situation .

i dont know why im still loving hym ,

eventho i knew how he's lyke ....... hmm ,

there's something in hym , that makes me keep on loving hym ,

till rightnow .

and ive been rejecting many guys just because of hym .

no guys win my heart except hym ,

but whatever it is ,

my love for this particular person is sincere ,

and its hard for me to forget a person lyk hym .

but then , another guy came to my lyfe lyke 5 days back ,

and the way everything he did , attracts me .

esp. his eyes .........

and the smile he gave me ..

basically he win my heart , after more than 1 year of me

loving the same person .

Dont Get The Wrong Picture

2010-01-09T01:54:00.003+08:00

as what ive promised ,
here for you Jason Lam Jie Sheng , specially .
there's alot to talk about but ,
i will highlight the important points , first .
umm , when i heard about your stories ,
i let out an audible sigh with a bleakly smiled but uttered not a word .
everyone could not quite grasp what was happening .
that moment , when you told us what you did ,
the atmosphere turned silent ,
numb with shock and disbelief .
...............................................
ive been knowing you lyke 4 years ald .
you've known nutzcrew for 4 years also and , yeahh ...
you know your mistakes and i gotta tell you that ,
a wave of emotions swept over us , the nutzcrew ,
upon hearing the news .
i dont know whats your point doing it ,
but i try my best to understand you deeply.
as a senior ,
i have to point out your mistakes .
yes i am disappointed , but i also have to be understanding as well .
cuz sometymes people do something and there will always be a reason .
but whatever it is ,
what past is past .
what we have to do now is learn from our mistakes ,
and try not to do it again .
and dont be ego please .
im not angry with you Jason .
you know me well .
you know yourself that at the end of the day ,
you know tht Nutzcrew loves you rightt .... , thats why .
if we all dont love you ,
we will just ignore you and dont scold you .
i hope you understand the meaning of scolding .
scolding means love .
come on Jason ,
you're left with how many months and you're away ald .
so i hope you spend this few months seriously ,
and just have fun alrights .
treasure every moment .
i seriously know how you feel .
but , you have to be strong , facing all of this shit .
take it as a lesson to learn .
and actually , i wanna blog about you ,
about other thing , but i think blogging this is
much more important and meaningful .
i hope you'll cope everything in fine ,
and , all the best for everything .
you'll get my back , no worries .
Nutzcrew's back .
rmmbr on your head that ,
NUTZCREW STILL LOVE YOU !
WILL ALWAYS BE , FOREVER !
and one more thing ,
i want you to rmmbr that ,
you've join-ed nutzcrew in a twinkle in your eyes .
and i hope , if you wanna leave us ,
you gonna leave us with a facial muscles relaxed and a smile linger on your face .
yupp , for now , just go with the flow .
BE STRONG ayte .

need your help still

2010-01-06T20:22:00.003+08:00

Firstly I would like to thank my bro , my senior ,
Mohamad Alif Bin Rais ,
a.k.a
AIRCHO ARTIST :)
He's been always teaching me everything that I wanna know .
And a person like him will never be forgotten :)
my headstand , handstand , chair , 6steps ...
basically those breakdance ,
its all teach-ed by him .
he's not selfish .
he shared his experience and dance technics with Nutzcrew .
and now , i ask-ed him to teach me how to control steps .
as in , not flowing but its lyke fast then go slow .
ITS NICE !!
its more to the feel and its hard i tell you !
but im still working on it .
i wanna upgrade myself cuz those streets dancers out there ,
are way better than me .
and the dance standard now is so high !
when i went to STS BATTLE COMP ,
seeing flairnation doing their thing ,
seriously , im scared !
if i were to battle with them ,
......hmmm........
and also other groups were dope too .
thats why , they are motivating me to improve myself ,
without they knowing .
i cant afford to remain like this .
i have to work this shit out !
im learning different genre , one at the time .
so currently im learning CONTROLing by Alif .
and also finger tating , with the help of Alif too .
WELL , THANKS BRO !! :D
you guys may see him in that picture so fierce .
but his heart is so clean .
i know him well .
its been 5 years yeah !

Nutzcrew having audition just now .
its good to see that lots of pople coming in .
lyke more than 50 peoples ?
yeahhhh ..
but we can only choose 16 :(
but really thanks to those who come ,
and those 16s , CONGRATULATIONS .
YOU'RE NUTZCREW NOW ;D
remember ,
'FLY HIGH LIKE A KITE , STRING ATTACHED TO THE GROUND'
it means ,
no matter how good we are , we must not be arrogant :)
NUTZCREW ! <3

bad girl gone good :)

2010-01-03T22:09:00.001+08:00

school starts tmr and i dont feel anything .
but some lazy-ness is there ,
cuz i have to wake up at 6am ! :(
but i really wanna do great in 2010 .
i wanna be a good girl :)
its my last year and i wanna give my all out .
i hope everything goes smoothly .
anyways , 2009 will be kept safely in my heart .
all those memories , sweet and bitter <3
i love all ! <3 :D
and i know im dead tmr :(
cuz my hair is colour-ed .
and i havent colour-ed it back to the natural colour .
i seriously got no tyme !
blackhairspray maybe , or just remain as lyke that , hehe !
kate ELLA TAMARA mahhhh :D
heeeeee ....... :)

NUTZCREW BABY <3

2009-12-30T23:59:00.001+08:00

went down to esplanade to support my deary
NUTZCREW BOYSS !!! <3
i am so scared for them cuz i know the
competitors are real hard !
but i do still have confidence for each and everyone of them .
cuz i know they can do it and
THEY WILL DEFINITELY ROCK THE STAGE !!
but firstly , i will lyke to apologize to them ,
cuz i , izza and nadyra came late .
we're sorry guys that we miss-ed your first performance !
but the 2nd onwards , we were shouting lyke hell my boys !!
and CONGRATULATIONS !!
should i say ,
STAR OF THE NIGHT BOYSS ?? :)
Well , you guys just rock the stage !
and rock the crowd !
i know the competitors are real hard !
and i know , Azlan is controlling hymself :)
im so proud of you !
NUTZCREW PROUDLY BRINGS YOU ................................

YOUR SEX WAS WACK !

2009-12-29T22:51:00.005+08:00

i dont know why i am so angry !!
jealous maybe ??
tskkk !!! am i wrong in the first place ?
or is it the opposite's wrongs ?
i really hate this !
i dont ask for this anyways !
its just a sudden thingy .
i hope i'll be strong facing it .
cuz right now its killing me .
and obviously ,
this FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK is motivating me .
i just hope i'll be strong .
and this will end soon .
which i dont think it will happen .
omg !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God help me ....

Its kinda late but ...

2009-12-27T17:38:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!

Holiday !

2009-12-27T13:35:00.004+08:00

Just came back from Air Papan .

You guys must go there !!!

I mean the place was lyke kinda a kampungan ,

but i love the sea ! <3

its different from other sea cuz the sand is lyke hard .

and the waves is different .

its kinda scary but nice :)

and theres alot of small crab everywhere !!

seriously i was freakin scared !!!!!!!!

tht i jump around ( scared if the crab might bite me ) .

but when i jump ,

i am scared also cuz i might step on those crab and the body breaks .

lots of imagination , HAHAHHAHA !!!

at first , its kinda difficult for us to find a suitable hotel .

cuz most of the hotel there is lyke , not lyke hotel .

but then we found one , HOTEL HAVANITA .

the hotel was alright :)

its near to 7.11 and petronas .

so its easy for us to buy food when we're hungry at night .

all the way of the journey ,

lunch and dinner ,

i ate Asam Pedas <3

thats my favourite !!

except breakfast , its Nasi Lemak .

then next day , we check-ed out ,

and went to Johor to my uncle's condo .

swim and swim and swim .

at night arnd 10pm , went to dinner .

NASI AYAM PENYEK !!

so nicee !! cant describe it !!!

with a big chicken and belacan <3

fuuhhh !!

spicyy but freakin nice !

sleep at uncle's ,

then the next day , went back to spore .

lucky theres no traffic jam !!!!!

i just hate traffic jam badly !!!!

rightnow , im so tired !

and later on at night ,

going to my aunt's place ,

for makan2 :)

ikan bakar <3

MY FACE hurts !

2009-12-25T03:19:00.002+08:00

Sentosa and EastCoast !! <3

Nutzcrew and those Jahanams <3

both outing turn-eds well !

and to my dear friend ,

FIRDAUS :)

you're the best !

no matter what , no one can replace a friend lyke you .

and all the best in your lyfe , in your future !

yupp , you've hurt me last tyme .

but i have forgave you ,

and i try not to rmmbr back .

but whatever it is ,

im gonna miss you !

AND ,

i enjoy-ed with you at EastCoast :D

and now its ald 3.15am .

at 5am im leavin to Air Papan , Msia .

i have been there when i was a small kid .

but i have forgotten :P

now , im goin to sleep ald .

1hr of sleep is not enough but atleast i have some of

SLEEPING :)

Just So You Know

2009-12-25T02:43:00.003+08:00

I shouldn't love you but I want to

I just can't turn away

I shouldn't see you but I can't move

I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but

I want toI just can't turn away

I shouldn't see you but I can't move

I can't look away

And I don't know

How to be fine when I'm not

'Cause I don't know

How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know

This feeling's takin' control

Of me and I can't help it

I won't sit around

I can't let him win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go

Of you but I don't want to

I just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to be around you

There's so much I can't say

Do you want me to hide the feelings

And look the other away

And I don't know

How to be fine when I'm not

'Cause I don't know

How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know

This feeling's takin' control

Of me and I can't help it

I won't sit around

I can't let him win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go

Of you but I don't want to

I just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know

This emptiness is killin' me

And I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long

Lookin' back I realize it was always there

Just never spoken I'm waitin' here

Been waitin' here

Just so you know

This feeling's takin' control

Of me and I can't help it

I won't sit around

I can't let him win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go

Of you but I don't want to

Just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know, just so you know

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go

Of you but I don't want to

Just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know, just so you know

Its Time For Celebration !

2009-12-21T00:37:00.001+08:00

22nd Dec , Tuesday

Nutzcrew will have our outing at Sentosa !!! <3

I cant wait for this !!

BBQ lyke hell !!!

esp. Alif !! i still rmmbr our last yr bbq at westcoast .

Alif and Azlan doing those chickens .

fcukkk-ed up !!!

DISGUSTING !!

but its taste nice tho :)

Im so looking forward for this dear Nutzcrew ! <3

23rd Dec , Wednesday

Will have BBQ with my deary 'Mats and Minahs' ! <3

at EastCoastPark :)

What i mean is my secondary mates whom i close with ,

Zaki , Aiyed , Ayim , Dinie , Sue , Jyl , Izza , Nadyr , Akit ,

Luqman , Farhan , Syayie , Shiykin , Affandi , ...

umm , anyone i left out ?

i dont know , but you know yourself .

By this tyme, i guess all of us have receive-d sms-es from our

deary Izza :)

see ya soon dicks and pussies !!! <3

25th Dec , Friday to .........

Im going to M'sia , Air Papan with the whole fams ;)

grandma , aunts , uncles , parents , bros , babies , each and every <3

but im not sure when are we coming back to Spore .

i have not ask my mom bout it .

but im so excited for this !!!!

YEAYYYY !!!!!!!! :D

29th Dec , Tuesday , onwards

back to dance practices with Nutzcrew !

early preparations for upcoming shows and competitions .

well ,

i hope i can manage well in studies and dance for the year of 2010 .

i'll try to reduce my playfulness .

and i hope i can be a much more good girl tho .

i dont wanna mess up my O's lyke how i mess-ed up my N's .

cuz till now , to me ,

i get promoted its just by luck .

why i say that ?

cuz the night before my N's exams ,

it was the tyme where i starts to scribble everything and slot it

in my head , in a rush .. didnt sleep the whole night just to memorise

all those things .

didnt it mess-ed up ?

yeahh ! its a big mess-ed up !!!!

thanks to the above to give me this last chance and take my O's .

i'll make use of it !

NEW YEAR is coming real soon .

i hope i can improve everything in me .

all the mistakes ive made in 2009 ,

will make as a lesson learnt and improve it in 2010 .

and its a new big change for me too ,

as some of my love ones is not here by my side anymore .

but lyfe has to carry on .

i hope i can be strong in 2010 to face any challenges .

its a new year , new lyfe and i hope , its a new love too .

Enjoyment Tears

2009-12-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

IM SO FCUKIN HAPPY TODAY !
TODAY IS THE BESTEST DAY EVER !!
as in for myself .
I PASS MY N-LEVEL !!!!
AND PROMOTED TO SEC 5 :D

yes , i cried , i did cried .
and i guess thats the first tyme my classmates see me crying ,
after 4 years together with them .
i cried not because of whatever ..
I CRIED BECAUSE GOD IS TOO KIND TO ME .
i admit , i didnt pray all the tymes .
what i always do is D.A.N.C.E !
go home late at night , playing comps .
and justnow , before i take my result ,
i pray , Zuhur ...
it was a last minute prayers .
and i admit im ashamed ,
to 'face' Him .
cuz i only go to hym when i need help .
but when i dont , i just , ..............................
pheeeww !
and when i know i get promoted ,
i cried , badly ..
shivering ....
msg-ing my mother ..
well , i wont repeat this again .
i wont go to Him only when i need help .
i seriously THANK HIM ALOT .
He did hear me .

my teacher question me before i take my result ,
Mr Bryan Ee : Do you think you manage to go to the next level ?
Me : I dont know ( in a low tone ) .
Mr Bryan Ee : I dont want to hear that . Give me a confident answer .
Me : Hopefully i can .
Mr Bryan Ee : Will you continue dancing if you get promoted ?
Me : Yes , but not as much as i do usually ..
Mr Bryan Ee : Alright . I'll see you next year .
Me : What you mean ? ( to get clearer meaning )
Mr Bryan Ee : You passed your N-level and promoted to sec 5 .
Me : Are you sure Mr Ee ????!!!!
Mr Bryan Ee : See it for yourself .. ( he smiled )

the 1st person i msg was my mother .
2nd was my tuitor .
3rd was my 3 spies girls ( Izza , Nadyr & Akit ) .
and then i started to reply to those who questioning me
bout the result .
thanks everyone !!

im so happyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
waiting for my cousin's result and my friends result .
then went home , meet my mother ...
my mother was proud of me .
she call-ed dad .
dad was proud of me too :D
then get change-d ,
meet friends again ,
to eat and play bowling together :)
but i cant go home so late ,
cuz dad wants to have a makan2 with me and fams ..
so yeahhh ..
im so happpyyyy !!!!!!!!!
and to all my friends ,
you guys know yourself ,
im gonna miss you guys lyke fcuking hell !
no one can ever replace those 6 JAHANAMS :)
i miss you guyss badly !!!!!!!!
we'll still meet ayte .. :)
well ,
i will post for you guys something on my next post ayte .
cuz , i love you guys so much !
i dont know if i can still survive nxt year without you guys ..
YOU'RE THE FCUKING BEST !!!
EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU !!!

p/s : i walk out of the hall with happy tears :)

Exploring The Purple Line ...

2009-12-16T23:58:00.011+08:00

'EXPLORING THE UNKNOWN'....

show turns fine .

but i prefer yesterday crowd ,

but overall , its great Nutzcrew ! <3

today was awesome !

eventho we're tired ,

and its lyke wasting our exlink when the place sucks ,

we still enjoy ourselves !

right girls ?

and yeahh ,

we did lyke how we did yesterdae ,

but this tyme round ,

we go 'overseas' :)

we went to India , China , some parks and thought of

going to Bangkok , but , we changed our mind .

its only the 3 of us , myself , Nadyra and Izza .

hehehe dont get us wrong !

we went to LITTLE India , ChinaTOWN ...

well basically , we explore at the purple line of mrt .

cuz that line , the name of the places its lyke interesting ,

so yeahh ..

Serangoon Road .

Kerbau Hotel .

Hotel 81 .

everywhere in purple line !

but its quite difficult for us cuz its raining ,

and plus we didnt know where to go when we reached to those places ,

so we just walk and walk and walk , ....

see any nice sceneries , we snap !

basically , we're lyke foreigner .

hahhahahhaa ! :D

firstly we went to Little India ......

then went to Farrer Park ......

then we wanted to go to Buangkok ,

but we're scared if the place is not lyke what we expected ,

cuz the Farrer Park is not what we expected ,

i mean the place , the environment .

so we plan to go to Clarke Quay to spend tymes at the Riverside Boat ,

and we are all hungry ,

so went to LJS at Clarke Quay .

we talked shitss at LJS .

eat and talk and talk ...

and so randomly , Izza , i dont know

she's so hyper ..

saying things that i quite dont lyke ..

and then Izza took my hp ,

and look at my contacts ..

and he called Izzy .

pheew !!

feel lyke killing her tht moment .

hahhahaa !!!

cuz i dont want Izzy to think that ..

think anything .

i grab-ed the phone and lucky he didnt mad or what .

then Izza send me GOODLUCKCHUCK video thru psp .

i love the movie :)

then went to Riverside Boat ,

well , we spent most o our tymes there ,

it was great !

then we it reaches night ,

we plan to take bus from Clarke Quay to Jurong East int .

but then i have to meet Liyana at RP .

so , we took MRT to RP cuz we're scared if we take bus ,

it'll be a long journey and Liyana will piss-ed off waiting for me there .

reaches RP ,

i dont expect to meet Ingelica , Farhan , Nini ...

basically the Rembuctions people , practising .

ofcourse , they shout-ed see-ing me .

and i intro them to my Nutzcrew girls :)

meet Liy and blablablaaa .........

and then we went back home .

freakin tired !!

and tmr is my rest day !!!!!

nothing for me and i dont want anything too :)

p/s : One day with lots of places !

Clarke Quay , Chinatown , Dhoby Ghaut , Little India ,

Farrer Park , Serangoon <3

We want to explore the yellow line too .

but its too late at night ald .

we're scared .........

maybe next tyme round :)

GOING ROUND SPORE IN RANDOM BUSES

2009-12-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

IM FREAKIN TIRED .
WANNA KNOW WHY ?
READ THE ONE IN GREEN ..
Todae was freakin great !
our shows turns out great .
i can really feel it ,
but only for the 1st show .
cuz the 2nd show ,
the crowd abit sucks ...
and Mairaa from 3ot came justnow .
thanks babe :)
and this is the best part .
the guys going to clementi studio for bboying .
and the girls , hang out !!!!!
we took 174 from YMCA and drop at YP .
we went to cineleisure and eat .
then , we were argueing on where we should go after eating .
i want to go to serangoon to see banglas , just for fun :)
Nadyra wants to go to clark quay , and i also agree with this .
but Izza wants to go to east coast park .
well she just wants sea water ..
then Nisa and Amalia just agree with anything .
so the 3 girls , me , Nadyra and Izza keep on argueing ,
but in a joking mode ..
so i plan this .
WE JUST GO TO THE BUS STOP ,
DONT LOOK AT WHERE ITS GOING ,
THE NEXT BUS THAT COMES ,
WE JUST BOARD IT ,
AND JUST SIT IN THE BUS AND
SEE WHERE IT GOES ..
AND WE MUST ONLY DROP AT WHERE THE
BUS TERMINATES .
hehehhehehe !!!
we were at YP bus stop ,
and 111 arrives .
so thats our bus ..
and our face expression was lyke , 111 ??
nvr heard of it before ..
i cant forget Nisa's expression ..
ALL OUT SIAAA !!!
and so the bus goes to Ghimmoh .
we seriously dont know where are we exactly .
so we take the next bus , 100 .
this bus is great !!!
i love this bus !!
but very long journey .
goes town and everywhere , ...
till it drop us at Serangoon int.
from Serangoon ,
we all very tired ald .
TIREDDD till we go to toilet :P
then we take 105 to Jurong East .
cuz we are seriously tired , and just go back to our home town .
but Amalia and Nisa left us earlies .
they drop at kallang in the bus 100 .
left the 3 crazy women :)
we keep on saying ,
'NAK DEKAT SAMPAI , NAK DEKAT SAMPAI ' .
but actually ,
its still fcuking far away ..
we said that just to make us feel relieved ..
wtf ?!
then when its reach Jurong East ,
we took 99 and all the way back to home ..
when i drop the 99 bus at my house's bus stop ,
i seriously RELIEVED .
lyke totally RELIEVED .
its lyke atlast ,
I REACH JURONG WEST STREET 92 !
pheewww !
and its ald late at night .
and tmr we still got our 2nd day-show at dhoby ghaut ,
spore museum .
arghhh !!!
im so lazy , i feel extremely tired ,
but its a great journey .
we share lots of stuffs in the bus .
so people ,
IF YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS ARGUEING ABOUT WHERE TO GO ,
JUST DO AS WHAT THE 5 OF NUTZCREW GIRLS IS DOING

JUSTNOW .YOU WILL ENJOY IT CUZ THE PLACES THAT YOU GONNA GO IS
MYSTERY :)
and tmr after our show ,
we gonna go 'OVERSEAS' ..
or should i say ,
DISCOVERY THE UNKNOWN ?
heeeee ..
cant wait for tmr !!

Museum :)

2009-12-14T23:58:00.002+08:00

The Rehearsal Justnow At The Spore Museum Was Great .

I SERIOUS SHIT Love Everything In There ,

The Building , The Everything !

The Flooring , The Window ......

All The Design Is Loved <3

I Cant Wait To Go To Spore Museum Again ,

Tues (tmr) and Wed (16thdec) .

Cuz We Got 2 Days Show There :)

I Hope The People There Love Our Performances ,

Hopefully .

They Are All Very High Class People ,

So , We(the 8 Nutzcrew) , Thinks That We Are Slacky .

In Terms In What We Are Wearing .

But For Our Performance ,

We Gonna Wear Blazer :)

Pray For The 8 Of The Nutzcrew Tmr All The Best Of Luck Kays :)

MYSELF , JASON , IZZA , NADYRA ,

AMEER , GICO , NISA AND AMALIA <3

Love Ya My Niggas ;)

well , till now , im still worried .
about something .

its been always the two of us ..

2009-12-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

i think i would lyke to post about ,
ME AND IZZA :)
CUZ ITS ALWAYS THE TWO OF US ,
CREATING LOTS OF STUFFS ...
AND ITS THE TWO OF US AGAIN ,
WHO'S ALWAYS LYKE , UMM ..
HOW TO PUT INTO WORDS ,
I THINK NUTZCREW KNOW WHAT THE TWO OF US
ALWAYS DO ..
ITS ALWAYS BEEN THE TWO OF US .
OUR NAME WILL BE IN THE TOPLIST .
AS IN , IN A KINDA BAD SITUATION .
BOTH OF US FACE A BIG CHALLENGES ,
ESP.WHEN IN GENTING ....
BUT THANK GOD ,
WE MANAGED TO HANDLE IT ,
WITH THE HELP OF ABG JAMYL ,
ALIF , JASON , AMEER , GICO , REED , DIN , HAFIZ ..
AND ALSO TO THE REST OF THE NUTZCREW THAT WENT
TO GENTING .
BUT SOMETYMES ,
ITS IRRITATES US RIGHT IZZA ?
WHEN ITS BEEN ALWAYS THE TWO OF US ..
BUT , WE BOTH DO REALISE ITS ALL BECAUSE OF
OUR ATTITUDE .
AND BECAUSE OF OUR ATTITUDE ,
WE LEARNT ALOT .

AND I CAN FEEL THE BONDING ....
HEHHE MY FAV.SENTENCE :)
REMEMBER , IN GENTING ,
BOTH OF US CRIED IN OUR ROOM ,
AND EVENTHO WE CRIED ,
EVENTHO WE'RE IN SADNESS ,
WE STILL DID STUPID STUFFS .
I FART WHEN I CRY ..
THEN WE STILL LAUGH ..
AND REMEMBER EVERYTYME WHEN WE STEP INTO
OUR ROOM ,
WE WILL MAKE THAT HORNY SOUND ..
HAHHAA !
SSSHHH , ONLY BOTH OF US KNOW BOUT IT .
AND EVEN WHEN WE'RE CRYING ,
WE CAN STILL EAT MARRYBROWN .
HAHAHA !!
NANGIS2 PON MASEY BOLEH MKN MARRYBROWN ALL OUT !
I CANNOT TAKE IT THAT PART SIAA ..
ITS GREAT STAYING IN A SAME HOTEL WITH YOU ,
AND THE EURASION GUY INFRONT OF OUR HOTEL ROOM ,
GGGAAAAHHHHSSS !!!!!
FLIRTY SIAA ...
EVEN YESTERDAE WE FLIRT AROUND ..
GODDD !!
AND I JUST REALISED ,
WE FLIRT ONLY WITH EURASION GUYS ..
GEEEEE ...... :)
BUT WE STILL HAVE OUR LIMITS PEOPLE .
DONT GET US WRONG AYTE DEARIES <3
and i seriously wants the pictures , me and those eurasions .
but its in their camera ..
fcukk-ed !!
i only have one (on top)
and he's from Argentina :)

tmr's plan ..
11am - 2pm > Nutzcrew prac for the 15th and 16th show at Spore Museum .
2pm - 4pm > go home , bath and get ready to meet Nutzcrew at 5.30pm .
5.30pm > meet Nutzcrew at Dhoby Ghaut for rehearsals at Spore Museum .
and im not sure what tyme its end :(
i hope our performance turns fine for both 15th and 16th ...
insya Allah amin ...
lets go ELLA , JASON , IZZA , NADYRA , AMEER , GICO , NISA AND AMALIA :)
and thanks to Abg Jamyl and Marius :)

surround-ed by white guys :)

2009-12-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

maybe at first , i am concern-ed ,
im worried and i admit ,
yeah im kinda jealous ............
but as days passes ,
its hurts me but i dont even care anymore .
i wont enter your lyfe and will never ever will .
2 words ,
HATE YA !

and Nutzcrew did well i guess .
we bring the house down ,
from the audience reaction .
omg !!!
WHITE GUYS AND GIRLS .
CHRIS BROWN'S CULTURE !!!
wowowoow !!!
taking pictures , chitchats , hugs and even
kisses for Izza :)
when i was close with the white guys ,
its just reminds of one of my ex , Aisy ... :(
hmmmm ..
he's the best guy i've ever been with .
but pheeww , forget about it !
LOOK FORWARD ELLA !!
but overall ,
its was great justnow !

and one of the white guy ask-ed how he gonna contact me .
i said via facebook .
but both of us dont have a pen or hp to exchange emails ,
and i have ald must go to standby backstage for the shows ,
so yeahh ,
too bad he didnt get my email ...
and our pic was in his camera :(
and when i was dancing on stage ,
he stand infront of the stage and was cheering
loudly .
HAHAHAA !!!
cant deny it ,
he's cute tho :)

Refresh Myself

2009-12-11T23:52:00.001+08:00

well i wanna forget about my sadness .
and begin with a refreshments :)
Nutzcrew gonna have a show at Spore Sports School tmr .
for the Youth Olympic Games and we are invited to perform ,
so yeah :)
i hope everything turns fine tmr , amin ....

yesterdae was tiring ever !
after the rehearsal for Y.O.G ,
then the 9 of the Nutzcrew ,
Ameer , Gico , Alif , Jason , Myself , Izza , Nadyr ,
Nisa and Amalia went to recording studio to do
some recording for our mix .
together with both our instructor and ex instructor ,
Abg Jamyl and Marios .
well , laughter was everywhere ,
hearing Jason's voice , geeee !! :P
when we're done with the recording and mixing ,
then we go to Clementi for the dance studio ,
Student Advisory Centre ,
arnd 6plus .
cuz the 8 of us have a show at spore museum ,
for a Fujifilm blablablaa ...
15 and 16 of dec .
and hopefully its turn fine too :)

and all the best to abang abang ku ,
the 4 Vogues ,
Izzy , Luke , Sri , Fadlie .
for the performance in KL .
have a nice trip .
and hopefully everything goes fine and smooth .
ALL THE BEST DUDEs ! :D